I am so confused??? I have really bad anxiety in social situations (not 'social anxiety' tho) and I have no idea where it comes from and I just feel so alone. People in my class can answer questions, and even put their hand up, but if a teacher asks me, my heart just starts pumping like crazy and I can't form any words. My friends can get up for a speech meanwhile I'm frozen in my seat. Everyone in my class can talk to each other but I have a small friend group who I still don't feel fully comfortable talking to. I can't even order my own freaking coffee most of the time, and if I do I just go as red as a tomato. I cried the other day because a substitute teacher I didn't know was watching me work and I panicked. Am I just too weak to handle it, and everyone feels the same way? Is their people like me and I just haven't met any? Or is it possible I have an issue? I just feel so lost ... View more

Tomorrow I have a speech and I am absolutely FREAKING out. I am so, so awful at public speaking because of how terrified I am of it, and I know it's going to go horribly. I just know I'm going to freeze up like I always do, before having a breakdown in front of everyone. I don't know how I'm going to do this, the anxiety is overwhelming and I hate it so much. I want death. ... View more

I'm sick of feeling anxious all the time. I am a constant raging ball of s t r e s s and it's so tiring and NOTHING IS HELPING. I go to a psychologist and she has done NOTHING that has actually helped me, (I've been going for quite some time) and I have done a lot of research and NOTHING WORKS. I have horrible pains in my jaw from grinding my teeth, loss of appetite because I feel so sick, and I'm always on the verge of crying. My mind is so taken up by these thoughts I don't even know who I am anymore and too many things are going on and I'm just AGGHHH.  ... View more

I hate this. I hate feeling like a freak. I hate the look of disappointment I get from my parents when I don't share how I feel. I hate the fact that I'm trapped in this spiral of fear and anxiety. I hate the fact I was too weak to go to school today. I hate the fact that when I do go, it's suffocating. Who cares about "staying safe" when there doesn't feel like there's a reason for it? ... View more

I finally told my counsellor about my suicidal thoughts. Despite the fact I know it's the right thing, I am petrified. She recommended I tell my doctor and psychologist, and has agreed to help me in doing so, but I'm still terrified. I just pray to whatever god there is that my parents don't find out, because it'll only make it worse. ... View more

Im constantly anxious. Sometimes I can tell why, others I can't. sometimes it's manageable, others I want nothing more than but to die. At the moment I'm going through one of my rougher periods. I don't want to eat, I can't sleep, I feel incredibly nauseous, and I have a headache from grinding my teeth. When it's really bad like this, nothing helps. I'm fidgety with whatever I do, and I can never be in the moment or focused. I don't know what to do anymore, I feel like I've tried everything but I'm still so stuck in my head and all I want to do is cry and kill myself to get my brain to shut up. ... View more

So today I went to the doctor and she told me she had spoke with my psychologist. She told me she had developed a sense I may have a difficulty 'processing things' and that's why I'm feeling anxious and loosing weight. She gave me a fancy name for it but I can't remember what it is. basically if that's what I have then my brain just processes things differently than most people, and if this is the case than whether I avoid or partake in activities that stress me out, it won't get worse or better. Does anyone know what this actually is, I have no idea what she's talking about, and I want to learn more about it so I can explain if I relate to it or not. ... View more

I think I may have social anxiety. I'm not self-diagnosing, I know that that's dangerous and I'm no health professional, but I really feel like something about my social stresses aren't normal. For example, most people are nervous about speeches, but I have an absolute meltdown every time I need to perform one. Today I came home from school camp, It took me two whole hours to get out of my tent because I was petrified of talking to people. I generally flake out on plans, keep my eyes to the ground in public, and find it hard to ask basic questions like "where is your bathroom?". I have no idea why but an overwhelming fear just overcomes me when I speak, and I'm always uncomfortable in public. Not only that, but I overthink interaction all the time and am incredibly self-aware. I'm still living at home, and I don't know how to have a conversation about seeing someone about this. I talk to a school counsellor already, but I'm a bit reclusive on the extent of my stresses. Still, from what I can gather I'll need to see someone like a psychologist about this rather than just a counsellor. ... View more

My dad told me to kill myself as a joke. I know it wasn't serious and he doesn't know about my suicidal ideation but I just can't. It's like that tiny comment just tipped me from being "ok" which I have been for the last few days, to feeling like absolute hell and wanting to***. I just feel so empty and every breathe rattles my ribs and I just can't. I just can't. ... View more

I don't see purpose anymore. Living is torture because I have nothing that brings me joy anymore. The only reason I haven't hurt myself is because it would put strain on my parents and little sister. ... View more

I hate myself in a weird way. I don't self harm, I don't feel like I need punishing, yet I loathe myself. Im like that annoying kid who won't shut up or go away and all you just want them to leave . I wouldn't care if I died, I don't matter at all to myself. I'm just a pathetic, worthless girl that I don't want to know. ... View more

I'm addicted to overworking. Everyday, I spend all my time writing and reading notes, working on homework and assignments, and just studying. I only have one 1 hr break for lunch at school, and then 1 at home. I'm constantly stressed , dad, or bored because I study so much it doesn't even matter anymore, but i feel so guilty when I'm not working. I actually enjoy the tiring feelings more because I know I'm trying best I can.  ... View more