Hi,  I am so sorry I have no idea how to post properly reading through this I just rambled and I'm really sorry if it doesn't make much sense. I just have no idea what to do and was wondering if anyone here has any advice if you have time? Heh so around couple of months ago I think one of my friends tried to 'do it' with me. Like its not that big of a deal all he did was touch my arms and legs and sort of kiss my arms (i dont know if its kissing if its on the arm i dont know) and nearly push me down but that's not the worst thing that could have happened so yay! I kind of overreacted afterwards because I would never have expected anything like that to happen with him like i had no idea he was even into that sort of stuff. But I should have handled it better while it happened.  I mean I reacted badly by just laughing it off the whole time and just saying 'it was weird' plus there was a movie going on the whole time to distract me. I really hate myself for it because i just agree to things i don't want to do for some reason and I think it would have gotten to 'that' stage if I hadn't gotten my phone out. The whole time i was thinking 'just say no' or 'stop' or just signal some sort of non-consent but I didn't do it for some reason.  Anyways I have been managing to not think about it because i thought he would have gone to another country (for uni, i read online that you can get an exemption if you're staying for over three months for important reasons shouldn't uni be one of them?). I quit my socials so I wouldn't have to talk to him. The point is I thought i would never see him again so i could just focus on school + home + other pressures But it was only recently that I found out he was still here and was going to go to my school for some event. i got worried he would talk to my friends to the point where i had a stupid dream about it. but i was going to plan for it until i bumped into him even more recently and talked for about a minute until I saw someone I knew walking by and left to talk to him. I feel bad for using that person as an escape I think I made the conversation awkward by just interrupting his walk.  Anyways the point is i will probably have to see him again because of the event that still hasn't happened yet. I don't want to see him again and I also don't want him to get near my friends. I'm worried he might turn up before or after the event so I've been pretty hypervigilant at school in case he showed up again. I've told all my friends with my phone number to under no circumstances give it away to anyone. I'm also worried that I'll agree to something I don't want to if I see him again. I have no idea what I'm doing and I have a bunch of assessments all next week and I don't want to think about this then as much as I am right now.  ... View more