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Venting Speech

TW: Eating Disorder, Suicide Themes, Chronic Illnesses, Teenage Heartbreak

 

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hi, i'm anomynousgirl16.

all my life, i've felt... unreal? 

when i turned 12, i realised i was anorexic.

that was 4 years ago, and over time it's gotten worse.

i was influenced by the girls at school, maybe some guys.

i felt so, gross in my body after sending the nudes.
Maybe it was just me? but I was only 12... what did they expect?
I didn't know what i did was wrong, and when i did.. i wanted my body to disappear.
i've been put in group homes, I've attempted to take my life many times. i guess i'm just the wrong girl to be alive.
i'm actually in hospital currently, maybe that's odd but ig it just feels normal.
i've been suicidal all my life, i suffer from depression and crippling anxiety, not only that but i'm diabetic?
type 2 diabetes, over time i've developed epilepsy and i have seizures every now and then.
i miss my ex boyfriend? he's dating someone now though, and probably would choose his ex. over me.
it's so stupid realising he doesn't love me? I mean, i dont blame him for not loving me but why. 
why would he say to my face "i love my new gf" instead of just going to her. it hurts so bad.

but that's all for now,

yours truly
anomynousgirl16.

 

anonymousgirl16
anonymousgirl16Posted 03-10-2021 11:32 PM

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Janine-RO
Janine-ROPosted 05-10-2021 01:46 PM

Hi @anonymousgirl16 , 

 

Welcome to our online community, and thanks so much for sharing what's been happening for you- just to let you know that we have made some edits to your post, to keep it in line with our community guidelines. 

We're sorry that your post was removed, that was an error on our part- we're glad that you've found our space and were able to share some of your story with us here. 

 

It sounds like you've been through some really tough times in your life- living with chronic illness can be really tough and isolating, especially when you're young- if you want to chat to other people in the community who really get what it's like, we do have this space here to chat about disablity and chronic illness 🙂 

 

Being in hospital can be really hard, but it's great that you're getting the care that you need- do you know how long you'll be staying in for? You mentioned that you're also living with an eating disorder, I hope that you'll be able to get linked in with some really good supports to help you through that while you're in there. 

 

Have you heard of the Butterfly Foundation? They have some great online support groups for people recovering from eating disorders, sometimes it can help a lot to chat with people who understand what it's like-, there's also a space here where people have shared their stories of recovery from anorexia 

 

Hope things are OK with you today - we're glad you found our space

 

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