It’s okay @Bananatime04. Thank you, but I have to go to bed now. I wish I could stay up, but my body just isn’t functioning properly. Thank you for being here though, I really appreciate it. And one of your posts, said that you know you aren’t the first person anyone would go to. I don’t think that’s true. I would choose you, first over anyone, anytime. That’s how much I appreciate you, and care for you.❤️ ... View more

@Bananatime04... I can completely relate with most of those quotes... Particularly the second and third ones you wrote down, because they are the ones that I’ve dealt with the most. I’m glad it helped in a weird way at least. You have helped me see what you’re going through, just by reading that page of quotes. I was going to suggest a worship song, that I’ve been listening to, but I’m not sure it will do much for you. I personally am a Baptist, and that’s where most of the Christian songs come from, but if you want to know what it’s called, I can tell you. I might be a bridesmaid! I’ve only ever been a guest or a flower girl, but I’m a bit old to be a flower girl now. So I might be a junior bridesmaid for my uncle’s wedding! I can’t wait! :) ... View more

I’m so exhausted... My brother is still looking unwell, and he was sick again on Thursday night. He’s got a bucket next to him, and just thinking about him and that bucket is making me eat less. I now realise that I haven’t been eating much at all, and that was probably why I had a dizzy spell last night. Plus all the exhaustion, but I think that because of me being put off my food, is also contributing. I am eating, and I’m still healthy, just not eating as much as I normally would. I can’t even eat my favourite food, ice cream, without second guessing if I should be eating it. Is something wrong with me? I just want to cry, and I think I’m catching a cold... Why do I have to suffer? Why do I have to feel this way, and have to deal with all this burnout, sickness, and workload? I feel like a burden to my rl friends and family. I feel like I don’t belong. And I want to feel okay with being where I am. I don’t even feel like anyone at youth cares about me. They all have their little friend group, and all love being with the leaders I trust most. It’s almost like I’m losing time with the leaders, but I’m also taking away the other girls time with them. Can I please just have someone to talk to? Someone who can listen? Or even just someone who can help me through this horrible stage I’m going through? I’m shaking all over, my head is hurting, everything is spinning, and I just can’t deal with this for much longer. I am safe. ... View more

Hey @Andrea-RO Yeah, it is. I don't even know how to replenish my energy levels... I can't exactly reduce my workload either, as it's all school work and travel to and from school. It's getting harder and harder to manage... ... View more

It's okay @Bananatime04. I don't blame you, you've been thinking of some tough topics, so it's okay. I'm feeling so very drained today. I was told to pray a bit after my worship session, but I don't know what to say. Then I'm just about to faint again, with all my exhaustion and school work. I'm so tired.😔 ... View more

Have fun drawing @Bananatime04! I'm doing some too! I'll post it later, when it's finished. Drawing is a great way to distract. ... View more

@Tiny_leaf that’s what I’ve been needing to do for the last 2 weeks... I pretty much fainted tonight, except that I was semi-conscious. Nobody really did anything, but when some people did, they got me some blankets. It helped a little bit, and I explained what happened, but life is just getting so hard. Everything I do is such an effort. I can’t even sing without having a dizzy spell.😣 @Taylor-RO thank you. It is hard, but I hope I’ll be okay. I just need the workload to back off a bit... I’ve never had real burnout before, so not really. I don’t even know what you’re supposed to do if you start getting problems like this. I did my band songs, and I got some amazing feedback. Everybody looks forward to my singing in the future, so I can’t wait to start singing more often! But I did start having a dizzy spell on stage, but I kept it together until it was time to start small groups. Then I had to lay down. I just want to sleep, but I can’t. Everything is catching up so bad, and I lack so much sleep.😣😖 ... View more

@Bananatime04 I hear you. I just want to say something, about how you think that you’re going to hell. You aren’t the only one who has sinned, because everyone on earth has at some point. I have, on numerous occasions, and that won’t stop me from going to heaven. Nobody knows what will happen in the after life, but we don’t need to. I’m so sorry about before, my phone was playing up terribly. I’m also here if you need to talk.❤️ ... View more

@Bananatime no! I’m sorry. I meant that I was going to take a break, but I accidentally hit post when I wasn’t finished typing! Please don’t blame yourself! It’s not your fault, I was just trying to get off the train, and I had other posts to reply to. Please, don’t blame it on yourself!😢 ... View more

What is going on with me?! My body isn't listening to me, and now my head is hurting like crazy. Why can't it go away? All my pain and exhaustion, is creeping on top of me, slowly suffocating me. Is there any way to escape this big black hole known as burnout? :(   @Tiny_leaf here’s the last few posts of what’s been happening for me, if you’re up to reading it all. I’m fine currently... ... View more

Sorry @Bananatime04... I'll go now. ... View more

But why would you die @Bananatime04? Please don't think these thoughts... I hate to think about death. Especially the death of my friends. You still have a long time yet, and I know you can get through these thoughts. Here for you. ❤ ... View more

Thank you @WheresMySquishy. I haven't been well for the last 2 weeks... I've been so close to fainting, which I hate happeng in public, but sometimes it cant be avoided. I just have to get through tonight, then I can get down and get some work done tomorrow. Let's just hope that I don't faint tonight, and hopefully not on stage! That would be embarrassing...😔 I'm so tired, and I have a queasy feeling in my stomach. That feeling always comes back when I'm in my house. My brother is still sick, but he's getting better. I still have that feeling because of him. I swear everything is spinning...😖 ... View more

