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14-02-2021
10:10 PM
2 Kudos
Hi @Janine-RO I talked to my counsellor on Friday and we talked it through. I learned that I use suicidal thoughts as a coping mechanism. I'm sure we will talk about it more in our next session but it felt good to talk things through with her. :))
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08-02-2021
09:17 PM
1 Kudo
Hi @Janine-RO I haven't talked to my counsellor about a safety plan yet, but I'll have a look into the app. I'm feeling alright today, just been busy at work so I'm a bit tired. I'm sure I'll sort my thoughts and feelings out in my session with my counsellor this week.
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08-02-2021
09:28 AM
Hi @Bingo1234 . Yeah I think that I should tell her in my next session. I probably would feel better having talked to someone about it. I could share my thoughts with my two best friends but I don't want them to worry about me.
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07-02-2021
10:50 PM
Hi there, Before I start I just wanted to let the mods know that I am safe. :) So I've been having some suicidal thoughts for a few days this week but they usually only happen at night. They get pretty intense but I'll never act on them because I know that they will all disappear in the morning. I'm currently having weekly sessions with my regular counsellor on KHL and I've been talking to her for almost a year now! She's been super helpful in helping me deal with transitioning from high school to uni. I did tell her that I first started having suicidal thoughts/ thoughts about dying around my 18th birthday last year and she made me promise to call KHL before I do anything. I'm keeping that promise because she's important to me. I would like to tell her that I've been thinking about death again lately but she probably would like to know what kind of thoughts I was having? I don't really want to tell her because the thoughts are a bit specific and I'm scared that she might have to send me to the hospital even though I know that I won't do anything 99% of the time. I also haven't told anyone about these thoughts I had around my birthday last year except for my KHL counsellor. I'm not too sure how I would go about telling my best friends that I struggle with suicidal thoughts as a student in the year below our year died by suicide last year so I don't want them to be concerned about me. I guess I'm just wondering how I would go about being honest with my counsellor about the specific thoughts that I'm having knowing that if I told her she might have to send me to a hospital? Also at what point is it okay to tell your friends that you struggle with suicidal thoughts because I hate telling half-truths when my best friend asks why I was in a bad mood and I usually reply to her with "I was just in a meh mood". Thanks for reading everybody. I'm really glad that I could come onto the forum and get support here.
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05-12-2020
02:43 PM
Hi @Lost_Space_Explorer5 yeah it might be the school policy. Pretty sure my school is being very careful of mental health stuff because someone in the year below me committed. I just felt like having a copy of my file would make me more accountable for my own mental health but also would give my new psych more info from a professional point of view. There's not much I can do if they're not willing to give me my actual file but to me, it makes sense that I should have a copy of the file because I graduated and no longer attend my school.
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18-11-2020
11:58 AM
Hi @Andrea-RO ! Yeah I did explain to him I only want my file so that my next psychologist will be aware of my history. He said that he is happy to give me a one page summary so I think he'll just write something from my file notes. It's not the same compared to the actual copy of my file but it will do I guess. I'm still in the process of finding a new psychologist because the last one didn't work out so I can't ask him to pass on the notes to my next psychologist yet.
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17-11-2020
04:10 PM
Hi @Sophia-RO @Bingo1234 The school counsellor emailed me back this morning and he said that he can’t share the counselling file notes with me because they must stay confidential. But he said that he could write me a one page summary statement of the counselling support that I’ve received at school for me. I just said yes to that but also I feel like I should be able to have a copy because I’ve signed out of school and I am the client? Or maybe he just doesn’t trust me with the notes. I don’t know. 🤷🏻♀️
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15-11-2020
03:10 PM
Thanks @Bingo1234 ! I'll email the school counsellor and see how it goes.
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14-11-2020
10:51 PM
Hi everyone, I have finished my HSC and am about to sign out of school this week. Yay! Throughout year 11 and 12 I have been consistently seeing the school counsellor. I was just wondering if anyone knows if I am allowed to request to have a copy of my counselling file as I feel like it might be useful for the next psychologist that I'll see or it might be useful for the uni counselling service that I might use just so they have something to refer to regarding my mental health history in high school. I'm just scared that the school counsellor might think it's weird I want to have access to my file as I haven't heard of anyone that requested their counselling file from school before. Thanks everyone. :)
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25-10-2020
01:11 PM
2 Kudos
Hi @Taylor-RO Thanks for the reply and linking the thread of coping strategies for me. I've had a look at it and there are some strategies that I could definitely use. I think that I'll talk to my KHL counsellor about it to see if she could help me. I'll see how that goes!
