Hey there @JonoG thanks so much for this post and sharing your story. This sounds incredibly painful for you, it's very unpleasant what you're up against -  you are not alone with this, some of our forum members struggle with a similar experience. Have you spoken to a health professional about this yet? Do you have a counsellor, or are you working through any trauma? This forum can act as a great peer support around these issues, but this sounds like a situation which requires a consult from a GP, Psych or Counsellor. There's also Kids Helpline (ph: 1800 55 1800) which work with people right up until 25 years of age, they can provide you with strategies and info on these intrusive thoughts as well.    Did you manage to get any rest last night? ... View more

Hey @nhle1994 well done for reaching out. I definitely get the feeling of loneliness, so do many of our members unfortunately this forum is entirely anonymous; however we can definitely listen and support you, as well as help you strategise around the loneliness.   I also am not close to family, sometimes I think this really can magnify the loneliness and the emotions that come with it. Is your PHD one of the reasons you are feeling lonely? Does the study get in the way of socialising? Keen to know more about any connections you may have had in the past. I will tag some of our members too. :) @Bee @N1ghtW1ng @mrmusic @ErinsAntics ... View more

Hey @blu3 thanks for letting us know about what you meant and your safety :) Yeah it can be quite scary seeking professional support. Do you mainly not want to because your parents would potentially find out? Or is it just the money? There are bulk billing psychs :) However there's also kids helpline who work with people your age, they have web chat and phone available (1800 55 1800) and are totally confidential. It is an ongoing process getting on top of anxiety, so don't go too hard on yourself because it definitely can take time. Do any strategies work for you at the moment?  ... View more

Beautiful addition thank you @letitgo so cool about the screen! ... View more

Hey  @blu3  wow you are such a self aware, intelligent fourteen year old Thank you so much for this post. Anxiety can be a really hard one, it's a very physical and mental experience so very well done on reaching out for support. Many of our members can relate, a few of them live with G.A.D and for the rest of us, at some time or another we've had to work through anxiety. Are you receiving any support for your anxiety at this stage?  I am going to tag some other members for feedback :)   @letitgo @Birdeye @mrmusic @scared01 ... View more

That sounds really hard @Drake123455ggg, sounds like you are feeling pretty unheard. I am guessing there's no reasoning with your parents? Is there anyone you trust who could help talk with them for you? It's understandable to be feeling this way, we're all here to listen. How are you feeling now? ... View more

@Matty D Anxiety serves a purpose in letting our bodies know something is wrong, or that something needs our attention. It's definitely uncomfortable though and I can understand why it's hard for you. It sounds like idle suggestions give you anxiety, would deep breathing help at all when someone is posing these questions? Or walking away and having a break. I hope your Psych emails you back with some good tips :) How are you feeling now? ... View more

@DruidChild such beautiful words and support. We're all backing you @Eden1717 You are an incredible human.  ... View more

Hey @Tammy6879, I am sorry to hear you're feeling worse. It sounds like you're going through a bit of disassociation. On the journey to recovery a lot can come to the surface, it's sort of like the body and mind numbs out to give yourself a break from it all. The bed thing can be incredibly frustrating. Have you spoken to your counsellor/psych about the disconnection you are experiencing? You are definitely not alone - I will tag some of the crew too :)    @scared01 @mrmusic @Bee @ErinsAntics @N1ghtW1ng ... View more

You feel the anxiety doesn't serve a purpose? @Matty D It sounds like you are really frustrated with this feeling, which is totally understandable. What do you think would help to make you less anxious? ... View more

@Eden1717 you're in a lot of pain. I am hearing you, but want to make sure you are safe. I will send you an email, keep an eye on inbox. ... View more

@Eden1717 I am so sorry that you feel even more pointless after seeing the two psych's, that's really painful I am 100% feeling for you right now. I know you want to give up, but you've completely got this. This is a finite feeling I know you said you don't want to go to ED which I understand, can you try to give SCBS a go? OR KHL? Let me know. ... View more

