I’m proud of myself because I had a difficult day but instead of pestering people for attention and then getting frustrated when they don’t understand I wrote a long journal entry about how I felt  ... View more

Well done on your course results @scared01! That’s amazing. I’m sorry things are difficult tonight, I hope you can speak to someone understanding and supportive on the helpline. Proud of you for reminding yourself that you’re human and for reaching out for extra support    ... View more

I hope that whatever you decide you are well supported @litgym  I’m sorry you’re having to cope with behaviours from your family that aren’t okay. How are you feeling now you’re finished the conversation?    General right now, but I plan to go into mental health nursing in the future when I’m more stable! :)  ... View more

That’s nice of you to say but I respectfully disagree; for me functioning isn’t something to be proud of, it just means I am too afraid of being punished for not coping to stop functioning. All it does is mask the fact that I’m not okay and allow me to get more and more unwell because I am so good at functioning and hiding or denying how I feel. I’m not doing well, I’m hiding how sick I am because I am afraid of the trauma that always results from failing to function.  Thank you for the well wishes @Taylor-RO will probably get an early night  ... View more

I hope your pain eases soon @scared01  Crotcheting after work sounds like a great idea :)  ... View more

That sounds really scary @litgym  Hopefully someone will explain to your mum that this isn’t your fault and then take steps to keep you safe from her anger. I hope lifeline is being supportive.    Also I’m a nursing student atm working in a hospital! :)  ... View more

Wow I think you’re going to be an awesome social worker/psychologist/paramedic @litgym! You have so much empathy and compassion, you’ll be really great at it :) In my work I interact with a lot of emergency paramedics and they’re always really lovely and competent.  Also glad to hear you’re safe  ... View more

Thanks @Taylor-RO. I ate dinner, I’m functioning okay with the basics like hygiene and work, I just feel really really bad. I want to give up. All I think about all day is dying. I’ll keep lifeline in mind but don’t think I’ll need it tonight, this is more a chronic thing than a crisis rn.  ... View more

I’ll keep my fingers crossed for you too @scared01! :)    I’m sorry the tests were such a painful experience, both mentally and physically. I suppose one positive is that they are taking your concerns about possible pcos/endometriosis seriously - I know you were worried that they wouldn’t. It sounds like you’re doing an amazing job of doing some self care and dealing with the pain, so proud of you  Do you get a break from medical stuff at all tomorrow?    Hugs if you want them, I hope you get some rest this evening/tonight  ... View more

I constantly feel that I just can’t do this anymore @litgym, everything feels so so horrible :( I can’t focus on doing any mindfulness or skills or anything. I’m safe atm though.  ... View more

I’m sorry to hear it’s been such a tough day @scared01  Is there anything you can do to self care tonight?  Congratulations on submitting your last assignment!! That’s amazing, I can see how hard you’ve worked on this course, well done :) ... View more

I’m really sorry to hear how sad you’re feeling @litgym; that emotion of loss and grief can be so overwhelming and the feeling of having lost my adolescence is something I struggle with too  I think it’s important to remember that all those things you feel like you’ve missed out on you can still do in the future! There’s so much time and when you’re in a better headspace you’ll be able to create more joyful memories. Maybe you could create a bucket list of things you want to experience or do in the future?  ... View more

Thanks @litgym, idk, I still just feel really unhappy and not wanting to live anymore :( I know I keep saying this but I just feel so hopeless and miserable.  ... View more

Hey @litgym, sorry to hear today’s been tough again  Relapse is part of recovery, and I’m proud of you for planning to do some self care and keep yourself safe tonight. Did you feel like talking about anything atm? (I think webchat opens at 7 btw :) ) ... View more

Hey @scared01, I’ve been thinking of you today and wanted to check in and see how you got on with your tests today  Here to listen if you need  ... View more

I understand just being over it @litgym  As you said to me, things can and will get better...you are so much more than your illness and one day these feelings won’t be as overwhelming. The mental health system is very frustrating - if you feel you need hospital treatment atm maybe you could bring that up with G? Your safety and healing is so important  ... View more

