hey,  if you're reading this i'd just like to thank you for taking some time to bother (:  anyways, im not sure how to start this off...    i feel really hopeless. every day doesn't feel real. it just feels hazy. i've recently got into a selective school and i feel so useless there. i dont think im doing good in any of my classes, and i don't feel "good" at anything. i get so worried over small things. im mainly failing my classes because of my inability to present orally. im terrible at public speaking, and i start shaking and i don't know what to say. my friends always tease and mock me about it. i know, "if they tease you about things you feel insecure about, they're not your friends," but they're all i really have.   my friends also always tease each other and stuff as jokes, but sometimes before i go to sleep, i remember what they say, and it kind of just sinks into my brain and it kind of feels as if they were meaning it, and i spend ages overthinking about it, and i just get freaked out a lot.    im always getting in trouble at school and always for little things. i don't mean to get myself in trouble, but when i do, i always have this sinking feeling that everyone thinks im trying to do it for attention.   sometimes when im nervous, i start to speak louder and act more outgoing, or laugh a lot, and it comes across as show-offy, and i just feel so hopeless. when im at parties i have to go with a friend, or else i'll freak out, but when i do, i always follow them around and i feel really clingy.    i know a lot of people have it worse than me, but im just so worried every day. it's gotten to the point that im scared to go to school and always fake sick or stay at home.   thank you so much again for taking time to read this.  ... View more