Hello. It's been a long time since I have posted on the forums. I took a long hiatus I guess.    I feel kind of down about a few things. The main one being that I am reaching 26 years old and I don't feel ready to move on from being a 'young person.' It means I won't be able to contact Kids Helpline for support any more or go to Headspace, both of which have been a huge part of my life since I've been 18. I have a few months to go. And I really really hate it. I don't know what support groups are out there, or if there even are any for people my age and if they're free like the Headspace groups. Same here with Reach Out. :(    I'm so scared of this concept of 'growing up' even though I have been adulting for years now. I definitely don't feel like I'm successful or whatever. I'm still taking medication for anxiety and depression. I got out of my suicidal slump from just over a year and a couple months ago, which I know is great. But can I say that things feel right? Not all the time. I still get sad for what seems like no reason out of the blue. I still get anxious about going to work when I have it. I still feel like ultimately I am not good enough. I still have this deep sadness about my relationship with my parents and past trauma that's happened. It's a lot.    I don't really know why I am even posting this. I more feel like it's my brain having word vomit that needs to come out. Things just don't feel right and I don't know why and I don't know what I need or what direction I'm heading in. It feels like a mess. I guess I am afraid of spiraling down into some dark mental health hole and then I won't have those people to turn to that have helped me so much. It hurts. It feels almost like grief, because I feel like I'm going to be losing people. :( and I'm sad.. ... View more

Hello. It's been a while since I've felt a sense of real failure and shame of myself. The feelings that I am not good enough have been really creeping up on me recently. I'm trying not to let it get to me but I honestly kind of just feel like crying. I don't feel like a strong, successful person. In truth, I feel like I can barely cope with being an adult. I don't know if it's just lockdown that's getting to me but everything feels like a struggle. I'm not getting to bed until really late and that causes me to sleep in until early afternoon. I'm also out of work due to lockdown. Have been since March . And recently I've applied for a few jobs and keep receiving rejection emails. I feel so helpless tbh. :(  ... View more

Hello. For the past couple days I have been feeling depressed. Low motivation and anxious and tense for what feels like no reason. I think it is a PMS thing which is enhanced by my anxiety and depression. But it is really getting me down. I feel like I have had crazy moods and that I have been frustrating my bf. What's worse is I haven't felt like wanting to be intimate on a sexual level at all . So if he goes to touch me trying to be cute or initiate what he would consider 'pleasure' I just seem to want to retract and I just don't want to be sexual. :( I hate myself for it. I love him and want to be close to him and my damn moods and feelings ruin everything. There seems to be only a couple of days a month where I am actually turned on amd want to be intimate. What is wrong with me? :(  ... View more

I'm not having a good day so far and I have slept in and haven't even gotten out of bed yet. I had shit sleep with bad dreams and I just feel down, emotionally and I don't know why. I feel sad and miserable. I feel like shit :( I wish I didn't feel this way :(  ... View more