I feel alone
Is it just me or does everyone feel so alone. I made a mistake today because of my short term memory loss.Because I forgot to do this important thing, my mum is now cross at me and doesn’t want me to be around her. I know that it’s understandable that she’s upset because it’s something that affected her but at the same time it feels so unfair that I’m suffering the consequences for something that I didn’t mean to do. I just feel like no one understands what it’s like to be me every single day.
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Hey @ButterflyGirl,
That sounds really tough, and it’s completely understandable why you’re feeling this way. It’s frustrating when you’re trying your best, but things still don’t go the way you want, especially when it’s something you didn’t do on purpose. It makes sense that it feels unfair to face the consequences of something that’s out of your control.
I think it's awesome that you're seeing a counsellor, but it can be challenging when it's once every three weeks. I'm wondering if you have discussed things you can do to take care of yourself when you are feeling overwhelmed? For me, the smallest of things can have a big impact, such as going on a walk outside or reading a book.
In the meantime, if it'd be helpful, ReachOut has a PeerChat service that you can read more about here. The article provided by @Astra-RO also looks like a good read.
Please know the ReachOut community will always be here to listen and support you. I'm wishing you the very best moving forward! 💛
I'm sorry to hear that you're feeling this way. I think it's very important to remember that you didn't mean to forget, it wasn't done on purpose, and if you had remembered then you would've done the task. Every time I make mistakes, I like to repeat mantras like that to myself so that I can remember it's normal to make mistakes sometimes.
It can be very difficult to feel isolated, in feeling like nobody understands what it's like to be you every day. I know that I feel this from time to time as well, and it can be really hard. I'm wondering how you've been coping with this lately?
Best wishes 💜
Hey @ButterflyGirl welcome to ReachOut
I'm so sorry to hear that you are feeling alone and that no one truly knows how it feels to be you and the things you struggle with.
To answer your question, I sometimes feel alone, regardless of how many people I have in my life. Throughout the years I've begun to love my own company, I know it's tough to feel like no one can understand you, but it is quite the beautiful thing that despite people not knowing, they continue to try to understand you better.
Has feeling alone been an occurrence that has happened recently?
Wishing you all the best,
~ Stego
Hi, yes it has been. I usually feel it when my family expects me to do things that I can’t do that day because of one of my health issues. It just sucks that they don’t fully understand and don’t seem to have much grace for them. They just say that everyone goes through hard things at times and I just have to put up with it and do what I’ve been asked.
Hey @ButterflyGirl thanks for reaching out and welcome to the community
I'm sorry to hear you're feeling so alone 😞 One thing I can say is you're definitely not alone in feeling alone, it's not just you. Struggling with disability or chronic illness can be so isolating, especially when people don't understand what you go through on a daily basis. It doesn't sound fair that your mum is mad at you about something you don't have control over. Does she know that short-term memory loss is something you struggle with?
I'm wondering how are you coping with everything? Do you have anyone in your life who you can talk to about this?
The community is here for you if you want to talk any more about how you're feeling or if you just want to vent. We also have some articles on serious and chronic illness here and you might also like to check out Livewire
Hi, thank you for reaching out. My mum is definitely aware of my disability but she is a single mum and has a lot on her plate. I’m also the one that is home the most so she relies on me to do the things the rest of my family can’t. I do have a counsellor but due to her busy schedule I can only see her once every three weeks. There is a few people that I can talk to about health issues that understand but I thought that using the group chat would be good for venting with others that can understand all of my many health issues when I’m surrounded by a family that doesn’t really have grace for them. Thank you for all that you do.
