Hi there @Blue_Dolphin @SteadySteps @QuietFocus211 @Matcha_Toad @LilacLeopard14 and @starhlights
Thank you for all your comments and suggestions from last month, I appreciate it! This has been a big issue for me for a few months and I feel so supported by you all 💜
I finally got to sit down with my therapist for another session last Friday. I wanted to bring up all the issues I'd been having with her at the beginning but I opted to do it at the end because I was too anxious to bring it up right away. Halfway through the session she said something along the lines of "If you felt frustrated with me I'd want you to tell me" while we were discussing something else, so I took that as I sign to be brave and tell her at the end of the session. It was also reassurance she wouldn't get mad at me (not that I thought she would anyways, but i find it hard to criticise others even in a positive/constructive way).
At the end, she asked if we had covered everything I wanted to discuss that session in enough detail and I took that as my opportunity. I explained that, while we did have a good session that day (mostly, I did have to re-explain my desired future career path all over again like usual), I often left sessions feeling frustrated and I outlined the reasons why (in the post). I also brought up the email she never responded to. She said I was right, and that it was unacceptable for her to call me by the incorrect name and to not have responded to my email for a month or so. She also said that if I found myself repeating things, I could tell her "we've already been over this" etc, and not have to touch on it again. She said she would find the email and respond to it that afternoon. In the email she sent me back she said that she had put it aside to reply to later (because it was a long email) but had forgotten about it, and she seemed very sorry. I do get the fact that she is only human and made a mistake. In session she asked me if I wanted to see another therapist, and I said I wasn't sure yet. She seemed deeply apologetic, I've never had someone apologise to me so much in my life. She seemed disappointed in herself too, and very self-reflective.
It seems like she's very proactive for change in our sessions, which I like. She said to email her any time I need to and she will respond to it, and I get the feeling that after this she's going to be extra careful about not forgetting... I think I will attend 1-2 more sessions and see if I want to continue going to her (as they're already booked in, but I can cancel them if I want though). If I decide I still don't like it / feel frustrated, I'll find another psych 🤷
Thanks again everyone 💜
