last night my friend started a live with me and her friend kept telling us to make out and do inappropriate stuff, i left because i was uncomfortable, she said it was funny. i went downstairs to calm down with her cat. when i walked back up i heard her misgendering me and saying "i thought i was her friend not the damn cat" she then started another live a bit later, even though i clearly didn't want to. before she started it she said "(her boyfriend) wont be on and (my partner) wont be on we can do whatever we want we can make out we can dance we can take our shirts off." i didn't respond and stayed lying on the floor. she started trying to pull me up to go on the live with her. her friend came on the live and i said something rude that i shouldn't have because i was angry. she started shouting at me and i went downstairs and left her house. (bearing in mind it was dark.) and i started running. when i finally got back i ranted to her mum about how child services came to my house recently. i was crying and when my friend got back from looking for me she was laughing. i feel so uncomfortable and upset. today she acted like nothing happened. i know i should talk to her but i don't know i feel like shit about it. i was assaulted and groomed 2 years ago (why child services came to my house like 3 days before) i know how it feels when a friend says they're uncomfortable with you. i don't want to hurt her. ... View more

honestly, I just want to restart my entire life, I've messed it up so far, I've just been broken up with, I'm scared ill never find love. I'm so unorganized and I'm failing in school, i don't have any proper friends, at least I have my family (mum dad and brother) ... View more