Haha... My person was there. Probably because it's the first week back. But she was busy with her nephews. And the next best leader I can be with, has a teenaged mind and hangs out with the younger people in year 7. I have got friends there, but not ones I can talk to. I sat down and did some drawing, but I think I could've been more active. ... View more

Ooh~... I don't really know if I have any vocal stims, but if I have in the past, they certainly were fun. If you mean like rolling your tongue, lips, or both, I like to make a raspberry sound with them. I can also put air into some parts of my mouth, and make some form of a gurgling noise/weird noise that my sister hates. :P This all depends on my mood too. Usually, I prefer music as a stim. I'll put on a song to match my mood, and sing along to it. Even when my family is home, they don't mind. Does music count? ... View more

Hey @Bananatime04. I'm so sorry that you were assaulted. That isn't fun, and my siblings do it all the time. Only playfully, but I know if they keep doing it in the future, they can get arrested... :/ I'm so sorry I wasn't on. Turns out the thing that I needed sorting out did not get sorted out. I'm at musical rehearsal today until 1 PM, but when I get back, I'll try to be on for you. How are you this morning? Did the fan help you? ... View more

I’m so sorry! I have to clean my room before I have dinner and go to youth group. I really am sorry! Maybe @Tiny_leaf can join you in gif/pic searching? Some horrible things have come up, and I really need to go to youth group about it... Please forgive me. The timing wasn’t right. ... View more

Thank you @happycat45. It’s not that I can’t confide in my friends, it’s the fact that I’m telling them that I’m fine, when I’m really not. Thank you for the advice though. Thank you. I still have a fair few years to go, but I’m trying to start now, and get prepared for a better life in the future. It’s either a psychologist, or something to do with performing arts or teaching in that area. Or child care. I’m nearly ready for youth group tonight, even though my go-to person won’t be there. I’m currently listening to a song on repeat that’s giving me sad emotion, but it’s a way to let out how I feel. ... View more

Hey @Bananatime04. Sorry I haven't been on your thread lately. Stuff has been happening. But I'm here now. Can we maybe do something, like hitting the games section, or share funny/cute pics/gifs? ... View more

Thank you for the tag @Jess1-RO. Nice thread idea @Bee. I'm really sorry, but I really can't feel anything right now. Maybe when I can feel something, I'll try this activity. I like the idea though. // Nothing is impossible. The word itself says "I'm Possible" // ... View more

Oh... I kinda forgot to put in that they found me, I didn't find them. But I'm glad that they found me standing there alone with a sad face.   I'm really sorry @Jess1-RO. I just can't feel anything. I did exactly what @Tiny_leaf said not to do. My friends knew something was wrong, but I said that I was fine. They left me alone after that, but I hate lying. I know I'm not okay, but my outside self just won't show it. I really can't last much longer.   https://youtu.be/yMNCKE6GId8   Here is a video that my former chaplain sent me, that she thought I needed. I can't. I know what I need. But I'll never get it.    I... I can't.   I just need one person in my life, that will never leave me. or at least help me find someone to lean on when I need to. I just need one person.   Just one! is that too much to ask for?! I can't do this any more. I don't know who I am any more.   (I am safe) ... View more

Love the gif @Claire-RO! Is that a Fresh Prince of Belair gif? ... View more

Today was okay at first. Until I got to the bathrooms to change for rehearsal... I went into the cubicle that I know has the most light, and helps me see where my clothes are for the next thing. As soon as I start changing my top, I see words underneath the ones from last term. If you don't know what last term's words were, here they are now. "xXLexi_Lou122Xx is a slut" Here are the new ones. "She so fat". I'm feeling very empty right now. And my special teachers and teacher aides who know me, tried to help me see that isn't true. But I feel completely empty. I was crying for a while, IN REHEARSAL, and after I got back, I just felt empty. Now I feel like nothing matters anymore. I know @Tiny_leaf said not to put a complete mask on in one of my other threads, but I can't help it. I can't let the others see how I really feel. ... View more

Well, I don't look to my hand for advice or support, but I do have some wonderful people at school who help me. I have multiple people at school, and only a few of those people have been able to support me when I needed it. So for me, the teachers and teacher aides, are the ones who I go to for help or support. As much as it hasn't helped much, they always know how to make me feel like I belong. ... View more

