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Pillow
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31-10-2013
25-03-2015
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25-03-2015
08:36 PM
Hey guys! It's been AGGGESSS since I was last online, and that's because I was going really well with all the things in my life and I was coping. But now once again I just have this urge to get thinner again, it's a recurring issue and I have tried many times to connect with an online counsellor at Kids Helpline but they won't let me connect with a counsellor unless it's my regular counsellor. It's hard because when they're available I'm busy, and when I log on all I need is someone to talk to but I cant.. I've tried the Butterfly Foundation as well but that's hard too because their online counselling service closes reasonably early and is only available Monday-Friday. I don't know..I guess I'm just going through a rough patch. But something feels different this time..like I'm not joking this time. This time it's for real, I just need to lose weight.. So yeah, that's what's going on for me right now, I just need to let it out sometimes because it all gets too much for me to handle on my own. Pillow
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20-01-2015
09:32 PM
So grade 7 was when I first developed eating issues like anorexia and bulimia. At first it was just a desire to be thin and then I started taking drastic measures to assist in weight loss. During grade eight I had depression and I was self harming as well as the eating issues listed above. My friends convinced me to speak to the school counsellor which I did. After that, things got worse and I start becoming suicidal which is when my parents found out and I was referred to headspace. After a few months of talking to psychologist I thought I was fully recovered and I stopped seeing a psychologist altogether. Now I'm in grade 10 and I've noticed that my eating issues are starting to come back again. I feel that I'm really really fat and I've started to fall into those bad habits again. I tried talking to a counsellor online a couple of days ago and I've tried multiple times; but I can't get my regular counsellor and the counselling service wont allow me to speak to anyone else. This is making me feel extremely lost and I don't know to do any more. At times this week I've been feeling suicidal because I feel like not even the counselling service even care any more so I don't know what to do. Sorry for the super long post I feel really bad, this post has gone on forever but that's what's happening in my life. Pillow
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19-08-2014
09:23 PM
Hey guys, it's been a long time since I've been on here and I really apologise for that. My life has been so busy lately with assignments and essays and stress and drama. Ugh! I've barely had time for myself. Anyway, so I've been recently slipping back into old habits. I've begun my bad eating habits again and then I can't take it anymore so I eat and then I get mad at myself for it, but I keep doing it. The only form of support I have is online support but that's only like once in 3 weeks if I'm lucky. My bad eating behaviours are resulting in me being cold all the time, feeling dizzy, sick, faint, sometimes it hurts to breathe and my heart feels a bit strange. But that may not be related to this I'm not sure. Also, last week my dog was put down. I didn't cry, which has made me feel bad, I feel like I needed to cry for him, I was upset but I just couldn't cry. I don't think I quite believe he's gone yet. Also, the school counsellor has emailed me and asked me to see her this Thursday, she's buying me a photo frame to put a picture of my dog in but I'm scared! I don't really like her, like I think she's nice but I have seen a lot of counsellors/psychologists and it just doesn't seem to help me, so I'm kind of over it. I am scared she will tell my parents things I tell her, and I don't know. I'm just stressed. Really really stressed. If you actually read all this, then you're pretty amazing. Thanks :p
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03-07-2014
02:49 PM
Unfortunately no. I emailed her again and asked when we could try to resume sessions and again, she hadn't replied.
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01-07-2014
08:01 PM
Hey guys, It's me again. So I think I have hit rock bottom again, I've been doing some stupid things with my eating involving bulimic behaviour and restricting my eating as well. I'm also really nervous because tomorrow I have a compulsory talk about body image at school...the school counsellor J will be there. I'm scared because she doesn't know what's wrong with me at the moment but knows there is something going on because I was supposed to see her last week. I'm scared she will read my body language and figure it out. I'm so petrified. Oh and also I felt like I was going to faint this morning, I was soooo dizzy and nauseous it wasn't funny, I don't know what to do... I really need to speak to someone but the school counsellor hasn't emailed me yet...oh well I don't deserve the help anyway Pillow
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26-06-2014
08:33 PM
Hey guys So today I was supposed to see my school counsellor but I totally freaked out. I ended up skipping the session and afterwards she saw me and my friend at lunch and talked to me about it. She's not as bad as I thought I guess..I patted her dogs hehehe :3 (she has dogs she brings into school that she owns to help people relax) But I'm so angry I skipped my session, I didn't end up self harming last night but I have everything ready to do it tonight I don't know if I will or not though. Time will tell and if it's meant to happen it will I guess... Also,I think my stomach is shrinking because I ate a meal today and it gave me terrible cramps and it wasn't overly large I had to stop halfway...is this bad? It happened last night and the night before as well..I also feel dizzy and light headed.
