My FP is destroying me…
I have BPD and I’ve only been away from my FP (favourite person) for an hour and a half and I’m literally breaking down. I wish I didn’t have to live like this. If you have bpd, please share what helped you. People who don’t have it just can’t understand. 😞
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Hey @iamchappellroan
I've had a fair share of experiences when it comes to Borderline and I'm so sorry to hear that you're struggling to cope, I understand how exhausting it can be to feel like your emotions are constantly being up and down all because of one person.
The things that helped me were seeing a therapist and starting medication, this approach really helped me out but the medication only went so far when I stopped seeing my therapist. The handiest trick I've been told by my therapist was to decrease the times I use the word FP, when I started to limit using the word I found it very helpful for me to cope with my struggles as I refrained from putting them on a pedestal.
As difficult as it was, I had to decrease the amount of time I spent with other people and be more aware of the time I actually do choose to spend with others. I was constantly in a state of "flux" as I describe it, I always made myself available for the potential that the person I was attached to at the time wanted to hang out with me and in the cases where they didn't want to hang out or they were busy, my heart would shatter and start a spiral of negative thoughts. The only way I overcame this was to sit down with all of my negative feelings, never entertaining them but just sitting down and letting the emotions run through.
It was difficult at the start but it's going on uphill in terms of my journey with BPD.
I can't imagine the pain you're going through, I hope you found some reprieve from my reply.
If it is available for you, I recommend seeing a therapist and seeking therapy approaches that are suited for you, from a therapist that you like talking to. It took at least 2 years before I landed with a therapist and therapy approach that I enjoyed, in particular, Dialectical Behaviour Therapy and medication worked the best for me.
I'm wishing you the best and good luck, chappell
~ Stego
Hi @iamchappellroan,
I want to start by thanking you for your post and sharing what's been happening for you recently. It takes a lot of strength and courage to share your experience, especially online and i want you to be so proud of yourself for taking this step. The community is here to support you 🙂
From what i have read i can see that you might be feeling a lot right now, and that's ok. It's really amazing to see that you have found someone that you can connect and feel close with as well as enjoy their company. It can be hard when you find a new connection with someone, especially when you really enjoy spending time with them to then have to leave and be without them for a while. It's important to remember that sometimes you have other commitments you have to do, but that doesn't mean that fun times with that person won't happen again soon. During the time away from your favourite person, is there anything you like to do to take your mind of their absence, such as self-care?
I also wanted to commend and thank you for sharing your experiences with BPD. Sharing personally experiences can be very challenging and it's so incredible to see you wanting to connect and discover strategies that you can utilise in the future. You should be so proud of yourself for taking this step towards your own well-being, it's really amazing to see 🙂
Finally i wanted to share this article ReachOut has on What is Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD), you might find interesting.
All the best, and i hope to hear from you soon 🙂