Thank you @MisoBear, I also struggle with maths a little bit too. That's why I'm in the lower classes atm. If I get a better mark in this particular unit for the term, I think I'll be fine. We're doing Ratios and Rates. The easy and not so hard unit, but some parts I don't quite understand yet. I'm definitely looking after myself. I have HPE today, and gym straight afterwards. But I know that I'll have eaten some food, and had plenty of water by then. As long as nobody keeps asking if I'm okay, I won't have any anger today. ... View more

Thank you @MisoBear and @Beautifullybroken . I did have snacks on me. But because my school doesn't allow food of any sort in class, so I automatically don't think to eat in that time period. And because I don't keep track of the time, because my phone was in my bag not my pocket, also contributed to it. Apparently I also was unresponsive for a while. Which is not usually what happens. I mean, I can be unconscious for a while, I think, but I would've thought I'd be able to respond... :/ Ha, and last year I ran 1500m without a problem! Well, I got a little dizzy, but that's completely normal. Oh well. I have to live with this stupid illness, but I will make it through. Thank you! I have never really been told that before. If I had, then I probably didn't believe it with some undiagnosed depression... Can you tell me what subjects are needed? I wanna start looking at subjects, so that I can get a better head start in my future career. Even if I do have 4 years till I graduate high school... I'm exhausted, but I'm feeling okay. I'll probably have a shower, and get ready for bed. I ate my lunch as soon as I got home, which made me feel less embarrassed. Do you guys know how embarrassing it is, getting wheeled in a wheelchair, a fair distance to the first aid tent? I've been in the wheel chair twice now, and it is sooo embarrassing. I think I'll be okay for tonight. I just have to take care of myself better. ... View more

Thank you @MisoBear. I must've missed you're reply. Nevermind, I found it now! I am definitely putting myself first, but I got into the swing of doing that, and made myself pass out today. I forgot to eat my lunch, before running 400m. It was sports day at school, and we don't have set times to eat, so I forgot to eat some food before running. I got to about 3/4 of the track, and then passed out. We weren't allowed to walk in any part of it, so that also contributed to it. I didn't eat a proper breakfast either, so I guess I could have taken more care of myself. But it's sports day, and we don't have a set time to eat. So I have a reason to forget to eat. I'm so used to having a set time, for eating. Anyway, I came first in javelin yesterday, because I was the only one to sign up. I came second to the most athletic girl in my age group, and fourth in the 100m sprint. ... View more

I agree with @recharging_introvert. I'm a person who likes to know what's happening, and all that, but I do get quite relaxed, depending on what I'm doing. For something like a musical, I want to know what's happening, so I don't miss anything. Which has happened before, and I got really annoyed. ... View more

Hell No. My sister was playing them on me for ages. Do you like Dessert? ... View more

Ooh. That's a definite for me! Because I'm still a few years off choosing subjects for my certs before uni, I don't get to really choose any elective subjects that have to do with psychology. I know that one thing that will stress me out, is that I don't know what subjects I need to study to get into that position. I do know that I have my guidance counsellor, who obviously had to do those sorts of subjects, to become a counsellor. So I can ask her about it, which will be helpful. But then again, I'm still too young at the moment to really be thinking about what I want to do... Something that's giving me stress right now, is that my musical production is getting closer and closer to the show days, and I'm feeling pretty exhausted all the time. I want to be able to get good grades to be able to get somewhere in life too! *Sigh* I'll get there. Great question @WheresMySquishy! ... View more

What have I missed?! Are there any other questions for tonight? If not, I’ll log off. I have school tomorrow. *Sigh* And rehearsal. *Bigger Sigh* ... View more

Thank you @ecla34! That actually sounds pretty cool. I hope that could maybe be a strategy to help with it... ;) ... View more

Oooh~ I am not currently old enough, but I do know a few of my dream jobs in the future! I want to be a psychologist/school counsellor, a musician, dancer, singer, teacher, or someone to help teens in general. I am currently in year 8, so I have a while yet. But Those are what I want to be! :) ... View more

