Hey @Matty D thanks for letting @annabethxchase and myself know you are safe We were concerned about you. Is there anything you can do right now to help the way you're feeling? what usually helps you relax? ... View more

Hey @Matty D that is hard you're right anxiousness is not a nice feeling. What usually helps relieve the anxiety? ... View more

Hey @litgym I am going to send you an email ... View more

Hey that is so hard @litgym it really is not cool your Mum did that, you need time with your counsellor, I am super sorry this has happened. Are you safe right now? Do you need further support? Concerned about your suicidal thoughts.  ... View more

Hey @Tink28 definitely understandable to hear you need some sick days with all that is going on, you probably need rest with all the activity fatigue Is there anyone that can support you in easing up your schedule a bit? Anyone who can help you figure out how to manage it? Let us know. ... View more

I hear you @Matty D. Well go for it :) Your self care is super important. ... View more

Hey @Matty D what sort of things do you want to say "no" to? Who is asking you to do these things? We are here to listen :) ... View more

Hey @codeblue it's totally understandable for you to feel this way, and of course anyone would react with anger when two people are ganging up on them; this is a very normal emotion when you've been backed into a corner. I am sorry your sister did not understand your point of view. Why do you think your Mum and your sister behave this way toward you? What's the dynamic there? I want you to know we all are sending you love, there's a lot of people on here who are keen to listen and support you through tough times. Would you consider chatting to a counsellor at KHL? It's confidential and they are a really good service. You mentioned suicidal thoughts, are you safe right now? ... View more

@Bee @ErinsAntics @N1ghtW1ng @DruidChild  ... View more

Hey @hellofriend I am so sorry for the pain you've been experiencing. You are definitely not alone in feeling a bit disappointed by the professional supports you've given a go, sometimes that can happen - it shows an incredible amount of self awareness and resilience that you were able to reflect that these modalities/supports weren't working for you. Whilst we can't give testimonials here, the ReachOut members can share their own journeys and share what worked for them. It's important to note what works for some will not others, for example I don't benefit much from clinical psychology but I have friends that do.  I am going to list below a few of the professional options that require a great deal of training/accreditation, you could google a few of these; I will also tag some members to share what worked for them.   - psychotherapy - psychology - psychiatry - acupuncture - kineseology - support groups (and of course a tonne of body focused tasks such as yoga, meditation, sports) If you feel the drugs weren't working for you, you know your body best, totally okay. Regarding the suicidal thoughts, are you safe right now? ... View more

Hey @Blurryphaced we're super concerned about you, I am going to send you an email soon. Let us know how you're going as soon as you can. We're here to honour your pain and listen but we need to check you're safe first. ... View more

@Blurryphaced how are you today? A lot of heaviness last night, I am so sorry you're feeling this much pain right now. Just want to check in on your safety, would you be up for contacting a helpline today? ... View more

@ILAUVEDEN thank you for sharing - very deep, poetic. @litgym thank you for sharing too, it sounds like you're going inward. Remember to be compassionate when you are self-reflecting. Self compassionate is so very important ... View more

@DruidChild I don't want to minimise your pain at all, I know worthlessness can feel so real and immense. You're so very valued though. Despite what your external world looks like right now, you are an intelligent and strong human being with a lot of worth. I am concerned about you at the moment, are you able to stay safe? Do you need further support from a helpline? ... View more

We are here to listen. Thank you for being so honest about the thoughts As well a chatting to @scared01 and crew, would you chat to a counsellor at KHL or SCBS? @litgym  ... View more

@litgym Depression is often a symptom of a very deep wound that needs to be honoured, and heard. I know it hurts but it is okay to feel this way, though I send you love as it can be an exhaustive experience. When you say you're done, what do you mean?  ... View more

Hey @litgym what's happening tonight? ... View more

sounds incredibly unsettling @scared01 I really hope you can figure out the cause Are you resting now? ... View more

Hey @rainbowpotato just trying to understand  - so you're saying she's in and out, based upon the two of you and intimacy? Am I right that, every time you guys get close/intimate - she pulls away kind of thing? Let me know :) ... View more