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25-10-2020
12:57 PM
1 Kudo
Hi @Lost_Space_Explorer5 Thanks for your reply! I'm glad that I'm not the only one struggling with this and I hope that you're doing okay too. Yeah it's tricky because I've been using that as a way to cope with stress. I think that I'll try talking to my KHL counsellor about it to see if she could help me.
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24-10-2020
11:21 PM
2 Kudos
Hi everyone, I've been feeling very stressed out lately because of the HSC. I still have 3 more HSC exams left, and the exams are all pretty packed since it's all going to be next week and they're all difficult subjects (maths, legal and modern). I'm glad that I have finished 3 of my exams (English paper 1, English paper 2 and economics) but I haven't been coping too well. I've been giving attention to my scabs and I think a week before the HSC started I started hurting my arms and legs whenever I get stressed. I've never told anyone that I have a habit of giving attention to my scabs whenever I feel stressed out (which is basically most of the time) and this started in year 8. I have been seeing the school counsellor throughout year 11 and this year and I did see a psychologist at headspace for anxiety. However, I didn't have a great connection with my psych so I never told her about this. I trust the school counsellor but I never told him about my habit of giving attention to my scabs since I don't know what he could help me with and we've mainly just been working through school stress and grief. Since I graduated from school last month, he did tell me the last time I saw him that I could still book in to see him between now and the end of the year if anything is wrong. I have also been connecting with my regular KHL counsellor for a few months now (I call her usually once a week but if I don't feel like it, I'll end up calling her once a fortnight). She's great and I trust her a lot. I have a great connection with her and I'm grateful for that. I think I'm getting to the point where I'm ready to tell her about this scab issue, but I'm unsure what she'd say or how she could help me. I guess I'm also just unsure if this type of coping is considered as "self-harming"? I don't want to cause any pain to myself, but giving attention to my scabs gives me a relieving feeling and it gives me something to do when I'm stressed. Also sometimes I feel like I shouldn't call my KHL counsellor or that I should talk to someone when I'm anxious and I have a lot on my mind, which I've learned that is a sign that I SHOULD talk to someone. Sometimes I feel like that because I don't think I deserve nice things and my KHL counsellor is a nice and understanding person. So, I guess my questions are: Am I self-harming or just coping in a very bad way? Is it better to see a professional in-person to work through this issue? Although cost would be an issue for me and I don't really like the idea of going back to headspace since I didn't have a good experience with my psych there. I am safe and would love some thoughts on what I could do to help myself. Thanks for reading.
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12-10-2020
12:00 AM
Hi @Andrea-RO, Sorry for the very delayed reply, I've not been having a good time right but I'm trying my best. Thanks for the advice Andrea, it really helped. It's been a while but from one of W's messages, I read that she apologised for sending the post to me so we basically both apologised for the angry back and forth texting. I also gave her some numbers to call if she needed more support. I saw her at the youth council meeting and she asked how I was and she initiated small talk. W asked if I wanted to talk after the meeting but I told her that I needed to call my mum instead and have avoided talking to her. Yesterday W messaged me asking when my last HSC exam is ending and I told her, although I was suspicious about her message since it seemed like she wanted to hang out. I was right and she messaged me asking if we could "catch up" after the HSC. I know that I don't want to be more than acquaintances with her so I replied and said that "I'll see when I have time to catch up". I know what I want but I'm not comfortable with vocalising that I don't want to be friends with her since she either gives me a puppy look or makes me feel bad for what she's going through. I'm the worst at standing my ground. Right now I'm just avoiding her and hoping that she won't text me again but at the same time when I see her at youth council meetings again (I have one next week) she will want to talk to me about our friendship. W has also called my best friend 7 times using a private number because she wasn't talking to her. W just makes me so nervous everytime she messages/ calls me and I don't know what to do about it. :(
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15-09-2020
06:17 PM
Has anyone cut off toxic friends before? I'm 18, never had a toxic friend until I met this friend- let's call her W. The whole argument started because I blocked her on social media, which I later explained to her that I blocked her because I needed space to work out my own issues. When she found out that I blocked her on social media, she called me 3 times on my phone and also called our mutual friends to get them to try to contact me. She texted me demanding an answer to why I blocked her. She didn't even ask how I was or what was going on in my life. I explained to her via text that I needed space because I got triggered after she told me that she was sexually ab*sed online. She texted me back saying that she won't tell me about it the "next time someone sexually ab*ses me, so you won't get triggered". It sounded very passive-aggressive to me and made me feel like I was supposed to be okay all the time, and when I'm not, I'm being blamed for it. W made a new Instagram account and posted a piece of writing called "molestation, deceit and broke trust". In the post, she wrote that the douchiest thing a friend could do is to "ditch" them after they have been molested. She compared me breaking her trust to the same thing that the guy that did something to her, "only without the crime". She then proceeded to dm me this post on Instagram. I confronted her and she apologised for the dm, but she asked me to point out what was wrong about the post and said that what she wrote wasn't rude and that everything she wrote was true. I did not understand how anyone could write something like that, make an infographic on canva with illustrations representing her writing, save it on their phone, upload it and then send it to the person they wrote about. W still insists to talk to me in person when I honestly don't think there is any way to save the friendship. I texted her saying that I don't think we can be friends anymore. She has overstepped all of my boundaries and has called me "toxic", "manipulative", "rude" and "a hypocrite" at this point. However, I am in Youth Council with her and still have to see her. I said that I'd still be happy to work with her in Youth Council. She said that she would not prefer to talk to people that are not their friends and that "most people don't ruin friendships over one argument". So the only way I could work with her in Youth Council again, is to be her friend. Sorry for the long post, hope it makes sense as this has been going on for 4 weeks and is very complex. Does anyone have experience/advice with cutting off toxic friends even though they still have to see them semi-regularly?
