Hey @xXLexi_Lou122Xx . So sorry I disappeared for a while. I have been so busy with work and life that I completely forgot to come on here.    I am glad you received some help! ... View more

@xXLexi_Lou122Xx okay, awesome! ... View more

Hi @dragon3 . I suppose for me I see the "balance of my life" as a representation of me being able to function. If I am out of balance then it may mean that my regular routines are out of wack such as my sleeping and eating habits, going to school or work and not attending my commitments. These things affect my emotional wellbeing as well such as my optimism and positivity, my self critical thoughts and being able to deal with mistakes, failure or things in my life going wrong.    A good healthy balance to me is being able to have and deal with experiences and emotions, whatever they may be and still be able to go about my every day life in a happy and productive way. Being able to set goals and stay motivated are clear indicators for me that I am having a healthy life balance.     I hope this helps.  ... View more

@xXLexi_Lou122Xx You are very welcome :)    That definitely does sound physically tiring for you :( take your time!    I could possibly help with the math as well by the way. Just make a thread and take a picture of the problem or something or tell me the unit you are doing and i could possibly help. I was okay at math in the lower years of high school. I quite enjoyed it!    I hope school was better today :)  ... View more

@xXLexi_Lou122Xx It is okay to feel how you feel. I can't speak for the teacher on why they may have done what they did, but it sucks how it impacted you.    Math is tricky. I had this one teacher who I would always go to for help at school.  ... View more

Hey @Panda-Lover2020 ! I can confirm that we are real people! I am a young adult and I have been using the forums for years. It is great to be able to chat and hear about peoples experiences and offer support as needed. It is normal to feel a bit hesitant of trust to people online and I think it is a healthy thing in regards to cyber safety, hence all personal details are kept private.    I am sorry you must feel isolated with no one to talk to about being bullied. I agree with other users who have posted about the helplines and informatiom you can gather from this site.    We can also ne here just to chat things through if you need :)  ... View more

I think a huge benefit to maintaining a healthy life balance is that it helps you in many aspects of your life. It helps me to stay motivated and keep on track with the pleasures and goals I have in my life. It enables me to better handle challenges I am faced with and cope with the struggles, ups and downs of day to day life. I also think it can help you succeed and see a better version of yourself. I know this because when my life was out of balance I did not feel like I was the person I wanted to be. But when things are in balance then I feel a better sense of control and optimism over my life. I can see the positives and have happiness in the little thinfs without getting caught up in all the negative emotions. I think this is so important.  ... View more

@xXLexi_Lou122Xx Yes - it is pretty annoying when a teacher frustrates us. Sometimes we are just not in the mood. I wonder why your math teacher was frustrating you? If you feel like sharing that.    Enjoy your swim. I need to clean my room!  ... View more

Hey @Panda-Lover2020 . It is so brave of you to reach out and I want to welcome you to the forums. =)   Gosh - being bullied at school is really awful! Would you like to tell us more about this? I am wondering if you have been able to have courage to reach out to a school teacher or family member? Is anyone supporting you through this tough time?    We are here for you!  ... View more

I can tell when my life is starting to go out of balance because I notice myself staying up really late at night and not doing any meal planning. This leads me to sleep alot or try and function with little sleep as well as either barely eating or buying alot of convenience junk food.    I also feel super stressed, overwhelmed and agitated about little things so I find it harder to cope with things I normally would be able to on a daily basis. My anxiety gets worse and it effects my sleep pattern as well as causes me to have nightmares and feel really unmotivated to do things.  ... View more