Thank you @MisoBear. It is, but I don't really want to have to ask, just because the class is full of dickheads. I realise that people are better when they're older, but that because all the people that don't want to be at school, all drop out. I'm not dropping out, because I want to go to uni and get a good job. I want to be a psychologist when I leave school! I can help the kids at school when nobody else understands. Including some psychologists. I mean, I already help support others here on the forums, and I love to take care of my friends when they feel alone. Even my mum agrees. But I don't really know what I can do about getting a good degree, if I can't even talk to a Head Of Department (HOD) about changing a class. Especially when I need more help with math than others do, because I'm so behind from my class being assholes. *Sigh* ... View more

Oof, I'll say. I know right?! My favourite is definitely the meatballs. They have such a great taste, that I can't describe. :D I guess school was okay. My classes changed a little bit, but not very much. The only ones that have/will definitely change, is my tutorial (one day elective), and HPE. My P.B.L. (main elective) has changed, I'm doing hospitality. Yay! I really want to change my math class though... Don't get me wrong, the teacher is really nice, but she can't control the mix of kids. The teens that are in my class all act like 2 year olds. I hope I can move class soon. Maybe if I study hard enough, I can get a better mark, and move classes next term. I don't even think that will work... *Sigh* Oh well. ... View more

Haha, sure! Why not? Dinner was good, but there were too many people there. Sooo loud, and I was already exhausted from rehearsal. Not to mention being female is annoying. If you get my drift... But the food was pretty good. We had Ikea meatballs, chicken, chicken with some form of sauce, rice, and salad. There was nachos too, but I hate nachos. Ugh. School is back today, and I'm still very very tired. Lord help me.... :/ :( ... View more

Hey @scared01. Sorry I wasn't on when you replied, I had some stuff to deal with. Including my own health, as you have described in the past few replies. I'm glad that you have some form of recovery activities and assistance though. I've never had surgery, or broken a bone, but I do have my siblings who went through the same thing. Although, it wasn't really surgery. My brother had a broken collar bone, and my sister split her chin open. My brother did the exact same thing as her, but not as bad. I wish I could help more, but I have other things going on tonight. I'll be on again tomorrow or Friday, whichever one work for me when I log on next. //Nothing is impossible. The word itself says "I'm Possible"// ... View more

You're welcome @Esperenza67! And thank you! I'm an artist, but I figured that other users could give it a go too. You always give such beautiful compliments to others, and that makes me happy. You are way better than some people at school! //Nothing is impossible. The word itself says "I'm Possible"// ... View more

I'm going to dye it bright pink at the top, electric purple in the middle, and bright-ish blue in my ends. BLECK!!!!!!! Olives are disgusting! How can you eat those poisonous things????!!!! Yeah, my sub was awesome. I had a meatball, mozzarella, red onion, cucumber, tomato, garlic aioli, and salt. Honestly, I'm feeling pretty empty, but extremely tired. School goes back tomorrow, but my holidays ended on Friday. Hopefully I don't pass out tomorrow. I'm very overtired. I'm having dinner at my grandparents, so I have to go now. But I'll be back later. ... View more

Hmm... I shall not admit to anything... ;) Thank you, and congrats to everyone else! ... View more

Hey @scared01. I don't really know how to help you, but would a distraction be helpful? I'm here now, so I can do something with you if you want. ... View more

That's okay @Bananatime04. How's Eddie now? Are you okay? It's tough when animals are sick. I'm not a lead role, but I am from both schools. I'm a part of the ensemble, which is the most important role of all! It would be a disaster without an ensemble. I get to be in the background and get the occasional part where I get showcased more than others. I have a special part in the final number, and I can't wait! ... View more

I guess people have different ways of reacting to coffee! I think I have a normal-ish reaction to it, but not, at the same time. I think I had a pretty easy sleep, and went to bed pretty quickly. But then I guess it wasn't a very good sleep, because I was still yawning all day for ages. As I type this, I yawned. :P I just got back from shopping, with my grandma. She spoiled me a little bit, by getting me 2 shirts, a pair of active leggings and a workout top, some hair dye (for her too), my knee brace, and she bought me lunch. I had subway, which was good. I had a foot long for the first time ever, and I was filled up more than a 6 inch can! Now I just need to buy myself some more iced coffee for tomorrow, and I should be good. I hope... I can't believe who I saw at the shopping centre though. I saw my musical director and teacher, my former year level deputy (who went on maternity leave), my 2 friends, my enemy, another teacher, some church friends, and a classmate! How crazy is that? All in one day too! ... View more