Aw @Skylarswims, you must be feeling so exhausted by the thoughts and feelings you have atm 😓. It takes so much energy to get out of bed every day when life feels pointless and not worth it. You said that you just want to be happy again - can I ask how long it's been that you've felt this way?
I wanted to acknowledge that even though life is really hard right now, you found two reasons that make life worth living. It takes a strong person to find some positives during such challenging times. What's your dogs' name + your favourite song/artist at the moment? Music is one of my favourite things in the world, and I can't imagine getting through tough times without it.
I can imagine how uncomfortable it would be to have suicidal thoughts every day. Though it's horrible to hear that you're going through this, I'm so happy you decided to open up about it. Nobody deserves to handle that on their own, and we want to be here for you.
I will send you an email today to see how you're feeling today. Keep an eye out for that when you get a chance 🙂