I am glad you feel ok about that @redhead btw I really loved that art the other day ... View more

Hey @lamonica1997 thanks for being so open and honest. When we are feeling this much pain, suicide makes a lot of sense. I guess the notion is that it's a break from the pain. As this is the second session with the psych, it's not unusual you are still contemplating this. It's definitely important to stick with the Psych and be honest about this, because it's so worth it once you are on the otherside of this overwhelming feeling.   Have you ever used Lifeline or Suicide Callback Service when these thoughts crop up? Are you able to stay safe tonight ?     ... View more

Hey @Hungryturtle22 yes they will definitely take that into consideration, the hospital situation is usually the pointiest end of crisis support. So if you're having feelings of SH etc it's your Psych's job to sit with you around those feelings and work out some strategies/plans. You could always ask your Psych about this sort of stuff, ask how hospital admissions for self-harm work etc Practitioner's are super trained in this area, and a good Psych will share the basic ins and outs of the entire system. It is important you get all the support you deserve - do you trust your Psych? ... View more

Hey @wolvesrunfree this sounds so very painful, I am sorry to hear about this experience and want you to know we are here to listen and are sending you heaps of love. Even though you cannot see it right now, you are worthy and these feelings will shift.    Before we go on I am very concerned about your safety. Are you able to stay safe today?  I know you mentioned you don't like talking about your feelings but would you consider a web-chat with Kids Helpline (14-25 year olds)? They're a really good service and have incredible counsellor's, everything remains totally confidential. You can access webchat here.   ReachOut isn't a crisis support service, it's really important you get some qualified support right now. Also I edited your post just to remove method No biggy it's just a part of our community guidelines.  ... View more

Hey @litgym thanks for being so honest, I am sorry you're feeling low and in this much pain. Before self-harming it could be really good to try and connect with KHL even if your preferred counsellor isn't there. Remember too to seek medical attention if you need it Does your friend's hug make you feel worse etc? ... View more

Perfect, very talented. @redhead   ... View more

@litgym  a very painful thing to consider so often, you deserve support and we really do believe you can shift into a more peaceful space, you're so strong.   Your friend who you're going to see, do you trust them enough to talk about this? Are you able to stay safe today? Sending a tonne of love. ... View more

@litgym how are you going today? ... View more

Hey @Jeplar sending you a lot of love in this situation, it's a really hard one. Sounds like you're feeling somewhat suffocated. Is the core issue that you can't seem to gain any independence away from your parents? And it's in turn having a knock on effect with your emotional health?    All that you are feeling is totally okay to feel, it makes sense too that you feel it's affecting your demeanor around others. The important thing is that you get some support and have some strategies to change this situation. Have you ever tried Kids Helpline? They have webchat and phone, totally confidential, it's also a service that can be used by 14-25 year olds. Will tag some members for their input :) @N1ghtW1ng @Bee @lokifish @scared01 @mrmusic @annabethxchase ... View more

Hey @cemetarygirl332, what do you think is the core reason behind your alone-ness? Is there a reason you're struggling to connect with people, or is it just certain people? ... View more

Beautiful words @cemetarygirl332 Are you safe right now? Would you consider having a confidential chat with KHL (they work with 14-25 years olds) online here or by calling 1800 55 1800? ... View more

@vanille Loneliness is a super uncomfortable and fragile experience at times. Thanks heaps for posting and sharing your story with us. Can you tell us a  bit more about the situation at school? At the moment do you feel you've got no solid friendships there? And what about outside of school?   You're not alone in your loneliness :) There are a few members here who have at times felt like the outsider looking in, myself included. Please know this will shift for you. I am going to tag some of the crew for their input too   @lokifish @Bee @mrmusic @N1ghtW1ng @ErinsAntics  ... View more

Hey @cemetarygirl332 thanks for posting on RO . These are pretty heavy fears to sit with on your own. Why do you feel you are not a good daughter? in terms of thoughts about ending your life - are you safe now? We're here to listen. ... View more

Hey @BunnyWalks I think it's awesome you want to help the farmers. I am a bit confused as to what your question is however. Apologies I am unsure what you need our help with?   If you can clarify further that would be awesome :)  ... View more

