Feeling really hopeless rn. My paranoia has set in and my brain won't stop telling me that this will never end. I can't even find enjoyment in my favourite TV shows or books because I see the characters out and about my brain is like "hey so you're gunna be stuck in your house forever :)" and it's been a really difficult evening and I can't take enjoyment from anything.  ... View more

So hopefully this is gunna help me, but I realised like maybe in order to feel less hopeless, I gotta do something that I look forward too!   So I'm going to start a weird little passion project to keep me going. I love recap podcasts and I love Preacher so I'm going to re-watch it again and make a little podcast! I've already had a few online friends I met through the show  say my Preacher rants are super funny and they'd give it a listen! Is it super nerdy? Yeah. But if I have a script I need to finish once a week, but it's something I love, it might just help keep me going!  I'm starting watching episode one tonight, I'm very excited I've always wanted to do a podcast!    Maybe podcasting might be a good idea for other people in this thread!  ... View more

So before the country locks down proper on Tuesday my mum is coming to get me. This is honestly a relief, to be able to deal w this around family. I'm still gunna be paying rent for my share house and stuff but honestly I've been very close to hospitalisation (for mental illness stuff) a number of times already  so having someone having a close eye on me is really helpful.  ... View more

@Bananatime04 Good news, from my limited knowledge it doesn't sound like you have COVID19 cause it's more of a respiratory infection than a sinus one. Still would recommend calling the hotline if you're extremely worried, though! And try to stay away from infecting vulnerable people! ... View more

That's bloody awful! Hopefully they should compensate you!    Just saw a a fantastic life hack that says once this pandemic is over, we should be asking prospective employers "what did you do for your employees during Covid-19?" and I think that's a fantastic question to ask and I might put that in my arsenal when I go job hunting at the end of this year.  ... View more

I do this every 3-6 months? But it's fun So let's do it again!    1. I play mandolin! I'm the only person my age I know who does, but it's a beautiful instrument!  2. I go to an optometrist that has medical students, so one time I was asked to come in just because I was a really good example of my condition (amplyopia) and they wanted me there to teach students about it!  3. I don't play many sports because of my eye condition, which affects depth, but I used to be a back pocket on high school AFL because I'm "really good at falling over with other people in my arms". Still one of the best compliments I've ever gotten  4. My goal is to become a music therapist and help people with dementia and Alzheimer's through music!  5. I know a couple of Irish language swear words, and I use that to my advantage  ... View more

Feeling super bummed out today because I'm an Irish-Australian and my family are all folk musicians and so March 17 (St Patricks Day!) is when a lot of memories have happened for me and usually I try to go to an Irish folk jam with my guitar or my mandolin but everything has been cancelled, which sucks. But I had a bit of an epiphany the other day and I posted about it on FB and it might be helpful for people on here:   "A comforting thought: how lucky are we that Covid-19 happened now, in the 21st century, in 2020!   How lucky are we that we live in an age where we know about hygiene and social distancing, rather than say, when we thought illnesses were caused by "bad air"? How lucky are we that we live in an age where vaccination is a thing and scientists are working on one as soon as possible?   How lucky are we to have technology that means that we can facetime friends and family all over the world? that we can still hear their voices and see their faces, quarantine be damned, cause we have The Internet! And we have Netflix, and online virtual libraries, and tutorials on YouTube, and all the knowledge you could ever want at your fingertips! How miraculous is that!   How lucky are we to live a world where anyone can whip out a smartphone and film the moment a whole quarantined apartment complex bursts into song! That in mere hours that video can go all the way from Italy to my timeline here in Australia!   Things sort of suck big time right now, but we are also so so lucky, and we're gunna get through this, and cause this is the 21st century, we're gunna have record that we did!"   Do with that what you will. But I'm glad we're dealing with it now, with all of the tech we have!    My housemate had been really hospitable and let me put on my folk playlist and helped celebrate it with me,  but it feels sad not going out with my mando, because Irish folk music is very important to me and who I am! At least I have The Dubliners and someone who cares about the small things that make me happy!  ... View more

I suppose I should try another hotline? What's a good one to try?    I write songs too! I'm trying to keep myself distracted by writing this one song about the comic book Preacher because I'm a huge nerd :P  ... View more

I tried kids helpline once but I found the dude really transphobic when I briefly mentioned being trans and I don't know which services wouldn't be. I'm also scared of phone and web lines because when I still lived w mum she used to listen in on my phone calls and my ex used to go through my discord chats. I'm trying to like, move past that but it's really hard to trust myself and get myself help right now because my mum and dad never wanted me to get any. ... View more

There's one counsellor rn and she's really overwhelmed rn. I have n appointment in three weeks (if unis still on by then) but technically she's only supposed to be talking to me about uni stuff. I got a referral to a psych but I don't know how much longer they'll be open for before they shut down too.    I'm really scared about everything shutting just when I need the lost support.  ... View more

