Hi Thank you so much for the comment. I've had a psychologist before and I even talked to my counselor at the university but they aren't much help. Most of the advice is to talk to my parents, that's the one thing I can't do. It's just going to get me yelled at. They don't really listen or care. So it's really difficult.
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To my parents, "I don't know " is just an excuse. To me "I don't know" literally means I don't know. I don't know what I want to do with my life. I don't know why I keep quitting courses. I don't know what subjects I like. I just don't know. I don't know why I have these feelings. I don't know what I'm meant to do. I have no goal. So I'm sorry I'm getting bad grades, I'm sorry that I didn't get into the best university. I'm sorry I wasn't able to please you. I'm sorry that I have no resolution. I just want to travel and stay home with my pets. But I can't. I can't because my parents are too busy trying to impress their friends, too busy comparing me to their children. Too busy emotionally abusing me. I'm sorry I'm such a dissapointment. But I can't do anything about it because I don't know how. I don't know what to do because if I drop a course again they'll just get angry at me and I'll just get depressed. I'll end up having to pay the fees for the course that I've taken. They'll blame me for the waste of money. Why is this so hard? I kept going on from yr10 hoping that I'd have a realisation. But it just hurts. Everything just gets worse. I know most of you will say that it's normal and it takes time. But I can't wait, there's not waiting with my family. There's no solution. I need help. :(
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