Today I...   - Remembered my sleep meds - Ate a chocolate croissant and tried to enjoy it - Ate a calorie surplus despite my brain screaming at me to restrict   Today I didn't...   - Drink enough water - Exercise  - Remember my anxiety meds - Say hi to someone I saw that I knew in town ... View more

I don't know what to do, I feel so awkward and anxioud. Today I went out with a guy that I like as a friend, and he asked me if I'd be ok with holding hands, and i was like haha no, but then later he told me he liked me, and I just kind of laughed it off?? I don't think he knows but like I feel no attraction towards him because I'm a major lesbian, but like I can't keep hanging out with him without making it clear that I don't like him like that. What do, should I just write 'I'm gay' on my forehead next time i see him. Ugh why do I have to be such an awkward socially anxious aspie. ... View more

I am a disappointment To my mother who feels sick to look at me I am a disappointment To my sister who's heart breaks when she hugs me I am a disappointment To my father who rants secretly about me I am a disappointment  To my friends and teachers who see my hallow body I am a disappointment to myself A pathetic, obsessive, stubborn, skeleton of a nobody ... View more

I am going on holiday in one week and I'm so anxious. I have anorexia, and the thought of not being able to control my food scares me. Plus, my family will constantly be on my back about eating, and I won't be able to escape it. How do I enjoy my holiday without worrying about this.  ... View more

Ahhhhh My work experience is in two days and I am LOSING IT I feel so s t r e s s e d ESPECIALLY because of my social anxiety, and I don't even know how I'm going to survive. Anyone have some good tips for coping ? ... View more

I can't do this anymore It has been three years Three years of hiding my ED, of pretending everything is fine, of telling people over and over again that nothing is wrong Three years of obsessing over food, over being scared of eating out, of having an essential eating schedule  Three years of going to doctors to check my weight, three years of fighting with my mum and disappointing her because I can never seem to eat enough I have denied it for so long, doctors and psychologists were suspicious for months and months until they finally believed me. Yet, it is a lie, and I can't tell them after hiding it for so long. My family will despise me, no one will trust me. I'm sick of this, I don't know what to do.  ... View more

In a few months im going away on holidays, and I am terrified. I have ASD, and major parts of that are that I need schedules, consistency, and control in many areas including  morning and nighttime routines, activities, items, and food. I am really worried because I'm holiday I won't be able to have a consistent schedule to follow, I won't be able to bury myself in books and knowledge and I'll have to be in the real world with people, I won't be able to use my fork, my spoon, my cup with my food, and I won't be able to control my foods and have the dishes I like. I can't sit in my spot and close myself away from the world. Everything I do in my day is basically the same as the day before and I like it that way and I'm scared of the change. ... View more

So I have been invited to a birthday dinner for one of the people I go to school with, and I don't know what to do. People are telling me I need to go because it's her birthday and I should be doing it for her because she's my friend, but the thing about having a low self esteem is that I don't believe she would really care or want me there anyway. I HATE social outings with a passion and am t e r r I f I e d of going. Plus, it's an added thing I need to worry about in that I have dietary requirements and NOTHING they serve at the restaurant their going to can even be altered for me to eat. I don't know what to do, Im stuck in a spiral of not wanting to go, feeling guilty, and then wondering why I feel guilty because she won't care.  ... View more

I am so much better. A few months ago, I was self harming every night, I was considering running away, i constantly wanted to die. I started taking anti-depressants, things got better, and I feel happier, less stressed, and have been able to better control my desire to self harm. However, recently I feel like I'm starting to unravel. Thinking about the past, part of me wants to stop taking my meds so I can go back there because it's safer and I deserve it anyway. I want to feel sadder, I deserve all of it. I don't know what to do, I feel like I'm going to sabotage all my progress. ... View more

One of my biggest triggers for my anxiety is yelling. It makes me feel absolutely ill when people are loud, angry, swearing, etc. because I feel like I've done something wrong. This makes living in my house quite hard. It's not like my family are abusive or anything, but when they're angry they rant, swear and lecture and even if I'm not on the receiving end I feel awful. I don't know what to do because this is their way of letting of steam and I can't expect them to stop. ... View more

I'm a cis f. I wear dresses and skirts, I like 'feminine' things, and I am anything but 'manly', yet I still suffer from what I can best describe as dysphoria. I hate my chest (and I'm very flat chested) and I only wear sports bras and loose clothing because tight shirts and normal bras make them more obvious. I'm also really thin and have short hair, so the rest of my body kinda looks like a boy anyway, and when my hair gets too long I hate it and I'm a bit concious of gaining curves. I literally have no idea what this means, am I fluid, do I just not like being more grown and  'sexual' if that makes sense. Anyone got any ideas?  ... View more

I'm so stupid. I hadn't self harmed for two weeks but today was awful and I couldn't stop myself. It feels like whenever things become stable and I am slowly climbing out of the dark hole I live in, I slip and fall right down to the bottom again. I still have two weeks till I see my counsellor and I have no one to reach out to. I don't know how I'm going to survive. ... View more