Hey all, it's been a while since I've been on here. As of recently, I've been going though change and business associated with year 12. However, I have been looking at myself as a fat, arrogant and self centered person. I feel like I'm going insane with me attempting to get away with pinching money off my parents for my own bad habits, expecting different results but always getting the same, further pushing me to the edge of doing some really severe actions to myself along with not trying to improve myself. I just want some tips on good ways to improve on myself, This is more of a hidden chronicle and the only way I'm getting things out.  ... View more

As a guy about to go into year 12, I'm in constant fear and sad about the ways in which my own head is telling me. I try to speak up to my parents about this mental gymnastics I'm going through of depression, anxiety and stress leading me to become a bumbling mess, I like to be independent and not have someone constantly watching over me like I have in my current situation.    I've tried countless times to speak up about what I'm going through and my grades are going down just like my ability to be a person people want to be around. I've tried seeking help but being poor is making my situation worse.  ... View more

Hello everyone, sorry if I wasn't replying to previous messages but I had my phone stolen. That's just adding to the problems I'm facing right now. I'm trying hard in school and going into year 12 next year is daunting. Making it worse is my dad putting me in a state where it's impossible for me to actually be happy after he looks at my work and says it's never good enough even though I take his advice. I've tried using the school as a way to communicate to my dad about the stress and depression I've had for who knows how long now but it's colminating into the thoughts of what my future may be and how I take things at my own pace and can't imrove quick enough for my dad to see I'm trying. Just today I received a message about me doing a redemption task for some work I have but that tells my dad how "I'm not trying." I don't know what to think anymore. ... View more

School and the pressure of parents expecting me to be at a level of high regards in terms of marks has made me a nervous, crying mess. I have been trying all of the methods to keep me calm and focused but I can't. My dad expects me to write an oral and present it to him (for English class) but I honestly cannot stop feeling like he'll be so judgemental of it. His vision of me is so old timey and doesn't get how I'm feeling even though I've tried to tell him about how I feel. ... View more

I have seen many counselors, I'm seeing a psychiatrist but nothing is helping. I just go back to the  emotional state I've been in for years. I've learned a lot about why I am like this however, all the methods of trying to keep myself stable are not working. I've tried so many things to keep me at a point where I am capable to think without having 1 thought of self hatred, the past or my anxiety. I honestly feel like I have nothing to go after. I honestly think of what it would be like without me here and it looks bloody fantastic. People wouldn't have to deal with my utter bullshit I bring around me like an odor I can't get rid off. I just wanna live a normal life. Inevitably, I just want nobody to see me or love me or even say may name ever again. ... View more

Hello there, it’s been a while since I last posted here.   As of recently, I have had a move from my mum’s house to my dad’s; which includes transferring schools. This is what is getting to me the most. My moods have not been all to great ariund everyone, I now see a psychiatrist every Friday to help manage and describe my feelings but I still have a lot of progress to go before I will feel happy again.   Due to the move of schools, my results will be esentially be only the time I’ve actually been here. That means that I have technically have already failed but redemtion tasks are available. The increased pressure to complete school and be prepared for exams within Year 11 (currently Year 11) and 12.   This adds to my emotions, by putting more stress on me than ever. And my dad is constantly pushing me into working on school and ways of nit having distractions is a distraction in his eyes. This puts a lot on me about how I feel about myself and how my dad sees me; if I am not doing work, I feel like I’m a failure to him in my eyes, and further pushing emotions out.   Trying to talk to my dad about my emotions is hard, because of that sorta focus on him and what he’s thinking of me. This was the same with my mum and stepdad however its ever increasing hold on me has a grasp so tight, it’s forcing me ti do things I shouldn’t.   I don’t know anymore, stress, depression and anxiety are practically controlling my life to the point I have experienced before. And I don’t wanna go there again, ... View more

I've been flung into a situation I cannot get out of. So I have done 'bad' behavior and my mum/step-dad are mad bat-shit outta hell. So all I did was use my iPad in my room late at night and my brother found out and told my mum and step-dad, which lead to a fight that made me lash out at myself and them, went into my room and punched a massive hole into the wall. Which leads me on to the point that my mum and step-dad are now forcing me to stay with my dad (by the way, is now unemployed and lives with my grandmother in her home) once he comes back from a holiday which happens to be this weekend. This has made me so angry and sad at myself and leads me down the rabbit hole of me either dying or running away. ... View more

Hello wanderer of the ReachOut forums,   I have created this page for discussion of any music related topics. Feel free to talk about stuff like: Genres of music, instruments you may play, recommendations and so on! I for example, listen to mainly Hip-Hop / Rap music and I do not play any instruments.    Some recommendations I give for artists in my favourite genre are; XXXTENTACION Logic Kendrick Lamar Migos BROCKHAMPTON   Now, have a wonderful day and discuss away! ... View more

I just feel so weird right now, and within my own personal space, I cannot just assimilate with my peers around me. I know this is normal but I just cannot stop feeling this way and it tears me apart about my own self and my reflections.   I have made an impact some way or another, I know.But I feel like that is worthless to me and its just a part of a history unknown to many. ... View more