Hey @rt262  Thanks for the welcome!    Haha yes I'm always a busy bee, I'm one of those people who likes to stay busy and productive so my weekdays and weekends are always nice and full! Thanks so much! I can't wait to be done with it though I start studying another course next year in March part-time =P I've enrolled for Fashion Business just a one year course.   What are you studying? Your time in the sun sounds like it was nice and relaxing! I'm definitely welcoming summer into my life with open arms...   I'm a contemporary artist so I enjoy Ballads, pop, jazz, soul that kind of thing! I write a lot of my own music too. Are you musical? What are your hobbies? ... View more

Hey @motorhead    Man life can be so rough sometimes hey!   So proud of you for making the life changing decision to come out to your family!  Whilst they may not approve of your sexuality, i'm sure a huge weight has been lifted off your shoulders having told the truth.   Definitely agree with the sharehouse ideas. If you can, find someone who is also gay or a girl at least who can make you feel comfortable, accepted and safe during this challenging period in your life. I myself didn't come out until after I finished school and moved out of home at age 18 because I knew how my parents would react (just like yours).   Sure enough when I came out my parents were furious and cold, my three brothers couldn't accept it and my older brother pushed me against a wall yelling at me saying I was abnormal and confused.   Guess what??? That was only 4 years ago, since then I've dated guys and my family grew to accept my sexuality, eventually my parents invited my boyfriend and I over for dinner. That led to the whole family meeting any partner I was dating and becoming fully comfortable with the situation. My family are very religious and yet they've changed dramatically from when I first came out, we joke about it and love each other and what you'll realise is time changes everything.    Just realise you haven't changed, you've simply told the truth about who you are attracted to and that's so liberating. Give it time and space and answer any questions they have, they'll realise you aren't so different and you'll realise your family are just confused and need some time to adjust themselves.   All the best with it, good luck searching for housemates! Keep us all updated! ... View more

Hey @j95  You seem like a person who wants results and improvement and to fix all the worries in your mind. Welcome to the world of overthinkers! We are more common than you think, we over-think, we stress, we snowball and get furiously angry for no reason sometimes.   I think one bit of advice I can give you is trust yourself and believe in you. It seems like everyone else is normal and we are crazy sometimes but there comes a point when you'll realise you're just like everyone else with your own strengths and weaknesses. if you're getting really angry (I struggle with this a lot) have a shower, go to gym/run/walk/swim (exercise!)... always helps me, also maybe even write it down. Sometimes I write great music out of my anger and frustrations because it's good material! If you don't write music try just writing down a story or poem or even just some pictures channel that frustration into something interesting and useful.   Remember emotions aren't bad it's how we react to them. You clearly care about improving yourself and that's awesome! Realise that you make the biggest impact on your own actions and once you start letting yourself being imperfect and feel these emotions you'll feel a lot more free.   Hope that helps! Happy to talk about anything and everything, just know you're far from alone   ... View more

Hi @whydoibother  Often when going to get help in the past (for the same things you're suffering from) I felt like I wanted a quick answer or for someone to say "do this" and it would go away. Just remember it's all a journey and it gets easier with time if you work together with your therapist and be open and honest.   Some tips with the panic attacks that I've found help me-   1 - When you are getting a panic attack often your breathing with become rapid and you'll feel overwhelmed. Focus on breathing in slowly through your nose and out through your mouth.   2- instead of trying to stop the anxiety and push it away, embrace it and acknowledge it exists then focus on what you were doing and breathe easy.   3 - Lastly write down all your triggers! I know personally when anxiety starts writing down what caused it helps as I then know exactly what to deal with and what to tell a therapist.  It's important to know everyone gets anxious and that some of us get it more frequently (and have panic attacks from time to time) accepting your anxiety and knowing your triggers will help you a lot.  Hope this helps a bit! ... View more

Me too! *High Five* ... View more

1. How did you spend the last weekend?   Last weekend I worked, taught some music students, went shopping, went to the gym both days, rehearsed for my recitals and watched some SATC (Circa Season 2)   2. What is something you are grateful for and why?   I'm grateful for so many things. Something I'm currently grateful for would be the gift of music. It's provided me with a hobby, a creative outlet, a talent and an ability to bring in money to support myself through study whilst helping others reach their own goals.   3. Tell us:what is your first impression of the forum community? (be nice!!!)   This is my first time on the forum! Everyone seems quite positive and uplifting which is great, the internet needs more forums like this. Looking forward to hopefully sharing some of my experiences and being a positive influence.   4. What's the last song you listened to (share the vid!)?   The awesome new song by 'The Script - Superheroes'. I love how uplifting and motivational this song is, it's like the little brother to their epic single 'Hall of Fame' https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WIm1GgfRz6M   5. What are you looking forward to this month?   This month is pretty huge! I finish my Bachelor of Music this month which is so exciting, three years of hard effort and many, many rehearsals finally coming to a close. Preparing for my brothers wedding next month which is exciting and also getting my outfit ready for my friends Halloween party. ... View more