I’m having a party with both guys and girls  it’s a movie night what are some good gripping movies that guys and girls enjoy? ... View more

I’ve started working through feelings and struggles by channeling my thoughts onto paper in the form of poetry. this is my first poem. I don’t think it’s that good.  What do you think?   Hiding the hurt, Hiding the pain, Hiding the tears that fall like rain, Saying I’m fine when I’m anything but, This ache in my heart rips at my gut, My skin is on fire, I burn from within, The calm on my face is an ongoing sin, Loneliness consumes me, It eats away the years, Until my life is swallowed by unending fears, It’s getting harder to hide, All the feelings I’ve built up inside, It seems to be, That the struggles are always with me, Cluttered mind, Cluttered thinking, It’s hard to keep in touch, with what’s around me, And not worry too much. ... View more

I finally told my mum about my self harm and she said to me ”ugh I don’t want to have to deal with a self Harmer” is that what I am? if that’s all I am  Then I don’t want to be here i want to be a better person  i want to get better but my Mum isn’t helping  I said to her “Mum, I’m trying to be a better person, can’t you see that?” she said “no, you’ll always be this way, you lie, (I don’t), you cheat (I dont), you fall behind in school (I do) you’ll always be this person” it was really hurtful coming out of my own mothers mouth i deliberately fall behind in school because I want the school to call her so she has to think about me. she doesn’t see that I am craving her attention she doesnt see that I want her to love me she doesn’t see that I want the two of us to get along. all she sees is a depressed, worthless, self harmer  ... View more

You know what’s funny? ive been up all night doing my design and technology major work portfolio i have been in my school uniform all night!  HSC is fun! Not! Especially when it’s compressed! whelp this was my first ever all nighter ... I guess there’s a first for everything! I DEFINITELY look forward to the many more all nighters because of HSC! hahaha I’m chuckling so much coz I’m so tired!  Well giess what I can’t sleep in and I can’t Miss out on school because I have to hand in this major work! wish me luck everyone! please? I can’t believe I didn’t even put my pyjamas on! ... View more

I used to be a happy, bubbly, sweet, excited, crazy girl. Now I’m scared of everything. I hate myself. I have scars. I’m not happy anymore. I can’t take it anymore. I feel like the world would be a better place without me. Like what part in this world do I play that is important? What is the point of me being here anymore. I’m so stressed it’s so overwhelming. I don’t know how much longer I can do it. I miss my relationship with my mum. My sister hurts me nearly everyday, physically and emotionally and she’s disabled! I just don’t see a future.   the thoughts are getting so loud and are taking over me. I don’t want to act on them. Im Scared of myself. I’m scared of what life is going to throw at me tomorrow and the next day and the next day etc... I’m scared if when I’m having the bad thoughts I’m going to follow through with them then there will be no turning back.  I Need help It probably doesn’t even matter. No one cares about me anyway. ... View more

I love my mum so much. But I can’t seem to be able to get along with her anymore. We barely talk and when we do we argue. It hurts me so much. We used to be best friends now it feels like i don’t even know her anymore. im so hurt by the way she talks to me. i hate my life i want to have a normal happy family i feel like I’m not good enough to have any kind of love.     ... View more