Hey @Totally_Not_Riley 
Thank you for sharing this with us, it sounds like this has been really difficult and confusing for you and I’m really glad that you’ve reached out for some support.
I was wondering if you have spoken to anyone about this and shared how you’re feeling? I was also wondering if you had any medical supports through a GP or mental health professional that you could talk to about this, or if this is something you’d consider?
If you’re interested in having a read, we have a collection of articles and resources about gender that you may find helpful. I also wanted to share this article that provides LGBTQIA+ specific support services if you were wanting some more support.
How are you feeling after sharing this?
Remember that we are all here to support and listen to you.