Hi @eden_m01
I'm so sorry to hear this has happened to you. It sounds like you have a lot of love for her and care for her deeply. How she has treated you is not fair and you deserve so much more than that. I can understand what you are going through. In a past relationship, my partner would block me on everything without explanation and I would go crazy thinking of every possible thing I could have done to make him do this and all I wanted was answers so the mental torment could stop. It is very easy to fall into the trap of overthinking - whilst it is a terrible feeling, it is very common and normal. Whilst it is very hard to see now, as it is very fresh and healing takes time, a person who would discard you and your feelings this way does not deserve you in their life.
Healing truly happens with time, and as @starhlights and @shining_sun have already stated, it is definitely a time to be kind and patient with yourself and practice self-care. I am very glad that you have reached out on here, that is a great step and we are here for you! Talking with other support systems you may have might also help, or spending time with friends to keep your mind off of things. Getting through this won't happen overnight but I promise you will get there.
Here is a link to a self-care thread that might give you some ideas for how to take care of you:
https://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Taking-care-of-myself/Today-I-practiced-self-care-by/m-p/240192/hi...