I don't have any hacks to share currently, but I'm liking all the answers! My current state of health, just won't allow for it right now. ... View more

I'm here @Bananatime04. You aren't alone.❤ ... View more

Thank you @Bre-RO. @Bananatime04 thank you, but I'm not sure how helpful it will be... Yeah, it is a multimodal presentation, and I just need to make the stop motion and fill out the research booklet. I'm actually not on powers right now, I'm just struggling with them. My teacher moved last that lesson a week ago, and I'm behind, because I don't understand it. Today and Wednesday was easy, because they're all topics I know how to do from year 7. If you can help with index notations/powers, and all the topics with that area of maths, then I think I should be right. I am not doing well today at all... My head is spinning, and I'm really pale. I still have to get through tonight as well. My health is deteriorating, making me have to lay on the ground semi conscious. I'm sitting on the train floor, I'm that dizzy. I am safe though, and I can get off at the right station. ... View more

Ooh~ tasty @Tiny_leaf! I like the tea in boba, but not the tapioca pearls... ... View more

What makes you say that? ... View more

I’m here for you @Bananatime04.❤️ ... View more

No Problem @Tiny_leaf.❤️ Good job for following your safety plan. What did you have for dinner? ... View more

@Bananatime04 Thank you so much❤️. In Humanities, Our topic is the Industrial Revolution. I’m doing a stop motion on the exploitation of women and children, as my assessment. In Maths, we’re doing Indices/powers, histograms, frequency tables, dot plots, stem and leaf plots, and others too. I’m struggling with the indices/powers. But oh well... I reckon watching videos will help me. I’ll look for some tomorrow. Thank you for the hugs. I appreciate them.❤️ I will, but she’s probably busy. Besides, its getting late, and I have to get ready for school early. I need to try and buckle down to get some work done. Then take a break. But I keep getting distracted by everything. I could speak to my GO, but I don’t want to bother her until my next appointment. Thats not too far away now, which is good. Thank you for being here Bananatime04. I really appreciate it. I have to get to bed now, but I’ll check in again tomorrow. ... View more

Why am I asking what? ... View more

@Bananatime04 Thank you❤️ I have to do my Humanities assignment, which involves a lot of research and then putting it all into my stop motion movie. Then I need to get some help for maths, because my exam is in week 7 as well. All my assignments and exams are in week 7 - 10. It’s getting harder and harder to get everything done, especially when Everything is getting stacked up like it did at my last school. I do want to talk to them, but I always need to every week. So I’m aiming to try and not need their help every single Friday night. The other girls need their cry time too. I’ll just take that away from them if I reach out to the leaders. Nothing’s really holding me back from singing, its just that I feel like my exhaustion will alter my ability. And I have to sing the Harmony to both songs. I prefer the melody, and I prefer to lead it. But no, I have to work my way up to that... :| No, I have to sit up and get my work done. I would love to lay down though. But I will probably faint either way... I wish I could do self-care. But my school grades are so much more important, then I’ll finally have time to do what I want. Oh wait! I won’t! Because my assignments are spread out over the holidays too! I’m so sick of it all! I just need to let everything out, but I can’t. I’m bottling everything up, trying to avoid ruining peoples lives or chances of getting the help they need. I’ve never really had to deal with it before. I guess I just cry when I need to to, not when I want to. It’s okay, when I need to cry, I always think of the worst case scenarios of my life, and what life could be like if I wasn’t me. It’s not a healthy way of doing so, but when I feel sad, those are normally the thoughts that gather in my head. I honestly just feel alone. I want to call my special person, but she’s probably busy enough as it is. Busy Woman, she is. Then my youth leaders all are too busy, with work and stuff. Then I’m thinking of how our lives might be cut short, because of the coronavirus, and whatever climate change there is. I’m so overwhelmed. I’m so alone irl. I’m just so exhausted, scared, sad, and feeling like a let down. ... View more

Thank you @Bananatime04. I honestly just have so much physical pain, and burn out. I cant focus on my work, and its all due in week 7. That’s less than 2 weeks away! I’m freaking out, but I don’t want to reach out to a youth leader tomorrow, because I’ll be taking away time from the other girls, who probably need the leaders more than I do. Plus, I’m singing on stage with the youth band, but I’m not sure if I can do it. Everything is hurting, mainly my tailbone and head, and everything is spinning. I’m probably going to faint soon, but I cant stop working or stressing over work, until its done. I just want to cry, but I don’t have the tears. My body is just not agreeing with me tonight. 😣 ... View more

Can someone please talk to me? I just want to cry ... View more

I’m back at Tiny_leaf❤️ How are you going? ... View more

I’m sorry that you’re going through all this @Bananatime04.❤️ I’m here for you too, when you need it.❤️ ... View more

Thank you @Tiny_leaf. I’ll check in later tonight.❤️ ... View more

I’m sorry for you @Tiny_leaf I have an entire day at school, and I’m just at tutoring now. I would help you, but I need to get my school work done. Sorry... ... View more

Why would you turn the question around? ... View more