TW. Details about eating disorder behaviours.   Hi there, I am a 19 year old female from Sydney but I am currently working as a professional dancer in Japan. I have been struggling with what I think to be an eating disorder for the past year. I have spoken to countless eating disorder online chats asking for help but each time I am told their programs and resources can't help me because I am not currently in AUS.   I think it would be difficult to find help in Japan as I have very very basic Japanese language skills as I've only been here for less than a year. If I need to make any kind of medical appointment, I must do so through my workplace and I fear if they know I am struggling mentally, It may jeopardise my employment   I began to restrict my food intake in hopes of losing weight. I haven’t had a period in over a year and In this time I also began having what I think were panic attacks if someone at work said something weight/food related or if I was spontaneously invited to go out for dinner and didn’t have time to plan in advance for it.   I also started having binge episodes at night, which is also making me anxious, as I'm concerned that these episodes will cause me to gain weight, which is a thought that triggers my ED.   I fear that it’ll be hard to find help because I don't think I really fit an eating disorder diagnosis, I'm not underweight and I worry people won’t take me seriously as they won’t think I have a problem. I still go out to eat with people, I’m at a healthy weight, I eat proper meals but food is still the only thing ever on my mind.   I'm really not sure where to find any online support as I've contacted so many helplines and chats and they all either give me a link to another organisation/forum or tell me they can't help me as I'm temporarily overseas. ... View more