Hi @Betty123 ,
Firstly, please know it is not pathetic at all that you are grieving the loss of not only one, but 2 dogs. Dogs are known as 'man's best friend' and rightly so. You have every right to grieve the loss of your dogs. Give yourself that room to grieve and know it is only natural.
Griefline is a wonderful resource you may be interested in. Griefline, along with many others, recognise the significance of losing a pet. You can have a read through this resource which talks about losing a pet. Griefline's forums and phone line are for those who are 18+ years old - I'm not sure whether you fit into this category.
Remember, you can also contact KidsHelpline 1800 55 1800 and Headspace1800 650 890.
Remember, you are not alone. Please take care.