I am too different from both my mother and my father. They are both alcoholics and they encourage me to drink and go out with them, or with my best friend and drink. She doesn't drink, but I do on occasion. I do not want to go out with my mother and father because they are nearly fifty and I am twenty-two, and all they want to do, other than drink, is go on the pokies and blow their money. My dad has a really good job and earns roughly $70 000 a year and it saddens me to see that he is bowing his money weekly on cigarettes and alcohol, when he could be saving money to go on family holidays. On Wednesday night, my mother spoke with my father about something she saw him post on Facebook. A woman known to my father and is believed to have had intercourse with multiple men commented on his profile picture, to which my father responded with an "x" and "o." Personally, I did not see what the problem was, but my mother was not impressed and expressed her concerns with my father. My father screamed at her and hurled abuse at her (after another night of drinking) and threatened to assault her, twice. He also dragged me involved by hurling abuse at me. I ended up phoning the police for assistance. The police came to our house and my father was not taken away, but a male police officer spoke with my father privately about what had happened. My father apologised to both my mother and I but it was a piss poor one. I still do not accept the apology and I do not accept his behaviour. I don't have the best relationship with my mother but I feel so bad for her. She works hard and no one helps her with anything. I am constantly sedated on my antipsychotic medication and so I can't help mum around the house as I am always asleep. Even when I do help mum around the house, it still isn't good enough for her and she will still find something else to complain about. If there is anyone I know of that is a professional complainer, it's my mother. She can never find the positives in anything, and I have had to put up with it for years. I want to move out of home although I do not feel as though I am prepared enough to do as such. I seek for positive attention from other adults, and the bus driver who I have spoken about in previous threads, is a good example of that, as he used to provide me with positive attention (such as staring at me through the review mirror on the inside and outside of his bus (depending on whether I was on his bus or sitting on a bench waiting for a bus), greeting me and farewelling me (I would be the only passenger on his bus he would do this to), using his mobile phone to take a photo of me with, and telling me that "he had always liked me but had kept it from me.")   Another thing I wanted to mention is that I sent my Aunty a friendship request on Facebook to which she has ignored completely. I feel like I am not good enough for her. My family want me to have confidence in myself but they all need to make changes to their behaviour in order to see any change in me. I can't have confidence in myself if they all treat me and each other like crap all the time.  ... View more

I think that the person I have been romantically attracted to for four years is too close with his ex-wife. They claim to be friends, but she is ALWAYS at his house, for whatever reason. They have one child together, and I learned through Facebook that he apparently doesn't bother to see her, yet on the same token the child is at his house every fortnight. So I don't know? I am concerned that they are getting back together. I feel bad about myself because I cant't compare to her, although this man has told me that "he has always liked me but has kept it from me." But his actions are showing me that he cares more about his ex-wife than he does about me. I hate myself. I wish things were different. I wish I had the confidence to ask him out on a date all those years ago. I am not okay with him being friends with his ex-wife.  ... View more

Good Morning or Evening.   I will be sharing with you all My Story. My Story commences with the author starting at a new school and gaining the confidence to catching public transport independently, to developing a romantic interest in a divorced bus driver who initially developed the same feelings of attraction towards the author, and was hinting at the author that he was into her. The bus driver now ignores the author and the author now has a restraining order put against her, and if she goes any where near him or has any contact with him, she faces up to a maximum of two years' imprisonment.     Stay Tuned.        ... View more

Here we go, another post about this man again.   I drove past his house to find his ex wife was there. Then, I drove past his ex-wife’s house to find that his car there! She’s been at his house twice this week and even though I was told by her daughter that they’re just friends, I still believe they have feelings for one another. This makes me anxious as I have always had feelings for this man. He too admitted that he’d “always liked me but had kept it from me.” But I now think he’s lying. I don’t understand why she needs to be at his house and why he needs to be at her house in one night? They have a child together but the rumour is that he doesn’t bother to see her. This man is a bus driver and he still stares at me when he thinks I am not paying attention to my phone. He used to admire me as I was on his bus. There is a restraining order in place because I kept stalking him because I liked him and didn’t know how to convey that to him appropriately. I tried to explain this to him with no success. He also told me: “whatever medication you’re taking clearly isn’t working,” “you have more issues than previously thought,” “you’re not very clever,” and he got up in my face and screamed that I was a “retard.” He always uses his phone as he’s seated in the driver’s seat of the bus, which he isn’t allowed to do at all, and I’ve reported him time and time again for doing as such yet he gets away with it.    Im sad because I want to be in this man’s life. I love him so much. He is the most attractive guy I have ever laid eyes on, and nothing will ever change that.  ... View more