Honestly I'm just waiting for uni to close. Because  at a "private" institute I have to go in otherwise it counts against my grade, but I know it's going to close eventually, and it being up on the air is really getting to me. Also cause I'm doing music, there's lots of handling instruments and being close to mics that other people have had their mouths against and stuff, and it's dangerous when I also work in medicine so IDK what to do. It makes stuff even more stressful and I feel like everything is up in the air and there's absolutely nothing to be hopeful about and it's getting to the point where I'm starting to feel suicidal again (not so much that I'm planning anything, I'm safe for now) which is usually eased if I have something to look forward to but I just feel like everything is up in the air, nothing good is ever gunna happen again, I have no food cause it's all gone and peopke have hoarded it and there's no point anymore.    There were the bushfires and then this right after it feels like the world is ending and I don't want to be there when it does. I had what might've been a psychotic episode last month and I'm feeling like this situation is heightening my paranoia that the world is ending and I'm gunna have another episode and I don't have. psych right now to help me manage it and I dunno what to do.  ... View more

I took my photo with some Baby Yoda street art yesterday!!!! Love that funky little man.   Also has anyone else here watched Preacher? I finished it a couple of weeks, and I'm now rewatching it cause I am absolutely obsessed (and I'm reading the comics!). It's sort of a dark comedy/dramedy which is my favourite genre and I'd explain the plot but its very hard too without spoiling anything. Also one of the main characters is canonically queer! (huge TW for like, violence and gore if you choose to watch though)   Also: - Peaky Blinders (gangster in nice suits, though there's a huuuuge TW for basically everything) - Derry Girls (most accurate high school comedy I've ever watched) - Barbie: Life in the Dreamhouse (one of the funniest shows I've ever seen, it's on Netflix too!) ... View more

WHIPPETS! I grew up with whippets, I live those spindly little things!    Favourite smell?  ... View more

Right now I'm reading book four of Preacher by Garth Ennis and Steve Dillon. Yes, that's the one the TV show's based off! After not reading anything for almost a year, I've been absolutely devouring the series. I'm up to the fourth book. Sure, it's comics rather than just words, but hey it's more than I've read all of last year, so I'm considering it a win. ... View more

  1. Would you rather be able to breathe underwater or fly through air? Hm. I feel like breathing underwater would be nice, cause then I could nap in the bath.     2. Whats your favourite food to order at a restaurant? A chicken parmigiana with chips and veggies and no ham and a pint of stout. I can't do that right now because I've given up alcohol for Lent, which sucks cause stout is tasty as!   3. Are you a morning or night person? Night. Me and mornings are not on speaking terms.   4. If you had unlimited storage space of one thing, what would it be? Musical instruments. I currently have a guitar, a mandolin, a keyboard, a piano accordion and a tin whistle, but I also want to eventually get an Irish bouzouki, a banjo, a bodhran, a better keyboard, a concertina, and a washboard. One day I'll have enough money and space for all of that!     5. Who is your favourite superhero and why? I'm not a superhero sort of person. Can I say Scott Pilgrim, does that count?   ... View more

  When I'm in a bad mood, especially when I'm angry, I like to listen They Might Be Giants, because they're so weird and nonsensical it just lifts me back up. This is one of those TMBG songs that's weird that I can't help but laugh. ... View more

Am very close to finishing my notation homework - I've completed all four parts, voice, guitar bass and drums, just need to do lyrics, make sure every tie is tied and every slur is slurred and every staccato is staccatoed, etc. Did a load of washing Chatted to some old friends on discord Finally listened to the Peter Bellamy record my brother gave me for Christmas (not to my taste, honestly, but it's trad folk and my bro knows I like that, so it's the thought that counts!) Finished my bibliography for my essay! ... View more

  The Pogues again? Of course! Who's really surprised, though ... View more

Transcribed the entire drum part for my music notation assignment! All of the drum part! That's one fourth of my assignment done in about two hours! Talked to two absolutely lovely librarians! Discovered a song by my favourite band that I hadn't heard before! ... View more

My friend sent this to me as a joke, but you know what? It absolutely slaps. I'm listening to it while studying.   ... View more

I'm thinking I should write these down and stick em on my wall! ... View more

Well for me, I try to get myself out of the situation and away from the problem if I can. Not finding a solution (yet), but if I nosedive into those sort of feelings I don't think rationally, so I'll avoid the problem for a while.   For me, it's the lack of control that really freaks me out, so I'll do something that I can control, like play a video game that I've played before or go to my favourite book and find and reread my favourite parts.   Is there anything in particular that esculates meltdowns that you might have control over? ... View more

Okay, I have to ask, what do you mean by meltdown? Because I do have tips that help me during autistic meltdowns, but this doesn't sound like one of those. ... View more

OMG @queenP I loved that song as a teen. I used to listen to the Juno soundtrack on repeat when I was like, 13-14ish, I think? I loved that soundtrack. I've got to go listen to it again, for nostalgia reasons. Thanks for reminding me that song existed   I'm currently listening to what is, in my opinion, the creepiest cover of "You Are My Sunshine". But boy howdy, I love it. ... View more

I used to listen to the horror-comedy podcast 'Welcome to Night Vale' and there was a phrase that came up a lot that I still tell myself today:   "Past performance is not an indicator of future results"   Simple and boring, but very valuable advice. ... View more

  My main man, Phil Chevron, AGAIN. ... View more

1. Doctor says I can walk (put not run or play sport or anything) on my pulled calf again! 2. Got hired to do a charity gig in May. Time to start crafting a setlist! 3. Did some of my notation homework (ew, notation! the bane of a music student's life! But I did it!) ... View more