Hi @Jardin ,
I definitely hear what you are saying. As a more introverted person myself, I do appreciate some time just for myself, focusing on what I enjoy and find interesting the most. I think everyone comes on a spectrum, and have different levels of social interaction that satisfies them. I feel that as long as you yourself as an individual could feel content and fulfilled, the actual amount of "social life" you have is not as important as it is deemed in society.
However, I think it is also completely natural, that at times, we do yearn for social interaction and relatedness as you are feeling sometimes. It is baked in to us humans as social animals, and I think it is important to not ignore this desire ❤️ Although parties may be a great opportunity to do so as your mum had said, it is definitely not for everyone (like myself 😋) and there are so many other different opportunities we can socialise 😃
If I understand correctly, you often find yourself having different interests with those you hang out with which feels as it is preventing you from further developing the relationship with that person. As @Onion and @AngelJoy had said, you'd be surprised by how many people would share some the interests you have. Joining a club in your local area for one of your interests might be a helpful way you could interact and relate with other people more closely while not feeling too committed to every individual. Fortunately, we live in the age of the Internet, and we can also interact and relate to others online as we are doing right now! There are many online forums and communities for common interests like subredddits on Reddit, which you could just chill and chat with others with common interests while not being committed to anyone at all. Is this something that you might be interested in doing, or are already doing?
I really appreciate that you have reached out with this concern, and hopefully hear back from you soon 💕
