Suicide

Suicide Call Back Service: 1300 659 467 http://www.suicidecallbackservice.org.au/

We're genuinely very sorry you feel that way. Reach Out is not a crisis service so we encourage you to call Suicide Call Back Service (mentioned above) which is a crisis line.

We had to remove your post as our community guidelines do not allow posts that may be triggering to others on this board, as well as providing specific medical information. Our guidelines are here: http://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Welcome-and-Announcements/MUST-READ-ReachOut-com-Guidelines/m-p/16#U16

It's very brave of you to reach out about this and although we can't answer your specific question, we hope you reconsider your actions.