Hello Everyone,    I literally just joined 10 minutes ago as things have been tough lately.    Body Image... the word gives me anxiety. I gain and gain and keep gaining weight. I want to just stop eating all together really. I'm sick of hearing 'you will never get fat' and 'you are quite skinny'. That is all judgement from the outside of my clothes. But under all that clothing I feel disgusting. My butt is getting fatter, my stomach has become a balloon and don't get me started on my thunder thighs. I want guidence, but I also want to rant anonymously. I want to stop eating but I am in the middle of assessments and I feel it is best if I get them over with, I can finally become skinny. Although, I have attempted to eat less, and I'm either on the verge of fainting or my stomach rumbles SO loud in class that it becomes embarrising. It just shows how I eat so much on a daily basis, that I can't stand a couple of days without eating. I'm such a pig ): I honestly don't have any close friends right now, we have drifted. Plus if I told my family/parents they would go crazy protective. I don't want help, I want to be skinny.    I guess I need online friends who I can rant to and not get judged :/  ... View more