It feels great to be a part of the forum again! Great question.    This year I am committing my time towards making sure I go to work shifts and my weekly psychologist and therapy group sessions. I also make sure that I have food to eat as I am trying to avoid going to restaurants and buying take away too much. Sleep, eating healthy and looking after my wellbeing is what I am trying to focus on. I also include lots of video game time with friends, board game group sessions, watching netflix with my boyfriend and hanging our and chatting to my friends to talk about what's going on in our lives. It hasn't really started up yet but I also get involved in sport to get myself exercising.    I do find my schedule can change depending on how I am feeling. I have been super busy at times with work clashes that sometimes I haven't been able to go to my face to face psychologist. I try and compensate fkr that by contacting a helpline or chatting with friends when I am available.    Some weeks are easy as I have less on but things are starting to pick up and I find being in a regular routine really helps me to stay on track.  ... View more

Hey @Cherrybomb94 . Welcome to the forums and thank you for sharing. I know it is tough when we feel like we're not meeting expectations and when we're defining ourselves as "not good enough" then it can really ignite this sense of failure and impact our self esteem. I wanted to post because I really resonate with your feeling of not being good enough or worthy of love. I spent a huge amount of time last year battling a great sense of failure and feeling like I don't deserve love or anything.    The funny thing is our sense of worthiness is out there and we are each valuable with many different traits that we can contribute to society. Right now it obviously does not feel like that for you, so I am curious to learn more about where you stand. Would you like to tell us more about what is making you feel like you are not good enough and unlovable? As a prompt perhaps - has anything happened recently to make you feel this way?   Once again thank you for posting - that takes courage!  ... View more

Landings are the worst for me @xXLexi_Lou122Xx . I pretty much have continuous panic attacks while flying. I dislike it so much!    I hope you enjoy school =)  ... View more

Aviation scares the life out of me but it seems like an interesting pathway @xXLexi_Lou122Xx .  ... View more

Writing a book is definitely hard work but also very rewarding too @xXLexi_Lou122Xx =)  ... View more

It is so good that you have these aspirations @xXLexi_Lou122Xx . :) and I am glad I could be of some insight.  Teaching is such a rewarding career and drama is amazing.  It is one of my favourites in line with Phys ed. =)    I hope you have a great night :)  ... View more

@xXLexi_Lou122Xx Great question :) So in year 12 I did English, Further mathematics, physical education and outdoor education. I wanted to be a PE sport teacher mainly and that is what I am now. I didn't get a very high ATAR entrance score, I was about 10 points under what I needed for my course choice but I filled out a Special consideration application called a seas app and that helped me get into my course which was a bachelor of education.   As far as I am aware you need English and maths study scores or 25 or 30 i think and I believe they have added a new entrance test called casper or something. In terms of heading towards a drama teacher role, if you do a Bachelor of education then you can major in drama subjects. However I know there are other avenues around this such as doing an Arts degree and performing arts and then transitioning into a masters of teaching with drama as a major.    What grade are you in this year?   I would say the main subjects you would want to do well in and aspire in if your school gives you the choice include: English,  General Maths, Drama, theatre studies, dance, literature and possibly a VET (victorian educatiom training certificate)  course in performing arts/acting certificates etc. I am not sure I remember what state you are in so I don't know exactly what your options may be.    Throughout school though I did dance and drama subjects, theatre studies, literature, PE, english and maths and these all helped me. I also have a drama background from school musicals and outside of school performing arts events so I would try and be as actively involved in these things as you can!   _________   Hey @Tiny_leaf ! How are you? I know I took a hiatus!  ... View more

Hey @xXLexi_Lou122Xx . Sure thing ! ... View more

I really appreciate all your kind words @Bananatime04 :) you deserve every minute here on this planet and you have so much to give!  ... View more

Thanks for the link @Andrea-RO . I think I'm going to focus on talking to my psychologist tomorrow about this and my kidshelpline counselor on Sunday. Hopefully I can become more confident in my work place role and earn a stable income without the intense anxiety accompanying it. I'm not sure what other job I would be better suited to. I can't really see myself doing anything else. I don't know what i could do.    Tonight I am also having another night where i am really frustrated with my house mate because of the house mess issue. She just doesn't clean up after herself and leave the environment clean to an acceptable standard for me. I can't live with her anymore. I've made plans to move out but it won't be practical until early next year so I have to wait. Plus i can't move out until I get over this work anxiety issue and know that i can support myself without any money issues. It's all very stressful.  ... View more

