Help!
Hey,
I keep randomly having episodes of anger and breakdowns, and I honestly feel like I can't control my emotions properly. I'm also overly sensitive and I lose control of myself whenever I'm having one of these episodes.
I think I may a bit bipolar and a bit of a perfectionist but I'm not too sure if I should seek help yet.
I just feel so trash for lashing out in random fits of anger and when I calm down, I realise that I shouldn't have reacted that way but in that moment, I feel like there was nothing else that could have been done.
I haven't self harmed, but I have a habit of hurting myself during breakdowns. Once, I lost my temper and I fractured my knuckle by punching the wall. I wasn't aware of what I was doing but afterwards, I felt something warm dripping down my knuckle and it was blood....
Thanks,
Stressed 16 year old female.
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UPDATE:
Recently, I've been coping a bit better, however, I think I'm very close to the edge...
I'm not sure but I feel so worked up all the time and even my friends are starting to question why I'm always so angry.
I think I'm just stressed from all assignments and exams and stuff but I really don't know why I'm always having these angry breakdowns.
I also don't know how this is possible but it scares me because I can't seem to remember what I said during my breakdown, and I almost have no memory of what occurred during it, but only the fact that I had one of my little fits again...
I feel like I'm going insane!
Please help me :(((
Thanks
It's great that you're feeling you've been coping a bit better @stressedstudent. Is there anything specific that you think may be helping you with this? (i.e. self-care, chatting to a trusted support person?). It's also great that you're noticing that you're feeling close to the edge, this means that you're becoming more aware of what's going on for you and can then work on using strategies to help 
With regards to the angry breakdowns you describe, feeling on edge, impatient, overwhelmed, pressured, stressed re uni can all contribute to letting it all out in a bit of an outburst.
Are you chatting to a counsellor or do you use a helpline when you're feeling more on edge / stressed?
Hi, @Erin-RO
I'm currently not chatting with anyone when I'm stressed, but I'm honestly contemplating on it...
I really feel like I'm not in touch with my emotions and they're all running out. Like you know in Inside Out??? Joy and sadness went missing so the other emotions were controlling Riley. It's almost like that except the only emotions are Sadness and Anger.
Doesn't exactly help that I have 8 exams in the next week or so ahaaa stress stress stress!!!
It's okay, I'll hopefully get over it.
Hi @stressedstudent,
Thank you for coming back to ReachOut and talking to us when you are feeling this way- we are here for you
You mentioned earlier that writing down how you are feeling has been helpful. A lot of young people on our forums use journalling to help get all the big feeling out on paper- sometimes even drawing what they feel like to you with colours and shapes if words are hard to describe the feeling.
It sounds like there is a lot happening for you this week and that you are contemplating speaking to someone when you are feeling stressed. @Anonymous has recommended kids helpline who can be really great if you just need to talk through something. Did you end up talking to your mum about what you are feeling at the moment?
We are here to support you this week if you need to chat, want some support to manage the stress and to lend a listening ear. ReachOut also has some amazing resources on exam stress that you might find really helpful right now, you can find them here
hey @stressedstudent, just wanted to check in and see how you were and what your thoughts were on @Anonymous's suggestions for getting help? it seems like you're going through a really intense and overwhelming time right now and having the right support can make a really big difference.
In the meantime some things I have found helpful as a way of dealing with emotions that are too intense is practicing mindfulness, headspace has a free app that teaches you how to practice that and it can be a really helpful coping technique. Another way to cope when dealing with emotions is using this exercise as a way to ground yourself.
Hope to hear back from you soon!
Hi @DirtWitch!
I took a quick look at the suggestions you recommended, and it's shown to be effective at calming myself down (.... relatively). I'll make sure to deal with my emotions in a healthy way from now.
I just wanted to thank you for taking your time to check in on me, it really means a lot!
From,
StressedStudent 🙂
hey @stressedstudent! I'm glad to hear that what I've suggested has been helpful 🙂 Dealing with intense emotions can be really overwhelming and difficult and the fact that you are taking steps to manage that is really impressive! If you're ever struggling and want to talk I hope you'll post again so we can all help out ❤️
