Thanks @lokifish for welcoming me :) I didn't notice that this was an australian site haha, thanks for pointing that out too. Being able to read and share experiences with people like us helps me a lot. I rarely see discussions that I can relate to as most of us find it hard to share these things in public even with an anonymous entity. I'll be sure to check sexuality section to see more threads that may give me more insight in life. Lots of thanks!
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Hi @downthelane, somehow I've been in a nearly similar situation with you back when I was in college, mine was slightly complicated though. I was a closeted gay guy back then and fell in love so hard for this one guy friend of mine, I got very obsessed with him and I literally was in the brink of madness if not with the help of my best friend. He was the second person I opened up with my sexuality, right after calling the guy late at night to confess my love hahah. I was very devastated that night that I needed someone to know the entire situation i was in and console me from the pain. My best friend was very shocked, the reply I got from him was "I wish you hadn't told me." I was hurt, really, i told him "just deal with it you b*tch!" Hehe we are very vulgar only to each other, he knows that behind that faint smile I show to people is a ferocious beast that will devour anyone who tries to corner me. And I know he's got a nasty personality too when triggered, hehe. It was awkward for a day until he broke the silence and told me frankly that he doesn't care what I think I am because I will always be a guy for him and will keep treating me as a guy. And up until now, he's still my buddy and everything was still the same. He is straight and he is in a relationship with his long time gf. I admit, this guy is handsome, he's actually my type. I tend to stare at him when he sits still and just keep silent. But when he starts to talk, I completely lose all that romantic attraction towards him haha. I know this is over a year now but I still hope you'll be able to read this. I wish you could share more of your experiences as a gay guy as I have more to share too. I'm in my mid 20' and I'm still experiencing a lot of confusions in life. I'm only open with my very close friends but plan to really get out in the open and find peace and happiness.
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