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25-06-2014
06:56 PM
Hi guys, Sorry for another post you're probably sick of me by now, so sorry. Anyway, so I have to go and see the school counsellor tomorrow, let's call her J. So I really am scared of seeing J, I know I need the help from a counsellor but I'm just afraid and nervous. Today I nearly vomited because I felt so sick when she emailed me to confirm a session time. I'm petrified! I'm scared because I don't want my parents to find out and I don't know how much I can open up to J. If I don't open up..well I'll feel stupid because I'm the one who requested the session. I'm also really anxious that J will think my problems aren't big enough and she will think I was silly for wasting her time. I also really want to self harm tonight and I think I'm going to be breaking my 150 day clean period. I'm sorry I just can't do it anymore, and I need to go back to this. I will regret it and feel like a huge failure but it's one of the only things that keep me sane. Also, one last thing; I'm really scared of telling J how I actually feel. I feel suicidal again like I did last year and I know she will tell my parents if she finds out. I'm scared to let my real emotions show..what do I do? D:
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24-06-2014
08:37 PM
Hey guys I haven't been online in AGGGESSSS but hopefully now I will be back on more frequently :) Anyway, so.. As you probably all know, winter is upon us. Last year it realised that the weather and the seasons affected my mood, and I was diagnosed with Seasonal Affective Disorder (SAD). So now that winter has come I can't help but feel a bit down and depressed. However, I have begun to return to disordered eating. This leaves me light headed, cold, nauseous and feeling weak but I want to be thin and I don't really care how I get there. I finally had the courage to email my school counsellor who took over from the really nice school counsellor last year. I don't like this new counsellor and I miss the old one but I know I need help, however she hasn't yet replied to me about having a session. So, I'm finding that now I'm facing anorexic behaviour and I've begun purging again I have no support. My friends don't know, my family don't know and all my psychologists and counsellors either face to face or online think I'm fully recovered and I thought that too. However that's not the case, I'm beginning to get self harm urges and I really want to go back to self harm, even now. Sorry for the long message I just feel really depressed and down and I needed to vent. Sorry...
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07-04-2014
06:36 PM
1: Katy Perry 2: Orlando Bloom 3: Evangeline Lilly 4: Cate Blanchett 5: Richard Armitage
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07-04-2014
06:31 PM
False; I LOOVVVEEE cats so much! Hehe x The person below me likes Lord Of The Rings
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06-04-2014
12:39 AM
1 Kudo
Hey guys! I decided to make my very own thread...because well I haven't really done that before. The topic of this thread is 'What are your top 5 fears?' Here are mine: 1-The world ending during my lifetime 2-Being left alone in the dark 3-Horror movies coming true 4-I will lose my friends/family 5-Orlando Bloom not falling in love with me :p Great! Now it's your go! Hopefully you guys can come up with some way better ones than me! I hope that we can all get to know each other here at RO through posts like these, and maybe even discover a bit more about ourselves. I hope this thread goes well, it's my first attempt at this kind of thing so please, join in! :D Thanks!!
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05-04-2014
10:55 PM
1- I'm obsessed with Katy Perry and I'm going to her concert this November 2- I love Lord Of The Rings/The Hobbit and all of it's cast 3- Orlando Bloom is my celeb crush :3 4- I have 1 cat and 1 dog and they are best friends 5- My very first favourite song was Mamma Mia by ABBA
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05-04-2014
10:51 PM
1 Kudo
Thanks so much @rt262 :) I'm feeling awesome right now! I just can't believe I got this far, I'm a little worried I will go back to self harm but I'm trying to focus on the positives :)
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Dog! My very own dog! He's brown with big floppy ears, I'm surprised he could sit still for so long! I decide to call him...
