HI @Taylor-RO, I think I'm starting to feel a bit better though. I have been stressed about a lot of other things lately which I think has been adding to the reaction but I'm working on being more open with people about my stresses and feelings.   I do think these people have a negative impact on my girlfriend because she actively has to stay 'in the closet' but thinking about it, she's not the sort of person to be affected by these things and people just generally don't get under her skin ever. So to be honest I just feel selfish thinking about the fact I feel this way because I believe they have more negative impacts on me, and have for years and they have generally always made me feel uncomfortable so thats why I really want them out of my life completely.    But of course, I understand it's her decision but sometimes it's hard not to get caught up in the emotion, especially when it causes such intense and distressed feelings. Any guidance on how to cope with the situation on my own? ... View more

Hi @Hannah-RO  I feel pretty bad right now. My girlfriend has been really distant and cold and right now she's out with one of the people and has said that she's not going to set any boundaries and going to keep it as it is. I feel really numb right now and still feel like she doesn't care or isn't being honest with me.   I do feel a bit better knowing I don't feel this way because of jealousy. She posed a hypothetical where she went out with some of our other friends without me though and I felt completely fine with it.  I don't know how to feel anymore. I feel so alone and I don't want to feel like thisss I just want to be fine with it but I'm not. ... View more

Update: I talked to her about it and she agreed that I was probably right, and that they aren't great people in either of our lives but she is still unable to set boundaries and I still don't feel okay.   Especially with this one girl that we met when we were graduating, she was in a much lower grade level and made me feel uncomfortable at the time but somehow she got my girlfriend to give her her number. It's been a while since we graduated but for over the past year and a half, she's spammed her with texts and calls and we know she has issues with her mental health so my girlfriend tries to be nice but I feel like it's not healthy in the situation for anyone for her to be getting attached. I don't really know but speaking as someone who has been on the other side I know it ends up being more harmful getting attached to people who no longer or never cared for you but I don't know what to do in any of this. ... View more

I feel really bad. For a lot of high school I was waiting to leave to cut people out of my life and never have to see them again. Unfortunately, my girlfriend is a people pleaser and is too scared of being mean so they have somehow still been around and every time she mentions their names, which is pretty often, I feel really uncomfortable and upset. It makes me feel controlling or jealous if I bring it up with her but them being around makes me really distressed. ... View more

Thanks @WheresMySquishy, yeah I really try and take my mind off stuff while it’s happening but it’s the sort of thing where you just end up thinking about the fact you need to stop thinking about the thing. I’ll keep all of that in mind though. ... View more

@Tiny_leaf Hahaha I really like the way you describe things, especially the part at the start. Hearing about the procedure does still make me feel really icky and like I'm going to pass out just thinking about it (it's inevitable that I'm going to blackout when I do go) but thanks  ... View more

@Tiny_leaf @No I’ve never done a blood test so walking me through it might be a little helpful thanks  Also yeah, I only considered that path for the duration of year 11. Gone down a very different path now. ... View more

Thinking about it now, I genuinely don't understand how I ever seriously considered doing paramedicine or anything in the medical field. ... View more

Yeah I'm really really stressed about it and everything right now. I really just want to want to go get it but I just can't. @Sophia-RO It would be good to talk to a psychologist about a lot of things but I've never known how to start anything like that. My mum recently gave me a link to some counselling through her work but it's only for three sessions and it's more for minor everyday life stuff.   @Tiny_leaf I'm anxious around anything medical, the people, the needles, the not knowing how to describe stuff so I can get the most out of something. I am particularly anxious about anything where they have to examine you or needles. My parents don't seem to recall me having problems with anything before year 7 but I remember kicking and screaming for ages when they were trying to do a barium test in hospital when I was 2. I've always been really anxious about vaccinations but when I was young I always had my mum or dad there, and in year 7 even though I had issues and had to be put on the crash mat every time, people were there and I understood what was happening. So I've never done any of this stuff alone and I've never had a blood test and I'm just so scared and don't know how I'm ever going to get it done. Doing something nice afterwards is a good idea but I don't think there's really anything that can take my mind off everything. ... View more

Yeah @Andrea-RO I really hope things work out, even if I still won't be employed. Really looking forward to the holidays now, they're still 2 months away but it's still something to look forward to. ... View more

@Hannah-RO Yeah I've basically talked about it with everyone is split or thinks the same things as me. I sent an email hoping to resign so we'll just see how it goes now and I can get on with applying again and working on uni. I wish I could have some relax time and some nice plans but I've got another assessment due on Monday that I've been leaving a particularly annoying part for too long and am now so behind, but hopefully after a few days I can have some chill time. ... View more

This is a great idea! Right now I am comfortable with my pronouns but at times I do feel weird about my gender and I really hope more people will feel comfortable to share here. ... View more

@Hannah-RO  Guess what! I was watching mastermind today and someone's expert topic was Anne Lister and I was the only one in my family to know who they were talking about! Which is actually pretty sad because it shows how little attention female historical figures get but it was nice to see someone bring some light on her. ... View more

