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TW: depressed

I have been depressed lately I've been doing everything right I done my copying strategies  which haven't helped 😕  it's like everything is just falling apart  

It's more around family and friends everyone left me which is fine I deserve it   it's like family hate me because I was looking out for someone it feels like I did the wrong thing  I know it's a special time of the year for lots of people  for me it's depressing and sad it's like I just want it to go and get it over with I feel like it's going so slow     it's hard doing it on your own for me    

 

It's sucks because people are judging me for my sexuality I wish I never said anything  why do I find it so hard to just explain my feelings and  emotions  I feel everyone judging me I don't Understand why 

Sorry if that doesn't make sense hope everyone is ok 🙂 

 

Is it normal to feel so mentally exhausted but not physically I don't feel tired yet I feel mentally down 

I feel flat 

Cup
CupPosted 23-12-2023 03:20 AM

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Lemon_Dolphin
Lemon_DolphinPosted 23-12-2023 07:14 PM

Hey, thank you for reaching out. I'm sorry to hear you've been feeling so low. 

I totally get what you mean about feeling flat. And I really hope you'll feel better soon.

It must be so hard not feeling like you're family is supporting you during the Christmas season. It's great being able to find support here. And I just want to say, we are here to listen to and support you.

I know you said you've tried all your coping strategies and none of them are working. It's so hard when it feels like nothing you do is changing anything. Have you got any other ideas that you haven't really tried before? Perhaps some new strategies? Because I think sometimes what we need to cope changes over time depending on the circumstances.

 
Stormy-RO
Stormy-ROPosted 23-12-2023 11:35 AM

Hey @Cup I'm really sorry to hear that it feels like everything is falling apart. It makes sense that you may be feeling mentally down, even if nothing is physically wrong. I don't think that you're alone at all in feeling isolated or alienated from friends and family at this time of year and just want to get it over with. As hard as it is, many people may find themselves in the same situation as you're in, but I understand that this may not make it feel less lonely.

 

It sounds like you're putting in a lot of effort to find ways to cope and nothing has helped so far. I was wondering if there was anything extra or special that you could do to make this holiday season feel a bit more bearable, whether that's trying something new or rewarding yourself for the year gone by?

 

You also said that people have been judging you for your sexuality, and that you find it hard to explain your feelings and emotions. We wanted to let you know that your sexuality is always valid and if you are feeling judged or are unsure of where to go, there are great services like QLife who can help you navigate through this period. It may be the case that they can also help you find ways to communicate about your sexuality that feel more in control for you, if that's what you are hoping to do. How you are feeling in yourself after coming to terms with your sexuality?

 
 
Cup
CupPosted 23-12-2023 02:09 PM

Hey stormy ro 😀 

I kept my sexuality to myself for months never told anyone then I told someone it just feels everyone is judging  

I feel shit about coming out and saying it  I just feel like I have hurt everyone by saying it  I don't get why  lots of people have come out to me and what sexual thing they are but I just feel stupid for saying nothing

 

I haven't stopped crying I don't know what's wrong  😞 

 

I wish Christmas would hurry up because I am sick of it 

 

I lost all my family because I thought I was doing something right but clearly I didn't  i wish everything was fine 

Hope you enjoy yourself 😊

 
 
 
Stormy-RO
Stormy-ROPosted 23-12-2023 03:06 PM

Hey @Cup I can really hear how much this whole situation with your sexuality has made you feel particularly upset. It's understandable that after people coming out to you, you might want to be a part of that experience. The fact that you have hurt people isn't your fault, and their reactions to you may be stronger at this point when it's all new. It may be the case that things will be easier later, but it also makes sense that you're really affected by it right now. I'm sorry to hear that you can't stop crying too. Is there anything that might make things a bit lighter for you at the moment? Maybe talking to someone you trust could help.

 

We've just sent an email to make sure you're okay, so keep an eye out for that when you get the chance 🙂

 
 
 
 
Cup
CupPosted 23-12-2023 04:59 PM

@stormy  I am about to go to the shop my anxiety is kicked in  I haven't left the house in so long

 

Don't mind me having a panic attack about going  shopping 

 

I am unsure if I am allowed to say what I wanted to say I'll check with you in a private email soon 🙂 I'll text it later if you're still around after 7?

 
 
 
 
 
Marimo-RO
Marimo-ROPosted 23-12-2023 05:46 PM

Hi @Cup , I'm sorry to hear that your feeling very anxious about going shopping. Sudden changes in your routine can be very daunting since you haven't left your house in so long. We have sent you an email previously and you're more than welcome to respond to our moderation team via that email!

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