hey...  sorry i'm not living my best day...  Today I had a really ugly discussion with my mother about school ( by accident I forgot to assist to a zoom call ) and she was really upset with me...  It's my first time searching so desperately for help and... well after calling the su1c1de hotline, the person in the call told me to come here an write how I'm feeling...   Well I recently moved out to aus and it was the most difficult thing iv'e experienced in all my life... saying bye to my friends, and being alone all the time was a big knife in my heart...  when school started well I hated it, I was alone all the time, crying in the toilet during the breaks and wearing a smile when people started making weird looks at me... Later ( like two months later )  Su1c1de ideas started haunting me, all day an keeping me awake all night. I didn't wanted to think about that, I don't wanna think about that... Ideas about cutting myself were also really present, and I couldn't say it to anyone...  Now, I'm having an anti depressive medication, and my left arm has some injuries  It's worse and worse everyday and I don't want to  be so bad.. I want to be happy, like when I was younger... I want to sleep, and stop having this pain when I wake up in the morning... Basically I want to feel that I am alive without cutting my arm...   Well... thanks if you've read until this part, I was just.. searching a way to feel less alone I suppose? Hope you are having a nice day... bye ... View more