@redhead i'm so sorry this has been so horrible for you, i know there's nothing i can say to change anything right now, but we're always here for you <3 xx ... View more

Hey @Mrstweety5482,  i can hear how much pain you're in right now and i'm so so sorry that you're going through this I know it feels like such a small part of you, but that part of you that is holding you back is important, and a testament to how hard you've been fighting. Do you feel able to keep yourself safe right now? Would you feel comfortable contacting Lifeline or the Suicide Call Back Service? ... View more

Hey @FootyFan26 thanks for reaching out <3 I do hear you, and i'm so sorry you're feeling so awful right now. I understand that self care isn't really in the cards right now, but is there anything else that's worked for you in the past that helps a little? Are you able to keep safe right now? Here for you xx ... View more

Hi @SS_X, thank you for sharing your story with us, especially as it's something that's hard for you to talk about  <3 Being the only/one of the only gay people you know is so brutal, it feels so isolating at times and i'm so sorry you're experiencing this right now :( It really does feel like you're missing out on what everyone else is doing, and i know it's cliche to say it, but that doesn't last forever. Just clarifying, were you saying you wanted to drop the persona, but are worried about how to cope without it? Feeling like there's something wrong with you for being gay is really painful, and something that we're taught to think about ourselves, but man is it wrong. There's nothing wrong with you dude and you're not alone. Here for you xx ... View more

hey @litgym, i can hear that things are piling up for you and it sounds really overwhelming :( It's not fair that people have been making you feel worse about the way you've been feeling, you've been really strong in a tough situation. Have you talked to anyone like your counsellor or G about your food restriction? If not, what would you think about doing so? I know you don't feel comfortable talking about it to your mum :(  Talking to your crisis team tomorrow sounds like a good idea though, i hope it goes well <3 Here for you xx ... View more

@scared01 you are an absolute rockstar! congrats on your amazing results, you deserve them <3 ... View more

Are you with me? - Sixx A.M. (i managed to misspell both the band and the song name, talent haha) ... View more

Hot drink! Hard back or paper back? (book) ... View more

Knowing ... View more

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@mrmusic all the hugs!  ... View more

Such an important topic to talk about!! I'm really looking forward to this one :) ... View more

Such a good idea!!!  My pronouns are she/her :) ... View more

Hey @minakshi1, i'm sorry to hear you had to deal with such awful and hurtful behaviour for such a long time :( Being bullied deals such a huge blow to your self-esteem, it can really make you doubt yourself :( I understand that after what you experienced in high school being in the public eye and under scrutiny could make you feel vulnerable to the same kind of behaviour, and i think you're so brave for deciding you don't want those doubts anymore. I just wanted to echo what @gina-RO and @Shadow said, being bullied isn't something you deserve and says so much more about the people who bullied you than it does about you! I know what i found helpful was identifying something i liked about myself/ a strength i have, and using it as a kind of self anchor. So if someone tries to put me down and make me feel like crap or i find myself remembering a situation where someone did so, especially if i start to blame myself and self doubt, then i have something to counter it, like a shield. It's a little cheesy, but it works! Would something like that be helpful for you? I know it's different for everyone :) has anything you've tried in the past been helpful?    ... View more

1. Got to leave work a little bit early today :) 2. had a very very long nap 3. ate so many veggies i feel like a new human being! ... View more

This thread is such a good idea @mrmusic! :) It's really difficult to move on in situations like these, sometimes i think we can beat ourselves up long after the other person has forgiven us or forgotten about it. It can be so hard to stop dwelling! :( When things like this happen (more often than i'd like) i try to: - remember that if i've apologised there's nothing more i can do except learn from the situation - take a step back and consider how i'd feel if the situation was reversed, which can be helpful in gaining some perspective, because a lot of the time i'd be way less upset/angry with other people than i'm afraid they will be with me. It's not uncommon for me to apologise for something the other person didn't even notice or remember haha - remind myself that i'm only human! and that part of being human is to make mistakes, a LOT of mistakes. Making mistakes doesn't make you a bad person!   sometimes i need to rinse and repeat, but i'm getting better at it :) ... View more

Today i practiced self care by having a nap after work :P  ... View more

hey @redhead i can hear how frustrated you're feeling right now, and i understand that it's your choice. That being said, it really is a big deal to stop taking medication, how do you feel about holding on to that decision for a little while? Maybe sleeping on it? I know someone mentioned earlier writing up a list of pros and cons to taking your meds, do you think that could help you think it over? ... View more

Hey @comerfordius, i'm sorry to hear that you're feeling a lot of confusion and uncertainty right now. Even though there's nothing wrong with being gay, i can see that the thoughts you've been having are really upsetting to you and are causing you a lot of distress and self-doubt. I know you didn't have the best experience talking to the school counsellor, but i really think that talking to a professional might be a good idea if you think you are having intrusive thoughts surrounding your sexuality. They might be able to help you sort through your thoughts and emotions, regardless of why you're experiencing them. How would you feel about maybe talking to someone?  I know talking about intrusive thoughts is hard and can feel shameful though :(  ... View more

@Eden1717 i'm so sorry things are so painful and scary for you right now :( i understand that you want to be there for your family tomorrow and that the idea of going to hospital is really scary for you, i can't imagine how you must be feeling at the moment :( what were your thoughts on speaking with someone after tomorrow, so you could still be there for the birthday? would you feel comfortable maybe talking to a family member? i can see how hard you're working to distract yourself, and i really admire the courage you've shown in reaching out tonight <3 Here for you xx ... View more

@redhead that does sounds like really a tricky situation :( were you planning on sticking with your doctor's advice for now, even if it wasn't quite what you were hoping for? what are your thoughts on it all?  Here for you xx ... View more

@scared01 it sounds like today was really rough and i'm so proud of you for making it through all of that testing <3 it sounds like you did some really good self-care afterwards too, which is great <3 you more than deserve it Sending you all the luck i can for your results xx ... View more

@Zeldasmile i'm glad it went pretty well! even just ranting can be really cathartic and get how we feel out in the open :) how is everything sitting with you right now? ... View more

i'm headed off for now, i hope the rest of your night goes okay @litgym <3 ... View more

@litgym ooooh ouch :( ice before bed? ... View more

@litgym i understand it can be hard bringing up certain topics, and that it can feel like we're burdening people by talking about it even if they might not feel that way themselves :( it can be really hard to balance how we feel with not wanting to worry others :( were you planning on just relaxing with your friend once you leave? ... View more

Hey @shortie ! Welcome to RO :) Glad to hear you're keen for some holiday time! ... View more

@litgym thanks for confirming that you're able to keep safe <3 what do you think about reaching out to your friend for support tonight? not necessarily telling her everything but just talking to her a bit about how you're feeling right now? ... View more