Not sure what to write here
I'm not really sure how to use this but everything feels so hopeless I'm finally making an account and a post.
I've been really struggling with motivation and I've been really really sad, crying a lot in the past week. My girlfriend is amazing support but there's only so much she can do and it breaks her heart because she offers to buy me nice food and other things to cheer me up but nothing seems to work. I go to therapy about once a month but I don't really talk about how sad I get, we usually just focus on my anxiety and stress and he is often trying to push me out of my comfort zone. I am an artist and often I've been excited about a drawing or something but I haven't been able to draw anything in a long time. I recently just finished with uni and thought all my stress and unhappiness would go away but I feel the worst I've felt in a long time.
Thanks for the space to vent, I don't know who will see this anyway.
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Hi @Mango_Frog, welcome to the ReachOut community, it’s great to have you here 😊 Big kudos to you for creating an account and making your first post - two great achievements right there!
I’m really sorry to hear what you're going through right now. Hopelessness and sadness can be so overwhelming, especially when they seem to come out of nowhere and don’t seem tied to a specific reason. It must be incredibly confusing and disheartening to feel this way after achieving something so significant like completing your university studies.
I can see that you have strong support from your girlfriend and therapist, which is really important. I know you mentioned that you don’t always talk about your sadness with your therapist, as you’re focusing on other areas right now. Given how much your sadness is affecting your motivation and enjoyment, I’m wondering how you would feel about bringing this up with them?
I’m also wondering, during times when you’ve felt a bit better, even briefly, what has helped? Are there any things, big or small, that have provided some relief, even if just for a moment?
If you’re up for a read, we have an article called ‘Why am I so sad all the time?’ that might offer some information or strategies to try that you may have not yet considered.
Thanks for reaching out here, the ReachOut community are here for you 🌻
Hi @Lily_RO,
Thanks for replying to my post!
Spending some time in the pool has helped me forget about how sad I've been feeling so I've been in the pool every day this week. But as soon as I come out it all comes flooding back and I feel the same again. I've felt this way a lot and it's been getting worse every year, but I was able to blame it on uni stress. Currently I've paused working for a couple months and I have all the time in the world to do what I want but I'm struggling to do anything or get out of bed.
It's hard to talk to my therapist about it because I'm not good at opening up and I never seem to have an appointment when I'm in a low period. I will try when I next go though to bring it up.
I've been told I have OCD, anxiety, a lot of self hate and self-inflicted pressure and all of that often makes me wish most days that I could see the world "normally" or "carefree".
I'm grateful for this space and the opportunity to anonymously vent.
Hey @Mango_Frog
Thank you for sharing more about how you have been feeling. It is really good to hear that you’ve been finding it helpful to spend time in the pool. It really has been the perfect weather for it!
I am sorry to hear that the moment you get out of the pool you feel so low again. That must be really tough to be dealing with.
I know you mentioned that you are taking some time off work, and that you are also an artist but recently haven’t had any motivation to draw anything. I was wondering if you have thought about setting a small goal each day to do something creative, like drawing something small? Do you think doing something like this might be helpful, or is there any other small goals you can set for yourself?
I also know that you mentioned that it is hard to talk to your therapist about this and it is very understandable, especially since your appointments don’t seem to align with when you’re in a low period. I was wondering if you have ever considered writing down how you are feeling when you’re in a low period and then taking it with you to your next appointment?
I wanted to let you know that if you are ever wanting some more support in between your appointments when you are feeling low and would like to talk to someone, KidsHelpline provide free one on one sessions for people aged up to 25 where you can speak with a counsellor over the phone or by webchat. You can find more information about it here. ReachOut also offers a free Peer Chat service here where you can speak with one of our peer workers one on one about what you are going through.
Also we sent you an email earlier to check in, could you please check your inbox for this?
I am really glad that you have found ReachOut and want to remind you that we are all here for you.
Take care 💜
