aww well hopefully your brother isn’t too much of a pain on saturday @N1ghtW1ng you’ve gotten me into ninjago music especially ‘Found My Place’ because so upbeat !! i hope you have a good sleep ... View more

Are you an adult (over 18) yet? no, im not yet. im 14 :)   If yes, do you enjoy being an adult? If no, are you looking forward to it?  im not really sure if im looking forward to being an adult. i feel like it would be quite life changing and a lot of work. but im kinda excited because i get to make my own choices and do stuff by myself e.g make delicious vegetarian meals !! go to my gp without dealing with parents etc. exploring the world and no one stopping me :)     ... View more

sorry you haven’t had a great day :( @N1ghtW1ng on the bright side you don’t have to deal with your brother ! is there any self-care you can do tonight ?  ... View more

it went okay @N1ghtW1ng he gave me a prescribtion for my medication and he said to start on saturday morning.    i guess the self-care ive done is probably just lay in bed and listen to music (oops i listened to music for probably 8 hours straight today😬) ... View more

  hugs 💘💘 @Bee     ... View more

yesterday: 1. i had a 2 hour sleep at lunch time 2. did 4 hours of my science assessment    today: 1. i actually put effort into my school work 2. i was decently happy for once ... View more

i smiled because my ex-favourite teacher remaindered me that if i need anything she’s around :) ... View more

hey @Blurryphaced like @scared01 said sleep can be a lifesaver. i hope seeing your counsellor tomorrow helps :) how are you feeling today ?  ... View more

hey @N1ghtW1ng im so sorry about your brother. you don’t deserve that and he should treat you with respect :( has things been any better today ? ... View more

hey @Bee yeah i did speak to KHL about how im feeling.   ive had some really bad days over the week and today has been the only day ive seem some light in the darkness. i briefly opened up to my ex-fav teacher that im starting anti-depressants. i kinda miss her in a way but she’s hurt my feelings too many times + her hugs make me feel at home you know. im at my GP now 😬 ... View more

hey @Blurryphaced im sorry you’re feeling like this, i can definitely relate and it’s not a good feeling is it :( has anything made you feel more anxious ? have you  spoke to anyone about how you’re feeling ?  we’re here to listen ... View more

1. made a fruit salad 2. somehow did 2 hours of my science assessment even though i only did 2 out of 16 pages. ... View more

hey @N1ghtW1ng sounds like you’re not having a good day :( would you like to talk about what happened ? <3 ... View more

hey @Bree-RO i actually spoke to KHL last night. im just so stressed and overwhelmed with assessments and i physically and mentally can’t do it :/ ... View more

hey @Taylor-RO thanks for article, i had a read through it ;)   i just can’t seem to “relax”. i try to but i can’t. ive given it my all. ive tried to stay positive for so long and i can’t anymore.  ... View more

big hugs 💞 @Bee ... View more

1. saw my best friend (it’s been too long !) 2. got a second hand jumper and it’s really nice 3. my old art teacher and head of year told me how good my artwork is :) ... View more

i proud of myself for some how getting through the last 2 days. ... View more

i guess ive calmed down a bit but im still so done with everything @Bee i don’t how im going to do anything. i need a break. i just don’t know myself anymore. i feel mad.  not really bothered to do self-care, i’ve just been lying in bed the last 3 hours😬 + attempting assessments but giving up after 2 minutes. ... View more

@Bee awww that’s so sweet !! you’ve honestly made my bad day better. you always say so many positive things about me that makes me smile. im very grateful you’ve taken time to talk to me when things have been tough ... View more

yeah it means a lot to me when people say nice things about me because i don’t really live in an environment when im recognised for things. @Bee yeah it’s really annoying, i was going to use that as my excuse but then i ended kinda crying.   honestly today was horrible again !! i feel like im going mad. nothing will stop. everything has just reached out of control. i can’t control anything. all these unwanted thoughts. i can’t take it anymore of anything or anyone. everything is too much. i get no work done in class because it’s too much effort. it’s so bad. i honestly need a break from everything. i physically and mentally can’t do anything. i can’t explain how much everything is effecting me. i also have no friends to turn to at school. im quietly suffering and i hate it so much.   sprry for the vent. ... View more

hey @Bee , yeah i might do the notes but maybe in a month or so because it’s still pretty nervewrecking to just get there.   ill have a look at the link after :)   honestly had the shittest day ever yesterday. i spoke to my teacher which i really appreciated. she said all this really kind things about me which made me cry (i barely ever receive compliments :/) now i won’t see her for 5 weeks so that’s kinda gonna be hard because everything is getting worse for me + starting medication + LOADS of assessments. but she said she may make the science assessment easier for me because i have so much on my plate. then everyone gave me shit because i was speaking to her at lunch like back off it’s none of your buisness. then my spanish put me on the spot to answer a question in front of the class and i was already having a break down and spazzing out. honestly i don’t even know what was happening my mind was kinda everywhere. now at gymnastics i can’t even do a back walkover with spotting. the whole time my friend was wouldn’t stop asking “why were you taking to *teacher*?” and im not even motivated now to do anything when im at gym.   eww this turned out to be a kinda long paragraph oops. ... View more

that’s good you’re on eheadspace, it’s a great alternative when you’re not getting offline support. @scared01 and you’re not a boring person, trust me !  ... View more

yeah im happy i found her :) @Bee   the note thing sounds like a good idea, i might try it.   i haven’t seen the ads from Beyond Blue. it’s honestly too much effort from me and i don’t know if im even gonna do well. completely stuffed from doing well now. i don’t rwally think there’s anyone to ask for help tbh :/ ... View more

mm i guess but he’s always away so we just have subs and then when he decides to show up he’s like “oh you’re animation is due in a week”. @scared01 i hope so because i don’t wanna feel more down than i am and playing with my moods. ... View more

i guess yeah but it’s really awkward because they don’t know me too well @N1ghtW1ng  my teacher whose leaving knows about my anxiety, depression and stress so she knows how to work with me and explain things for me. such a shame she’s gone while we have to do our assessment.   i don’t think i really have any. i kinda just twll myself you have to do this or you’re going to fail. but now i don’t even care which is so bad. im trying my best even though it isn’t my “best”. ... View more

yeah very true @scared01 i have to make an animation in my technology class and i can’t be bothered. it’s so bad. i don’t understand it, i don’t actually know what to do it on and the teacher is not help. my laptop is being a pain and ive honestly given up on that. so let’s get ready for me to fail that. just really tired, meds are gonna make me feel even worse for a while too so that’s great ! ... View more

1. saw the school counsellor and told her i don’t want to see her anymore. 2. got the tiniest bit of homework done. ... View more

mmm @scared01 yeah maybe :/ idek anymore. just given up. ive never found completing assessments this hard before. it’s such a struggle. ... View more

yeah it’s such a pain in the butt @N1ghtW1ng my assessments aren’t exactly hard it’s just not easy so my mind automatically goes ‘too hard can’t do’ because i actually have to use my brain which is such a trek. i also don’t understand my science assessment because i suck at biology. im going to ask for help tmrw but my teacher is leaving for over a month so we’re going to have sub which isn’t helpful esp in the “assessment time”. ... View more