@Bananatime04 It's really good to hear that you're finding reachout to be a really positive support in your life, and I can understand that the prospect of losing that could be scary. It sounds like you're aware of the guidelines and how to conduct yourself though. If you're ever unsure about whether a post is okay or not, you can always email reachout before posting, or ask a staff member or mod for clarification. Do you think it might help spend a bit of time having a go at some of the games threads? I know that helps me when I want to feel the support of reachout, but I'm nervous or not in the mood to write a serious post. I'm sorry that you're struggling with this my friend, but I'm very glad to hear that RO gives you hope and purpose, I think a lot of us can relate to that :) ... View more

I'm sorry @Bananatime04 I wasn't aware of your situation and I said some insensitive things, I apologise. When RO does ban users it is for their own safety and the safety of other forum users - what I have seen from you recently has exhibited that you are very competent at making sure you and other forum users are safe. In fact you regularly clarify that you are safe in your posts, which I think is really great and shows that you have a good awareness of your own situation :) I think you have really learned from your bans and are a very thoughtful and considerate user - do you think you could think about bans perhaps as a learning experience or safety measure, instead of a punishment or something to be afraid of? ... View more

Hey @Bananatime04 :) It's okay to take a break. Can I ask what has made you feel bad? I'm sorry if I said anything to make you upset. ... View more

Hey @Bananatime04, glad to hear you slept well, I LOVE a good sleep in. Sorry to hear about your panic attack :( That's not fun. But dude, none of the posts that I personally have seen of yours have come close to breaking any of the guidelines. If you do break one, the worst we'll do is edit your post and give you a gentle reminder, you won't be in trouble. Try not to stress about it (I know that's easier said than done). Been reading through this thread and wanted to also let you know that questioning your sexuality is SUPER FINE AND NORMAL. I know there's still a lot of stigma and taboo, and that kids at school can be really insensitive and use pretty nasty language at times - I'm hella gay and just finished school, and I did struggle with those things too. If you have any questions about it, feel free to ask :) Hope you have a good day today my friend, how are you doing? ... View more

@Bananatime04 do you think it would be helpful to seek additional supports in the meantime? Three months can seem like a really long time, especially over the school holidays when you're out of your regular routine. I totally understand not wanting to see a bunch of different health professionals, when I was in year 10 I saw a psychologist and a GP and a paediatrician and an occupational therapist, and I know they all meant well but it was REALLY overwhelming. They all gave slightly different advice and I had sooo many appointments. I found it more helpful to just see one or two who I clicked with the most. At one point I was transitioning from one OT to another, but it was a couple of months before I could see the new one. So in between I saw a regular counsellor with the understanding that it was just a temporary thing, and I would stop seeing the counsellor as soon as the new OT was available. I found it useful to have someone to talk to and check in with during that waiting period, even though it was just temporary. Do you think an arrangement like this could work for you? Hope you're feeling a bit better today :) ... View more

Nice to meet you too ahha @Bananatime04 :P It's okay to be a bit nervous to talk on the phone, I know I HATE phone calls - to me that's one of the things that's so great about RO, it's really accessible if you're not ready for verbal or face-to-face support. That's how I first got here :) You mentioned feeling weak, would you say that is a physical feeling or a mental feeling? Sorry that you're feeling this way right now :( ... View more

Hey @Bananatime04, I'm here to listen if you want to talk a little bit about what's going on for you right now :) ... View more