Hi All, I must start by saying that I am very new to all of this, so bare with me. I don't even know if this is the right forum to be posting in, but here I go. Over the past 4 years my life has been a struggle. I have battled every day with obsessive compulsive disorder, depression and worst of all a drug addiction. It has only been in the past few months that I have recognized and come to terms with the fact I have an issue, and more than one. I wonder to myself, "What has happened in the past few months to finally motivate me to change?" I have struggled with an addictions to marijuana/legal highs for the past 4 years, I am smoking just as much now than I was then, so why now? For what ever reason, I am truly grateful. I must have come to the point in my life where enough was enough. I am only 22, but I felt like I had wasted my whole life,I had lost all sense of reality, I had become such a bad person. I tried to get help several times, but there just wasn't much out there. I think I had it in my mind that I could rock up to a doctor, share my problem and he would give me some sort of tablet and everything would be OK. This clearly wasn't the case, so I just kept on smoking. I had the attitude that talking to someone would be of no help. How is talking going to cure my issues? But what an amazing difference it has made. I am only at the beginning of my journey, but if I feel this positive now, I can only imagine how good I will feel in 6-12 months. The past 4 years of my life have been the darkest. I have become a totally different person. I have bottled everything up inside of me to the point where I just couldn't take it anymore; it was time for a change. This is the most honest I have ever been with anyone.I have always been to embarrassed and proud to tell anyone. Most of my friends probably think I live a normal, happy life. If only that was the case. TODAY, my journey starts here. It's not going to be easy and no doubt there will be set backs, but at least I have taken the first step. I have finally acknowledged that things will get better and that I CAN DO IT. It's strange, a few months ago I wouldn't tell anyone, not even my dad or mum know and now all I want to do it tell the whole world. Thanks ofr listening to me rant! Ifeel so much better and positive.
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