Hey@V1v1an_0
Exploring gender identity is quite a complex but exciting journey. I can see that neither being female or trans FTM feels right for you, and that you are thinking that you may be non-binary. There are many different gender identities out there, and it can definitely be tricky finding the right one that feels most authentic to you.
I myself am transmasc, which means that I am AFAB (assigned female at birth) but I identify with a masculine identity. I remember when I started really questioning my identity many years ago, I was tossing up between lots of gender identities, but ultimately identified with being transmasc. I think what truly helped me figure out my identity was experimenting with masculine clothes and hairstyles, using new pronouns and trying out a masculine name that felt right for me. It also helped hearing about other transmasc people's journey with finding their gender identity, a lot of these I found online like on YouTube or blogs.
Reach Out does have a fantastic article on Understanding what it means to identify as non-binary that you may find helpful in figuring things out.
I truly hope some of this has helped you a little bit.
-Matcha_Toad 🐸🍵💚
