So I trained as a nurse and everyone thought I'd love it...but unfortunately I've realised it isn't for me.    I 'd really like to move into a STEM (science, technology, engineering, mathematics) job but I don't really know what kind of jobs are available for someone without a science degree (nursing is kind of related though) or what kinds of study I could do. I'm especially interested in biology and chemistry!!    Any RO peeps working or planning to work in stem fields?  ... View more

I feel like I need somewhere safe to hide, like in the woods or even in a city, just where no-one can see me. Does anyone know somewhere that I could go where I can't be touched? The only place I can think of is hospital and they won't let me go there because I'm not actively suicidal rn.  It feels like the world is out to get me and my partner isn't replying to my messages which is freaking me out. The world feels really dangerous and it's making me want to throw up.  ... View more

I’ve been sleeping all over the place lately (different emergency dept’s, different hospitals, different family members couches) and it’s made me think a lot about what my comfort objects are - the things that no matter what’s going on or how bad things are, I can hold onto these things and know I’m going to be alright! When I don’t have much of a home, I’ll lay out these things and know I’m at least kinda home.    For me, they’re: My denim jacket, it’s cosy and safe and warm and makes me feel like a badass!!  My toy bunny, she’s so soft and I can squeeze her really tight when I’m scared.  A small postcard icon of Mother Mary, I’m not super religious but something about the image brings me a lot of comfort! My boots with pride shoelaces, super comfy and tough and pretty.    What are everyone else’s comfort objects?    ... View more

Hi everyone. It’s been ages since I’ve been here but I guess I felt in need of some community and peer support at the minute.    Since I was here last, I moved to another city, got a job, had a relapse and started self harming again, attempted suicide, had 4 trips to ED and spent two weeks across two different psych units. I also started long distance dating the most awesome and amazing person (which kinda made up for the rest of it)!   I’m currently staying with my parents, which is a bit of a nightmare, and planning to quit my job and move back to my home city. The reasons I want to quit are: I’m working in a public hospital and I feel like the hospital system harms patients and I don’t to be part of it; full time work is exhausting and leaves me no time to work on my own recovery; the number of people I had to interact with and the constant noise badly affected my mental health; plus the suburb I moved to is racist and homophobic which was affecting me to the point I didn’t want to leave the house. Butttt this job is a really great opportunity AND I feel guilty and anxious about wasting the financial help my family gave me to help set up here.    I’m planning to beg community MH to let me see their social worker with the aim of getting into a disability employment service who can help me find part time work. But I feel so ashamed at the thought of being unemployed and also a lot of grief at leaving my flat - as scary and isolated as it’s been the last few weeks, I still really am going to miss it and the beginnings of a home I built there :(    Please tell me that I’m not throwing my life away? Because I really feel like I am.  ... View more