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05-04-2014
10:43 PM
15 Kudos
Hey guys! GUESS WHAT! It has been 100 days since I last self harmed! I am a bit proud of myself because I've come so far. It's amazing and a little bit surprising. So yeah...100 days...wow Hehe :3 just a quick little post, but I thought I would let you guys know
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28-03-2014
04:50 AM
3 Kudos
Hey SAS31, It's unfortunate to hear that things aren't going well with your husband right now; but I'm so glad you decided to come to Reach Out. I myself; don't particularly have much experience with partners; having never really had one before. However; honestly I would say if you're scared to be posting on here as he might catch you as if you're doing the wrong thing; something is wrong. If you think that he would deprive you of seeking help when you need then perhaps he isn't the person you thought he once was. I'm not suggesting you break up with him unless you deem it absolutely necessary; I think maybe you should choose a time when he seems more relaxed and calm and try to talk to him about things then. It's important that in a relationship both partners value each other and I'm not saying he doesn't value you; it's just there's no need to get violent with things in my opinion. Anyway; try to talk it over with him because at the end of the day he's the only one who can tell you how he feels. I hope some of this helped; I'm not sure if it was in any way supportive so I'm sorry if it wasn't. And also; welcome to Reach Out; hope to see you around! Pillow
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26-03-2014
07:14 PM
1 Kudo
Thanks! You will definitely see me around sharing my story and helping others; I want to do everything I can to show that there is light at the end of the tunnel
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26-03-2014
07:14 PM
Thanks! I am a little proud of myself; which is good. And I've developed a sense of beginning to like myself and I have found things I actually do like about me. Which is a massive change. So thanks for all the support earlier on! It means a lot to me
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26-03-2014
07:11 PM
It has taken a long time to get to this point of being fully recovered; but it was totally worth it. Totally. Thanks for the lovely message! It means a lot to me
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26-03-2014
07:09 PM
Thanks!! Means a lot! :)
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25-03-2014
08:49 PM
4 Kudos
Thank you! I think what really helped me was realising that I can't keep doing this to myself. It's not good for my health and I found it so hard to try and hide my scars all the time. But a few strategies I used where writing a diary and keeping track of everything; having someone to talk to; even a friend to keep myself distracted. But the one thing that helped me so much was venting. On RO, to a friend or family member, a counsellor or even yelling into my pillow or writing it all down. Letting it out makes it so much easier and you feel amazing afterwards. Well at least better than before anyway! :-)
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25-03-2014
08:41 PM
12 Kudos
Hey guys! It has been aggggesssss since my last post. But I'm really glad to announce that I have overcome..well everything! I finished up my last session with my psychologist at headspace yesterday and do not need to go back as of yet. Apart from that session yesterday I have had no support or anyone to talk to for over 2 months and I have been coping fine. I have stopped self harming for about 3 months now; I haven't purged or starved myself for about that as well; maybe a bit longer. I am really proud of how well I'm doing actually... Anyway; thanks to everyone here at Reach Out for helping me through such difficult times; you guys are awesome! I now hope to help other people get through their tough times by taking the experience from getting through my own. Thanks again!! Pillow :-)
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13-01-2014
09:46 PM
I'm not going to any :( there's not really any around the place right now
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13-01-2014
09:29 PM
2 Kudos
What do you do if you or a friend get injured or sick from drugs and alcohol? Well usually I'm the one who gets sick, I've done a bit of drinking...whoops Big mistake. Too much alcohol with heaps of other drunks around you, loud music and heat is not a good mix. Usually I take a few headache tablets with me when I go because I get headaches really quickly when I drink and if I feel sick. If I or a friend for injured I would find someone with a first aid kit because as delicatedreamer said it could be serious even if it doesn't seem so
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13-01-2014
09:06 PM
4 Kudos
If you're getting a lift with friends it's good to have a designated driver who won't drink any alcohol while you're there so you can get home safely :)
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13-01-2014
08:54 PM
2 Kudos
Haha well as they say great minds think alike ;) @hartley_
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