Hey @Tjj 
I’m really sorry that happen to you. Please remember that it was not your fault. As Astra said, you were too young to consent. It’s fairly common for child sexual assault to be presented as a game, especially if the perpetrator is also a child. You are not alone. Is there anyone you can talk to about what you’ve experience? Sometimes having support can make a world of difference.
Welcome to the online community @Tjj -I wanted to thank you for reaching out about what happened, it can take a lot of courage to talk about traumatic experiences.
I'm so sorry to hear you went through this, what happened was not okay and it does sound like sexual assault. It would be really confronting and confusing realising that what happened to you was sexual assault and I just wanted you to know that you're not alone and what happened to you was not your fault. You were a child and couldn't understand or consent to what was happening.
I just wanted to share the service 1800 Respect with you who offer support for people who've experienced sexual assault as well as this article about what to do if you've realised a past experience was sexual assault, if these are helpful at all.
Just a heads up I've made some edits to your post and added a spoiler tag in alignment with our Community Guidelines. We'll be sending you an email soon as well to check in so please keep an eye out for that
The community is here for you
few years ago but I just couldn't help the feeling.
Hi @Tjj 
Welcome back to the community! It sounds like the support you got here has brought some clarity for such a traumatic experience.
How are you feeling now that you have some more insight into what has happened?
Hi @Tjj,
It's understandable that there is a mix of feelings at the moment for you. On the one hand I can hear that you're feeling a little better but on the other, it sounds like this has also brought back some hurt and pain.
Have you had the chance to talk to someone you trust about what has happened?
I'm also wondering if you feel able to do anything to look after yourself this evening? It can be emotionally and mentally draining to recall a traumatic experience.
We are here to support you, along with 1800RESPECT who you can chat with one-to-one at any time too. We also have a list of other services for anyone impacted by sexual assault.
