Hi @Livvy_Gold ,
I'm sorry to hear that you have been through a lot lately, and no one asked you how you are. It must be so hard to bottle up all these emotions and not have an outlet. Loneliness/isolation can really make things worse, just as talking to someone can help release some of these feelings.
Have you ever contacted services such as Kids Helpline on 1800 55 1800? Sometimes just having someone to listen can help with those bottled up feelings.
As the same time, I'm sorry to hear that you are getting bullied at school. This factsheet about How to Deal with Being Bullied may be of interest to you.
From you post, you mentioned "its really hard to be happy these days since covid". Does that mean that pre-covid, there were things that you looked forward to? Would it help to share some of what you used to look forward to?
I'll be sending an email your way shortly.