Thanks @litgym that’s really kind  I hope you know the same about yourself! :)    ... View more

Sounds good @scared01  I hope you’re able to get some rest and a bit of time not thinking about the surgery  ... View more

That must make it extra hard @litgym, it’s difficult when someone needs us and we’re just not in a headspace to help  I wish I had some better advice (I’m afraid my brain’s a bit fuzzy) but I hear how frustrating this is and I care and am sending hugs  ... View more

Want to have a chat about something light and non-anxiety provoking to distract you @scared01? Or there’s always the games threads! Alternately the Big Bang theory and Xmas prep sounds like a good distraction too :)  ... View more

I’m sorry you’ve been feeling the same way @litgym :( I did my TIP skill last night and spoke to lifeline but mostly the only thing that’s getting me through is the fear of my family being angry/upset/disappointed if I stop going through the motions. I have no hope anymore, no belief that things will get better. I feel like a machine that is forced to live so I can care for other people. Things won’t get better and it doesn’t matter because I don’t matter.  If this is triggering for you please don’t try to keep up a convo, I can always call lifeline again etc if no one is able to talk here :)  ... View more

I can hear it’s really upsetting to be treated that way @litgym :( You are so much more than your illness! Any way you could take a break from hanging out with her, if not now, then over Christmas/school holidays? You could even just say you have a lot of family things on over Christmas if you don’t feel like confronting her. I also know some people benefit from bringing friends or family to therapy appointments - sometimes talking about relationship issues is a lot easier with a third person to mediate.  How’s the squishies and putty going?    Nice!!! I’ll have to check it out too :) two things must have been hard!! ... View more

Fair enough @scared01 :)  Oh wow that’s a lot to find out all at once and I can only imagine how scary it must feel!  I’m glad you feel like you’ll be able to process it with time...is there anything we can do to help you feel better about the whole process? Or sticking with the distraction atm could be the way to go.  Here to listen  ... View more

All good @litgym no need to apologise- thanks for checking in. I just feel so hopeless and frustrated :( I feel so awful all the time, it’s unbearable, and my anxiety’s been so high and everything just sucks and nobody seems to be able to do anything that helps even a little :( Except ask if I need to be in hospital, which I would like to avoid at all costs. I feel so incredibly hopeless.  ... View more

It sounds like such a stressful and anxiety provoking situation @scared01, it’s understandable you’d be feeling really nervous about everything.  It’s awesome that you used some strategies to help on the train ride, the skilled way you use coping strategies always impresses me :)  Would it help to talk to someone tonight, SCBS or KHL or lifeline?  Sending love and support  ... View more

Hey @litgym, sorry to hear you’re sick, dry crackers and peppermint tea can help with nausea sometimes, if you feel like you can keep anything down!    It’s so hard when depression interferes in a relationship that used to mean a lot to you :( It sounds like your friend is trying to help by asking about your depression, but going about it the wrong way...I know that would upset me to, for me it would feel like they only see me as my illness, is that the same for you or a different feeling? Could you consider writing an email or letter to your friend explaining how she’s making you feel and telling her what would be helpful instead?    Ooh what kind of merch is out atm? Sounds cool :)  ... View more

Oops sorry @scared01, only just saw your new post. Those sound like great distractions, I can see so much strength in how you’ve made a plan to self care and calm your anxiety a little tonight  ... View more

Hey @scared01, is it mainly the surgery that’s got you feeling anxious tonight? We’re here to listen if that would help, and if you have any questions let me know because I might be able to answer them :) I also wanted to reassure you that in my experience, everyone who has general anaesthetic is given a breathing tube, it’s just a safety thing with the anaesthetic and doesn’t necessarily mean the surgery is particularly dangerous or complex. Although I do understand how it would be scary to hear that    Would any of the awesome suggestions from @Eden1717 and @litgym be things you could try? Or is there anything else that might help soothe the anxiety, like going for a walk, holding some ice, deep breathing, music...?  ... View more

Sending you heaps of good luck and good vibes for tomorrow @scared01, you’ve got this :)  ... View more