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So, the bus driver who I always mention in my previous posts has an intervention order against me (as previously stated), and I am wondering if it is a good idea to apologise to him and, against my will, to his family too, about the behaviour I engaged in? My lawyer thinks it's a good idea, but my psychiatrist doesn't. I think I should apologise to him, because I love him and want to mend things with him.    What do you think I should do?  ... View more

So, he blocks me on Facebook yet he is starting to stare at me again. I am sick of these games that he plays to confuse me. What's the go?  ... View more

I have been attracted to someone for a very long time, and I think they have some sort of personality disorder or social disorder? He is attracted to me too, and finally admitted to it last year. I have tried to speak to him on multiple occasions in order to start a conversation with him, but he has simply ignored me or has not acknowledged my presence. He does this often. I spoke with a colleague of his only to find that this man sits at the lunch table alone and does not interact with anyone at his workplace. Apparently, he ignores people and doesn't acknowledge their presence when they try and communicate with them too. When I spoke to his colleague he also disclosed to me that he was more outgoing when he was slimmer, but he has since put on a lot of weight. I recall having a panic attack in front of this man a few years ago and he was genuinely kind towards me, asking if I needed an ambulance and asking if I would be okay to travel home on his bus. He asked for my age and also asked why he saw me at a particular place earlier that day. I liked the conversation we had and I wish we had more of them. I like him a lot, but nothing can be done about it now unfortunately. He has since been ignoring me.  I just think his behaviour is bizarre. Why do you think he is so strange towards myself and other people? Can anyone on here relate or had a similar experience? ... View more

I don't understand.   He goes from: - conversing with me - taking a sneaky photo of me for whatever reason - staring at me when he thinks I am not looking at him, then looking away when I do glance up at him - saying to me: "I have always liked you but I have kept it from you."   To: - calling me names - telling me: "whatever medication you're taking clearly isn't working (we had a conversation once a few years back, after I had a panic attack in front of him, and he asked if I took medication for it, so he obviously remembers that I take medication) - telling me that "he now has to waste another hour of his life at the police station on me" - telling me that "you have more issues than previously thought."   I just don't get it. Why is he being so cruel to me?      ... View more

Does anyone know of any mental health services, other than Kids Helpline, where you can talk to the same counsellor over and over again? I am getting fed up with speaking to all these different counsellors from the all these different services I've used. I find it to be very stressful to repeat myself over an over again, to counsellors I'll never speak to ever again.  ... View more

He says to me: "I have always liked you but I have kept it from you," then goes to the police to put a restraining order against me. What's his problem?  ... View more

I was willing to mend the relationship with a woman who is supposed to be my grandmother. We haven't spoken for two months and the reason as to why we stopped speaking was because she is sick of dealing with my deteriorating mental health. My dad, her son, has been encouraging me for weeks to mend my relationship with this woman. It will not work. I spoke with her over the phone before we ceased contact and she was abusive towards me. She was screaming at me and she didn't stop to take a breath. She knows I have serious mental health issues and she threatens to call the police on me because I smashed two pot plants and tried to break her screen door out of anger. I will never get the apology I deserve from her abusing me over the phone. This woman never feels like she has to owe anyone an apology, which is why most of the family have little to no contact with her. I tried texting her last night. I made an apology for breaking two of her pot plants and trying to break her screen door. That wasn't good enough for her. Her plan was to "discuss" this with me further, but I know for a fact that all she wanted to do was to lecture me. I am 22. I do not need to be lectured. I am seriously reconsidering in having a relationship with this woman. She is no longer my grandmother. I am officially estranged from her.  ... View more