Hey @TheUnholyChild first up super well done on being self-aware. The fact that you have taken the time to reflect and consider these actions is incredible - and above all else, you desire to change.   I think with an issue like this it's important you get some professional support as well. Sometimes blackmailing and manipulating people becomes our default defense mechanism, and it can take a while to fully wean off that process. Do you have a school counsellor you can chat to at all? I am going to tag other members for their input too   @Esperanza67 @lokifish @N1ghtW1ng @Bee ... View more

Heya @annabethxchase I am going to send you an email keep an eye on your inbox ... View more

Hey there @annabethxchase are you alright? Are you feeling safe being in the same space with your Father? ... View more

Hey @litgym how did you go connecting with the counsellor? ... View more

Super well done on trying all those things @litgym I reckon the next step is to try chat to a helpline that specialises in managing thoughts of self-harm such as Suicide Callback Service. What do you think? ... View more

Hey @Mrstweety5482 well done on opening up to your counsellor about this. It's really important that you do. Did you feel she heard you? Are you feeling safe right now?   Self-care is essentially turning the love and attention we give others inward. It looks different for everyone :) So for me it's yoga, walking the dog, meditation, taking myself for a coffee, reading, playing music.   For others it's colouring in, painting, swimming etc. It's essentially taking time out, regularly, to look after yourself. Does that help at all ? ... View more

Hey there @ILikeCake firstly I just want to commend you on walking past your sister and straight into your room. It sounds like you're being super hard on yourself, which is not uncommon when others are being hard on us too, but the fact remains you managed to self-restrain in a moment of adrenalin and walk away from your sister without violence. This is actually pretty incredible, many people succumb to the need to act. Also thank you for sharing and opening up.   Definitely concerned about your Dad's behaviour. Do you feel safe living with him? Do you feel safe right now? I am glad you are not hurt, but throwing things around the house is violent and incredibly damaging to our emotional health.   What supports do you have access to at the moment? Would you consider giving the team at KHL a call and let them know what's been going on? You can also webchat with them here. Also would recommend SCBS if ever you are thinking of self-harm again, they're a really good service. You are so valuable and intelligent, it's important to remember we're all learning. We're all with our flaws and you are very self-aware and will absolutely make it through this   In regards to the threesome thoughts, what makes you feel this is not okay? Fantasies are a very normal part of the growth process and a part of our sexual health. Is there a reason you are concerned about this particular one, or is it mainly because it is new?     *Also I edited a bit of your post - check out our community guidelines. RO doesn't allow methods of self-harm or abuse. No biggy, just keeping the whole community safe Let us know how you're doing. ... View more

Definitely @scared01 and at often times our physical symptoms are our emotional health manifesting as well - so no doubt if you're highly stressed, more symptoms are cropping up. It's so important you rest and have some recovery time. Is someone putting emotional pressure on you at home etc?   ... View more

That definitely makes sense, sometimes it seems like a soothing option - to quiet all that noise. But we're also here to listen to the noise, to hear it with you @scared01 Do you want to share with RO what's been happening? ... View more

Hey @scared01 what's happening? I am concerned about your safety do you have a plan to end your life?   ... View more

No I meant literally when we're feeling down. When we feel depressed. We all feel it, but over time it becomes less - more manageable. If this makes sense? Also that is understandable, it's just your inner rut going external Does anything soothe this feeling at all? Does writing on here help ? @FootyFan26 ... View more

Sometimes with the MH cycles it's about minimising the down time. For me I still have the lowest of lows but bounce back much quicker than I did say ten years ago. Would it help you to chat to the forums about what has been going on for you? What's led you back in the lower end of the pattern?  @FootyFan26 ... View more

Hey there @Mrstweety5482, this sounds very confusing and painful. We are here to listen. When did the feeling of guilt start? Is there anything you can think at all that may have triggered the feeling?   ... View more

Beautiful words @mrmusic   @scared01 you definitely are a wonderful, intelligent valuable human we especially think so on the forums We're here on the journey, even when it hurts. Have you considered reaching out to some supports? Helpline? ... View more

Hey @scared01 what's going on? Concerned about you. Why do you feel you are walking on eggshells here? Here to listen   ... View more

It's cool @mrmusic :D  ... View more