I'm not sure I fully understand how it works @Bre-RO even after reading it. Is it just people I can talk to over the phone about working?      ... View more

@WheresMySquishy I wouldn't want to do the taxi ride share thing mainly because of money but it's a good idea.    @drpenguin I have considered trying to get a part time teaching job and I've been freaking out about the whole application process, interviews and writing key selection criteria. I really need to get some people to help me write all that. I think ultimately being part time at a school would be better for me. It's the process of getting there that I am struggling with. As a substitute teacher even though I'm mostly teaching different students and sometimes new schools, I have been lucky enough to be placed at one school. But when they don't need a substitute that morning I get a phone call from my agency to work at a different school in a different role and that's when I start freaking out more and turning down shifts. So I know being at one school would help alot.  ... View more

I'm not sure about an employee assistants program @Bre-RO but I do know that there are some training courses on professional development in this industry that I can try and attend.    @drpenguin I don't have any employees to go to work with as my job requires me to go to different schools regularly and so I'm often working with new people unless I am placed at the same school. Even then I don't know anyone well enough to go together.    @WheresMySquishy good to hear from you too. I'm trying to get my bag and things organised the night before but in terms of the actual work for the day, I never know what I am teaching until I arrive on the day because I'm a substitute. It's go go go once I arrive.    I'm really trying to get a good nights sleep so I think over the next week that's going to be my main focus.  ... View more

@drpenguin I feel like I'm not good enough for my job and also get super nervous about going. I feel like I do the wrong thing and get super stressed about little things. I feel like I don't do my job right and I have to do a good job. I get worried about things going wrong and it replays over in my mind and I keep thinking I should have done better. It's so bad i can't even get myself to go now, like I've failed before I even get there. I feel like there is something wrong with me. I feel so sick about working and knowing I have to go again. I even considered applying for a new job but the job application process and prospect of interviews only makes the anxiety worse. :(  ... View more

@WheresMySquishy I'm feelimg a bit better today and part of yesterday too. I'm not in the hospital any more and I'm starting to get back into doing things. It's quite overwhelming and I'm getting tired a lot just getting through each thing. My boyfriend is helping me through it alot though. He is being a really good support. I actually had a productive day and got things done and ate food amd relaxed a bit which is nice. I'm having these mini moments here and there where I keep doubting myself so I'm just constantly trying to push through. Hopefully things will start to feel a bit better. Thanks for replying.  ... View more

Thank you @Bre-RO . It's been really hectic.  ... View more

@Tiny_leaf I'm not really sure. Mostly I've been sleeping or colouring in my book and I tried watching tv too. They gave me some medication to help me calm down so that I could sleep last night.  ... View more

Thank you both @Tiny_leaf @Pasta . I'm feeling pretty lonely and lost. I have round the clock nurses checking in with me. It's full on. And I have to do a wellness plan and stuff.  ... View more

I haven't really been posting much recently because I felt like I couldn't keep my posts safe and within the community guidelines and I didn't want to distress others. But I have had a shitty week and I tried to do serious harm to myself and now I am an inpatient in a psych ward at the hospital. I feel like a disgrace and a failure. I broke the law and did things I shouldn't have. Thankfully I'm eating again and not feeling nauseas and sick but my anxiety has been coming and going. The doctors and nurses tell me that I'm in a safe place and did the right thing seeking help. Others had to make responsible decisions for me because I didn't care what happenned to me. I'm not really sure what is going to happen over the next couple days. I guess I'm just lucky that I'm still here.    :(   @Bre-RO @Jess1-RO @Maddy-RO @Tiny_leaf @WheresMySquishy @Pasta  ... View more