Hey @lemurien, thank you for keeping us updated with everything thats been going on. It sounds like you have a lot on your plate right now!

You mentioned that you felt that it was your fault somehow. Do you mind me asking why you think this is your fault? I have seen just how hard you have worked on your mental health, all the time and effort and changes you have made. You really have come such a long way already @lemurien 

You have waited so long for the support you currently have, so its completely understandable that you worry about whats to come. I just want to remind you that there is no one-size-fits-all when it comes to mental health and treatments. As horrible as it can be, it can take time to find something that works for you. I am sorry to hear that you had some unsettling side-effects with a new med though. Med changes can be awful so im sorry you had to go through that.  

You mentioned that you have so many fears right now, so I was just wondering if you would feel better sharing some of them with us?

I'm sorry you've been feeling so lonely and anxious being at home by yourself, I can definitely relate to this. What kind of things have you found that help you get through everyday? Don't forget that we're alll here for you 💜