@Hannah-RO Thanks for understanding, it's really been messing with my head and although I really am leaning towards quitting, I feel so guilty and I like I should try sticking with it a little longer. I don't actually understand how to quit anyway and I feel like I'm going to get stuck for too long because I'm socially anxious and don't know how to quit or ask questions. Winding down depends on how I'm feeling but at the moment I'm also really stressed because of my uni assessments that are due and I'm really struggling with feeling stuck and not knowing how to articulate things. ... View more

I feel so conflicted.  I recently took a job doing paper delivery in an attempt to earn some money while I continue to look for a job. The first week was okay because they were giving out $20 extra for new people, the pay still wasn’t great for the amount of time and effort I’d put into it but it was still an income of sorts. Since that first week however the pay has gotten worse and worse but the amount of time put into it has pretty much stayed the same, but I’ve kept with it because I have no other form of income.  This week I was contracted to be payed the equivalent to one hours work on minimum wage, and given I gave 8 or so hours to this I feel as if I shouldn’t continue. I’ve been hesitant to stick with it from the start but now I really feel exploited and that I should quit, however I feel as if I can’t quit because I have no other income to fall back on and don’t want to have to go back to earning nothing all the time.  So basically I’m feeling incredibly conflicted and can’t sleep because I don’t know if it’s worse to be exploited or to have no income at all.  ... View more

I feel like I've just wasted a free hour (daylight savings), but at least I won't feel as guilty when I wake up in the morning because it will be an hour earlier than it would be.  ... View more

@Bre-RO I haven't seen her in a while so I brought it up with her over text last night and she apologised but I didn't really feel like she understood why I felt that way, and so it didn't really feel like a sincere apology and she was still a little dismissive of what I was saying.  I don't really know how to feel anymore. ... View more

Hi @Taylor-RO, yeah usually my girlfriend supports me but recently she has also been dismissive which has actually been way harder than with anyone else. This has very occasionally happened with her before but ironically I feel like this time it started shortly after I'd had a conversation with her about the fact I was always ignored made to feel invisible when I was younger and now felt like I needed to feel validated more often. ... View more

How do you find a mental health professional that's right for you and/or how does one introduce the topic of mental health with their gp? What should you expect when you start seeing a MH professional? ... View more

@Janine-RO  Yeah I feel like everyone close to me has been really dismissive of everything I say recently. I'm kind of used to it from my sister because she's been like that to me my whole life, but now it's from everyone except my dad and it's all too much.    I just feel so alone and really stressed about a lot of other things I'm really struggling. ... View more

Not great It was okay for a while but then I started feeling really abandoned and my feelings dismissed again. I also feel really bad because I didn't manage to get any uni work done today and it's really stressing me out. ... View more

@Hannah-RO I'm feeling a little better and I did manage to get some sleep but I still feel really tired.  Hmm I might consider it then.  Hopefully if I can get productive today I can feel less stressed later.     ... View more

Also, I don't feel like making another thread but I feel really awful right now and just wanted to put it out there because no one has around to talk to and I feel really dismissed and alone. ... View more

@Janine-RO  Yeah it's been a tough time, I've taken a break from it for a little while so hopefully, there are some jobs out there I could get a chance at. I do want to stay positive though I don't have much hope. I am studying at the moment but theres not much around right now as far as I can see. I'm basically looking for anything at this point, and I've had profiles on tutoring sites and stuff for over a year now but haven't had any luck with that either. What does being a builder actually mean? Thanks for the support  ... View more

Hey @Janine-RO  There have been some better days but it's still a struggle. It's nice to hear from someone who can relate, I also don't really find my workflow till late at night but if it's a day that I will have to be up earlier I usually can switch off at a more reasonable time (that still usually being after 12am though). I also really struggle with getting motivated to do anything at all on most days and when that happens I still find myself stuck at my desk feeling guilty about my unproductivity. Thank you for mentioning going to my GP, I haven't even thought about that. My old GP did give me a prescription that I used when I was 10 but it hadn't even crossed my mind.  ... View more

Thanks guys   @Anzelmo Yeah I update my resume regularly. I've done volunteering and a few one off jobs but nothing since 2019 and it's not the sort of experience that helps me get anywhere it seems.   @scared01 Yeah it's pretty hard trying to find a first job after high school anyway because employers that don't require experience always select the younger candidates because they cost less to pay, but covid has definitely made it a lot harder. Unfortunately, I'm not eligible for any centrelink payments but it's okay because my living situation is fine and everything. I just get really stressed about getting a job because I want to be able to save up so I can move out one day, and also my parents have been pressuring me to get a job for quite some time now and I have yet to be successful. I just really want some independence now, and to be able to take away some of the financial burden off my parents. ... View more

Thanks @Maddy-RO and @scared01 Thanks for the advice! I know all the usual stuff, which I try to do and I usually have good and bad fluctuations with insomnia. I have a lot of techniques that I cycle through pretty frequently. Though lately, it's not really the getting to sleep that's the problem. Like right now, I just feel no will to go to bed. I've noticed in the past week it is actually much worse when I've gotten some uni work done in the afternoon and night. It's almost like I feel like I can't leave my desk because that would mean I'm not going to get any more done. I'm usually not a very productive or motivated person when it comes to schooling so I feel as if I have to hold onto that productive feeling. ... View more

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