Hey @scared01 sorry to hear you're not getting sleep still. Anything in particular keeping you up? ... View more

That is a lot of pressure no doubt. I will tag some members for their insight to support you   Yes they do have webchat here :)    @ErinsAntics @Bee @DruidChild @N1ghtW1ng @litgym ... View more

Heya @rainbowpotato I am sorry your friend hasn't replied. Is she usually a bit in and out like this? Or is this new behaviour? Why did you need to tell her before school reconvenes? Here to listen ... View more

Hey @blobby  I am super sorry your Mum is talking to you like that, you need support right now not guilt. We're here to listen Would you consider giving The Butterfly Foundation a call as well? They're really good with body image stuff, and are confidential. Sounds like you have got heaps on, blended with feeling unwell no wonder you're feeling this way. What do you think could help ease the flow of everything? What's the lowest priority thing on your list?     ... View more

Hey @BunnyWalks it's definitely an affliction no doubt. You sound very torn between your parent's desires and heritage as well as your desire to feel okay about who you are, and who you want to be. Is there anyone in your life outside of your parents you can confide in about this? Have you considered chatting to a counsellor about it? It's important you feel comfortable in your identity and feel you can have some inner peace around this. How are you going with the boundaries? ... View more

Oh totally @DruidChild there's nothing wrong with you. Do you have any practitioner's that you feel are your ally, and not trying to "fix"? Yep it is  just an idea haha, I like it though as a concept! You will/do help people for sure, the world needs counsel from the integrated wounded.  ... View more

Aghhh @DruidChild I am always BLOWN away by your incredibly intelligent mind and your eloquent writing. I know this is very hard for you, but gosh your words will help so many.   A friend of mine recently introduced me to the concept of Situational BPD. Sometimes the BPD reactivity and confusion can escalate when we are dealing with difficult situations, or more likely - very difficult and manipulative people. To me it sounds like your feelings aren't totally the issue, in fact your feelings are valid and actually no different than any other human. For me, if my therapist cancels - I feel completely shitted off. The challenge is the severity of the feeling. I might feel it at a 7, but you would feel it at a 10 (if this makes sense). I think it's important to remember it's a process, a long process, and you do a lot of work reflecting and breathing and considering. I know they feel all consuming, but the more you zone in on the notion of self-love, self-compassion and just acknowledging that you're actually doing super damn well, the quicker the recovery. I am going to tag some crew for their ideas however :) @scared01 @litgym @Bee @ErinsAntics @N1ghtW1ng @FootyFan26 @mrmusic ... View more

Hey @Emz215 thanks heaps for sharing, this community can definitely function as a decent sounding board for feeling stuck.   Well done on travelling and stepping out of your comfort zone. It's definitely not uncommon to feel pretty limbo-esque when returning from travel. Travel inspires us to explore ourselves and our surrounds, and coming back to no job to encourage you to get straight back into the flow of things definitely does make it challenging. Sounds like you are pretty into US culture, would you consider moving there? I am just wondering maybe if you raise the stakes, ie - moving overseas, the desire to apply for those jobs may be more intense. I think it could also be interesting to explore what is beneath the "apply" button pause. Are you looking at jobs you're not really interested in? Maybe jobs you're being told to go for but you don't really want? Is it fear you're not good enough, or just general disinterest?   I am going to tag some RO crew for you too :) @DruidChild @N1ghtW1ng  @FootyFan26 @Bee ... View more

Thanks for letting me know @litgym  ... View more

Hey @litgym this sounds painful, please know you are incredibly strong and it will not always be like this. There's a fierce strength within you, you will make it through   About the thoughts and the urge to self-harm, are you able to stay safe tonight? Do you need extra support? ... View more

Hey @litgym so sorry to hear how incredibly painful this is. I want you to know you're not alone in your pain and from the other side of screens we all honour your pain very much It is incredibly taxing, but also very important. There's a message in even the darkest moments. Would you consider giving a helpline a go as well as RO? ... View more