That would probably help alot but I don't expect you to do anything @Tiny_leaf .    Every now and then I just try to ignore the mess and then it just stresses me out some more @WheresMySquishy . I am trying to get myself to do the washing in my room. Far out I have such low motivation.  ... View more

I need easy meals to cook and that have left overs @Tiny_leaf . I don't know what right now .  ... View more

I'm grateful for my boyfriend @WheresMySquishy . And my work mates are supportive and want me to get better.  ... View more

Well my room has a pile of clean clothes that I need to fold and put away, as well as a small stack of my own dishes @Tiny_leaf . There is so much disorganisation in my house and it's all because of my sister not cleaning up her shit. The only way to fix it is to do it for her because it's been several months and she hasn't changed. It's so overwhelming.    And next thing is this health stuff which i can't fix - I have to get tests which are stressing me out and then wait for results. I haven't been eating properly and i never know what to cook :(    There are so many things.  ... View more

@Tiny_leaf @WheresMySquishy    Everything's a mess and my chest hurts and I feel sick all the time.  I haven't been working because I'm sick and even if I'm well I don't feel like working even though I need the money. But I don't feel like doing anything else either. I feel so overwhelmed with everything and I don't know what to do to fix it, to make things better.  ... View more

@Tiny_leaf That's brilliant.     I don't want to keep living like this :(  ... View more

I'm sick of feeling so alone and like everything is wrong for no reason.      ... View more

@WheresMySquishy well - I'd say tony awards performances are pretty good to watch in relation to musical productions. Not sure what other videos you should watch though. Mostly I just listen to musical soundtracks.      ... View more

@Esperanza67 Absolutely! That is one of my favourite Tony Awards Performances :D The openings are pretty amazing. @Tiny_leaf You should see the Tony Awards openings. They're awesome.    I really can't wait to see him. :)  ... View more

@Esperanza67 Thank you. Yes - I have been reading and watching youtube videos to distract myself. It is not unbearable thankfully. I am very much looking forward to seeing my boyfriend. I have missed him so much and I have been so sick while he has been away, it has been a scary experience. Just knowing that he is coming back has kept me going I feel like.    I'm watching tony musical performances on youtube. :)  ... View more

I hope you had an okay day @scared01 . Thinking of you <3  ... View more

Hey @Beautifullybroken . I actually had a good day so far. I went to my GP appontment and got some referrals for some tests I need to do. I am anxious about them but I will have my boyfriend to support me thankfully. And then i had my psych session which was also good. @Tiny_leaf I couldn't bring up the self ham or suicidal feelings though, or an incident that happened last week - instead we talked about all my health stuff which has been getting me down and anxious.    I have spent most of the afternoon reading my book. Now I am home in bed and I'm feeling okay emotionally, but I do have a pain in my abdomen area and I've been feeling a bit sick. I hope it goes away soon.    I should be able to see my boyfriend tomorrow or on Sunday @xXLexi_Lou122Xx . And see above about GP stuff. Gotta have tests done.  ... View more

It's pretty amazing @Tiny_leaf . I'm going to try and sleep now. Have a good sleep <3  ... View more

thank you so much @Tiny_leaf :)   I do believe I will fall asleep soon I think. I'm just finishing off this game and listening to some last couple songs then I'm going to try and sleep.    That sounds very interesting. I also like learning about old legends and history type things. I like how they affect stories of today and beliefs.  ... View more

@Tiny_leaf I'm curious now. Tell me more?    btw - thanks for talking to me. It really helps. I always feel so alone :(  ... View more

Yeah - that's really cool actually @Tiny_leaf . I didn't know about that though. It is very interesting hearing about nursery rhyme true meanings. Kind of sad a bit though.  ... View more

@Tiny_leaf I remember crying at the end twist. That musical had so many funny parts too. I only saw it last year for the first time. I hope to see it again one day. If Anastasia ever comes to where I live then i'll definitely go see it again.    That is one thing I truly love is stories - musical performances and movies/tv shows. I do love those a lot. :)    That's kinda funny about the animals. You'd find me rambling on about musicals too much !  ... View more

Just some random flash games online @Tiny_leaf . And I started watching some Anastasia scens from the musical. Gawd I really do love that musical. ...maybe it is my favourite..hahaha. But Wicked...far out that story is incredible as well. Gahhhh - I just love them both so much. Sorry I am completely fangirling right now. haha .  ... View more

I am listening to music and playing computer games @Tiny_leaf . I should be going to sleep but I know it is pointless because I slept all day. Not really having much luck with my sleeping patter atm. I know it is okay because I have been unwell and I have work off. I still wish I was functioning normally. It sucks so much.    The games are good though. Did you start listening to music?  ... View more

@Tiny_leaf I feel like I know what you mean. Sometimes I like listening to depressing songs that kind of really sum up how I am feeling, and that the song understands and then I feel okay. other times I can't stand to listen to a depressing song.  ... View more

I think that is wonderful @Tiny_leaf . I'm out of school now but when I was finishing year 12 and the first 2 years after I did a lot of volunteer work with the teachers I liked to be around. We'd have nice conversations. I'm really sorry about the depression and not being able to go to school regularly. The fact that you're still doing stuff despite your mental health is really good.    I'd do the same thing, as a teacher, if there was a student who felt safe just having a chat and being at school then i'd do it.    Do you ever just listen to a song on repeat? At the moment I have been listening to this song on repeat. So emotional. It kind of gives away, Anastasia story line, but the song is great I think. It makes me want to cry and smile at the same time. In a crowd of thousands it's called.  ... View more

I'm happy for you that you get to see the good one @Tiny_leaf . And those sound like some great positive things. Do you go to high school?      ... View more

The only thing I am truly looking forward to at the moment is seeing my boyfriend again. Not really excited about anything else. I do want to get better from this illness though.  ... View more

haha, that's cool @Tiny_leaf . I do love Disney movies and fantasy/adventure type movies.    What are you doing tomorrow?   I have a GP and Psych appointment and other than that probably just rest in bed and watch netflix.  ... View more

I'm going to say no because I really cannot think of anything right now that stands out @Tiny_leaf . Do you?  ... View more

I have yet to see them @Tiny_leaf . The musical is quite upbeat and has some full on high energy songs and dancing. It's pretty cool for what it is. :)  ... View more

@Tiny_leaf Oh - have you seen the musical version of Legally Blonde or listening to the sound track?   Oh - I am looking forward to it regardless.  ... View more

It is hard to pick just one but I think I would have to say Wicked - @Tiny_leaf . But my other top favourites include:   Dear Evan Hansen Anastasia Legally Blonde The Lion King Matilda Aladdin Beauty and the Beast ... View more

@Tiny_leaf You gotta watch the movie to see how it unravels! I think it is on netflix if you have that. Otherwise if you like musicals then I recommend getting the movie. :) my housemate loves cooking shows. They drive me crazy.    I'm kind of obsessed with musicals.  ... View more

@Tiny_leaf That's cool that you like him! I'm not really into cooking shows.    Anastasia is an old legend in history about a princess who was said to have escaped in a time when her family was all killed and she grows up with amnesia not remembering who she is. People believe the princess is alive and they send "fakes" to the grandmother as a reward. And the fairy tale version is about a young girl who is found by two men who "train" her to be the real Anastasia for a reward, all while there are men trying to find and kill the real Anastasia.    I think in reality though, the princess never actually lived. I am not really sure exactly though how the story goes. But I love the musical, it is amazing.  ... View more