Hey @Stussy well done on trying to stay positive. These girls sound very low energy, it is a really hard one to deal with and thankfully does get a bit easier as we get older. Do you do any activities outside of school or any sports? Do you have any close supports during this time even in your family?  ... View more

Hey @Matty D I am sorry you are having a hard time with yourself right now. We're always here to listen I am not 100% sure what you are asking, do you mean other people's small suggestions make you anxious? Keen to hear more :)  ... View more

@Eden1717 These are really powerful feelings, how are you feeling around the psych appt tomorrow at the moment? Do you feel more comfortable about opening up or not yet sure? ... View more

Your grammar is fine :) @litgym well I am very glad you have such a good connection with this Teacher she sounds like a total inspiration! As for your friends, it is a really challenging thing in life when friends break our trust. Sometimes it is okay to stay friends with them, but only engage with the qualities you like. You can still use your friends out of school for support through personal stuff. It sounds like your mate at school isn't respecting your boundaries around privacy. It's okay to feel the way you do, I would too. Please know you're not alone, and it's okay to say no if you don't want to share.  ... View more

Nice question! @scared01 @Bee @mrmusic @N1ghtW1ng what do you think? ... View more

Hey @Spencerhastings just wondering how you are traveling today? ... View more

Gonna send an email @j95 ... View more

@j95 I am going to encourage you to give Mensline a call now, you're becoming distressed, this is a really good example of why you need a break. We are not the appropriate service to  be using when you are in need of qualified support.  All of RO has your back, that's why we are advocating for you, you know the team has offered to link you in with a great service but you do not want to & that's your right. Might be a good time to take a break, chat to Mensline, and jump back in when you are up to it.  ... View more

It is not forever, it ensures you will seek the right help . You have some work to do but we totally believe in you @j95 ... View more

How far out are you from friends? Do you live remotely? You are right that can make things more challenging no doubt. It can be tricky when we're going through hard times in a relationship and both parties are struggling, we're here to listen as you need. @Teenageratlarge  ... View more

@j95 You know that's not what it's about mate. This about you getting appropriate & qualified support.  ... View more

@DruidChild Sadness is uncomfortable , we're all here to back you. Amazing what is the novel about?  ... View more

Oh no @j95 do you need to see a GP? There are different wetsuits for winter hey? ... View more

Hey @Spencerhastings it is an uneasy feeling isn't it. It's totally okay to feel it's not as easy for you to socialise with people, not everyone has to be super outgoing and connected. Some of my best friends are introverts and when they come out with me, they'll lay pretty low until they feel comfortable opening up. There's nothing wrong with it :) The anxiety can be irritating though no doubt. Have you ever heard of CBT? Look forward to hearing from you. ... View more

Hey there @litgym You were born with so much value and worth, you clearly are so incredibly intelligent. Sometimes we just don't have the right mentors (parents) and have to turn elsewhere. You can create your own family, through friends and teachers and mentors - sounds like you have already begun this process and will continue to as you grow. I am sorry about your mates, what do you think is going on there? I tend to find most people only have one or two true friends we can trust. Trust is such a valuable thing, it's good not to give it away to everyone straight up. How are you feeling now?  ... View more

@Teenageratlarge for starters, you are an eloquent talented writer. It sounds like your relationship is definitely instilling a sense of uneasiness. Am I right that she is your stability, the one constant in your life, but also that she is perhaps out of alignment with you and the two of you have different values? When you say you have no friends, can you tell us a bit more about that? I am getting this kind of overwhelming sense that you want safety and security, but I could be off.   Keen to hear more :) Going to tag some other members too.   @mrmusic @ErinsAntics @N1ghtW1ng @Bee ... View more

This is very insightful and self reflective @j95. How are you feeling today? The weather is so good I was thinking of you and your surfing adventures! I still need to get lessons. How do you go surfing in winter? ... View more

@DruidChild how are you today?   You have been an amazing support on the forums the last few days, I have been blown away.  ... View more