Hey there gorgeous, I cannot express how sorry I am for not being here for you during this tough time. I feel so, so horrible and selfish for not supporting you. I took a break from RO because I wasn’t happy with something (hopefully it can be resolved) and I didn’t feel like it was helping me. I missed you heaps and heaps as well, I’m so sorry things are so hard for you, reading back, KHL sounds super unhelpful and your mum... well let’s not get into that... Ahh, I’m literally crying. That’s the loveliest thing anyone’s done for me @litgym :) You have such a beautiful soul.   I want you to know that in the few months I’ve known you, you have become my best friend, the only person I’ve really been able to open up to and be myself around. Thank you so, so much for the impact you’ve had on my life.   As I’ve said before, you are such an incredible person whether you realise it or not. I’m so lucky to have known you and I love you from the bottom of my heart. You are so smart and wise beyond your years. I completely respect your decision to leave RO, I will support whatever you choose to do to the best of my abilities.   I can hear how much your struggling bubba, you are the least deserving person for this in the world and honestly, I wish I could carry your burden instead of you. I might not know what your going through, to that extent and I don’t know how to support you properly but I would do anything to relieve your pain.   If you read this, please keep going ____ (insert name ;) ), I’ll always be there in spirit, no matter what. Like a guardian angel. I wish you all the best in life and I really hope that one day, somehow we can get in touch and I can thank for all you’ve done for me.   Lots of love, Annabeth.   ... View more

yeah i can imagine! have you seen the nurses yet? im glad your mums been alright, that would make things that bit more managable. ... View more

I'm proud that I got through today and stayed safe ... View more

ergh that sounds so frustrating!! an hour and a half is a long time, how's your mum been about the whole thing? yay for your nurse :) :) ... View more

oh no @litgym! Maybe sit down if you can or try and alert anyone walking past? that's a long wait isn't it?! sending my love xx ... View more

hey @litgym, that sounds pretty confusing :( I'm glad your in the ED now (as last night you mentioned it as being a safe, calm place for you). aww bummer about your nurse. let us know how you go and if you'll be admitted :) ... View more

thanks @gina-RO <3 well it's 6:30 for me (time difference) and I'll be finishing up swimming and ive got a mountain of homework. still feeling horrible :( ... View more

okay ... View more

nah ill be out at 7:30 I think, don't bother checking in you don't have to @Bananatime04 thank you though ... View more

nah it's fine @Bananatime04. thanks ... View more

I'm not any of those things @Bananatime04, i can't do anything im at school. I've tried everything on there that I can do while at school (obviously calling helplines isn't an option right now.) I have no support @Jess1-RO I'm not going to talk to any professionals because all they do is hurt me and I can't talk to my teachers because i don't trust them and don't have the guts to anyway and my friends would just laugh at me or not talk to me. Thanks <3 ... View more

Thanks @Jess1-RO I'm glad you got to speak with her for a bit even though she had a meeting :) Do you feel any better now? ... View more

thanks @Banantime04 but im really not worth it, so many people are worth more than me. ... View more

im really not @Banantime04 thank you but don't waste your time on me, im not worth it :) ... View more

i can't tell the counsellor the school knows anyway and i can't trust anyone they all just go behind me back and hurt me. i can't be positive there's no light @Bananatime04 im destined for failure. @litgym i don't think you can do anything but thanks <3 i don't want to get upset and hurt your feelings :( ... View more

hmm, can you go to your favourite teacher at break? :) yeah that sounds very scary, reaching out for help is really daunting, sending you my (limited) strength @litgym ... View more

i can't get through this/ i need it to stop, it can't keep happening im not brave. im not at hpe now ... View more

i tried, it didn't work :( My hpe teacher triggered me so im even more of a mess. i just want it to stop. ... View more

Wow guys, thanks heap for posting an update :) I think it's a lot clearer (not that it wasn't) so yeah, thank you for the effort :) ... View more

its too loud, i can't do anything. my head is so noisy ... View more

yeah i have school @Jess1-RO. i don't know, i just feel like im going to break down and burst into tears. i feel so hopeless and weak. the voices have so much control over me. im so small ... View more

no i just feel horrible, I'm so anxious ... View more

im safe ... View more

I don't trust anyone. They're all after me. ... View more

Not great, my voices are so loud. I feel so small and lonely. I can't fight this :( I'm so weak. Why can't I just be ok for once? ... View more