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02-08-2020
01:48 PM
1 Kudo
Hi @WheresMySquishy I'm still a bit down but I know that things will get better. Yeah I'm really grateful that I met my old school counsellor and had a great relationship with her. I like to journal when I feel sad and that has helped me to understand my feelings.
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02-08-2020
12:40 PM
Hey @Sophia-RO No, I didn't email my psychologist. She never called back to check in with me and I just thought that I wouldn't want to go back to her if she said she would do something and never end up doing it. I did go in to see the school counsellor last week and he said that I can go back to see him if I need to. I have a really good support system at school and I know that once I graduate (which is in 8 weeks time) I can still talk to my regular counsellor on KHL. I've done a lot of thinking and I just felt like telehealth sessions just aren't for me and I really don't want to be bothered to find another psych and reconnect again.
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20-07-2020
01:37 PM
1 Kudo
Hi @MB95 Yep I'm thinking of going to my GP this week to get this sorted out! I do think that it's important for me to talk about it with my psych. Thanks for the reply!
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19-07-2020
11:19 PM
3 Kudos
Hey @LeapofFaith It really is difficult and I'm glad I'm not the only one that thinks like this! Yep the 10 sessions is with medicare under my mental health care plan and I think that spreading my sessions out to once a month will be a good option for me. Thanks for suggesting that to me! :)
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19-07-2020
10:58 PM
3 Kudos
Hi Andrea, thanks for replying! Yeah I think that going back for 4 more sessions might be beneficial for me, since I now figured out what worked and what didn't work. I'm really considering asking for her email when I get in contact with her again so I can just send her what I wrote down. :))
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19-07-2020
02:21 PM
3 Kudos
Hi there. It's my first time posting here on RO forums, so I hope that I'm doing this right. So I've been bawling my eyes out and feeling really low yesterday because I thought about how I have to go to my GP for a review of the mental health care plan since I just finished my 6th session with my psychologist at headspace. I'm very conflicted because initially I thought that she wasn't a match for me but after talking to my regular counsellor at KHL I realised that I struggled to feel connected with my psych because I wasn't opening up to her since I didn't want to cry and talk about hard things. (Crying over a video call is just weird.) Also, I literally only talk to her about anxiety (since that's what brought me in to see her) but I realised that I might be depressed but I don't know how to go about telling her. I also mentioned to her twice about the old school counsellor that left last year (when I was in year 11). I felt really connected to the school counsellor (honestly too connected to her to the point where I wished that she was my mum) since my family was going through a rough patch at that time and nobody with there to give me the emotional support that I needed. She told me that she might leave the school a week before the school year ended so I held onto the thought that she wouldn't really leave since she said that "nothing is set in stone yet". Basically she left and I couldn't process the grief from the loss of this relationship. I also discredited the grief that I felt from losing my school counsellor since around the same time our year lost someone unexpectedly (she was in my class) and everyone was really affected and was griefing. But the KHL counsellor said that she knows that my ending of the relationship with the school counsellor was really traumatic for me, so now I'm wondering if it really was. I'm wondering whether it would be good to go back for 4 more sessions with my psych to talk about depression and about what it means to end therapy but I'm scared of opening up which might take more than 4 sessions. I don't know what will happen after my 10th session. Also, I'm just wondering if I need to go back to the same GP for a review of my mental health care plan since the last time I went I cried in there and I think I traumatised the GP so I would want to avoid going back to him if I could. Thanks for reading, I know that it was a long post!
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