I really dont know where to start, my partner and I are in a bad spot at the moment. He cant tell that I am falling apart inside emotionally and really am running out of ways to cope with the stress ;( it started out when he lost his job of 5 years once he was fully qualified. however just my luck I lost my job the following week. He has since started a nother job which is going well but we are struggling alot with money. I feel like he is blamin it on me emotionally :( We have been arguing pretty intensly for the past few weeks I feel like weve drifted apart but I have no one else. he keeps things bottled p so its hard to know what he is thinking :( Tonight he said he doesnt know whether he wants to be with me. I seem to be crying myself to sleep and sitting up crying untill i have no tears left. I feel like hes oblivious to it. I am not ok and he wont notice. i want him to be able to hug me and ask me if i am ok without me havent to beg for it. I really dont know if he would miss me if we were to break up. but I cant even cope at the moment :( I dont know what else to say and I dont kow what Im expecting but I needed to write or do something :( i feel invisible like nothing i say or do matters im really trying to stay strong but its to hard not to think about the easy way out sometimes :(
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