I fucking hate my life
Why are things so unfair in my life….like idk, everything is just so hard to handle and deal with 😭 also, I just started uni recently and I’m still doing the same course that I started doing since July of last year. Like in the last semester, the units for this course were easy and I was able to pass them all, but in this semester, the units for this course are a lot harder than I thought it could be….and I’m worried that I won’t be able to do well within at least some or most of the assessments for this semester. Also, it’s not just the uni stuff I’m complaining about, there’s also other things in my life that are fucking up my mental health in general which always has been, and I’ve been dealing with it for years now.
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UPDATE: I got a call from the psychologist yesterday evening, and my first appointment with her will be on Monday. It's gonna be via Telehealth though so ummm yea. She was so lovely during my first impression of her throughout that phone call so I really do hope I get to have good experiences with her!
Hey @Blueberries
That's so good to hear!! It's great that you didn't have to wait too long for that appointment, and telehealth appointments can be just as good as face-to-face appointments. I hope it goes well for you, let us know how it goes if you would like 🙂
So I got a referral from my GP for him to refer me to a psychologist and he said that they'll call me in a few weeks time. I've been self diagnosing myself with mental health conditions this whole time so now I wanted to get a formal diagnosis. I hope that my first session whenever it'll be will go well with whoever im gonna be having as my psychologist.
Hey @Blueberries
That is such a big step to take and I think that it is a really good one in terms of getting a proper diagnosis for your mental health. I really hope it goes well for you, thank you for updating us!
Yeah, the reason why I wanted to get a formal diagnosis was because in some cases I would need to provide evidence of that medical diagnosis especially if it's a current one if I were to apply for like special consideration at my uni for example. Not just that of course, but for some other cases in the future too. @Amber-RO
Thats completely understandable @Blueberries It is really great that uni allows special considerations, but having to prove that you have certain MH can be tricky without a formal diagnosis. I am glad that you're able to get one soon!
@Amber-RO and also I wanted to see if I have any other mental health conditions other than depression and anxiety that I haven't considered or known of for myself 😊
Hi @Blueberries
Thank you for reaching out here on the Forums!
Sounds tough for you at the moment with uni and how the course is getting more challenging as it progesses. You have done great in the course last year and passed all of them so congrats for that! Study can get more challenging as you get further into it and I wonder have you spoken to you teacher or anyone at uni for support? I'm at uni and they told us we can get support with the courses if we need help. I have an Equitable Learning Plan which gives me a whole lot of options for when I get stuck wtih something.
Just wanted to check i about the other things in your life you mentioned. Is that something you wanted to talk more about? We can often not address things until we have to not when they first come up.
Hi @Pete-RO
I have emailed by teachers with the questions and stuff that I’ve been struggling to do so far. I also have an Equitable Learning Plan so I guess that can also make it quite a lot easier but yeah I’ll have to see how far I can go with the whole thing. My course also has an extra study support that happens every Thursday on campus, so I might plan on going there when I really feel like I need the extra study support. Thank you.
Well yeah, there’s something that I would like to talk about regarding other things that are happening in my life but I won’t get into that now because it’s already nighttime and I have to go to sleep.
Night night!
Great to her that you have a plan to get on top of things. Uni can take time to get used to and how you feel about it might change. With some support and reframing how you think and handle things you might work it out in time.
ReachOut is here if and when you want to talk about the other things that are happening in your life.
I hope you have a good sleep tonight!
It’s just that right now I don’t feel motivated and yeah, I don’t know how else I’m gonna go about it so.
Hey @Blueberries ,
Uni can be tough, but it sounds like you made a good start my getting reasonable adjustments plan made.
Are you interested in what you are studying?
Here's a few tips on getting motivated which may be of interest: https://au.reachout.com/articles/top-5-motivation-boosters
All the best with uni!
Hey @Blueberries ,
It's O week this week at uni, right? Sorry if we're out of the loop in terms of uni dates.
How did you find it? Is that what is adding to these difficult emotions tonight?
And also, I don't have anyone in my life (in real life) that I can easily vent and let out my feelings to so that adds another thing to my difficult emotions right now.
Just to check in, do you feel that venting here has been helpful for you tonight @Blueberries?
I'm not trying to sound rude or anything, but I prefer if you can respond to my concerns instead of just asking me that question, please. 🙂
Thank you. 🙂
@Blueberries I saw that you had said you didn't have anyone to vent to in your life and that you'd gotten some support from some of the other moderators and wanted to check in on how you were travelling, and how you're feeling after having shared with us where you're at.
I only just saw your other post below about uni/employment and can hear that you're having a rough time with finding what will work for you. It can certainly be a struggle, and something that a lot of young people find very challenging. I don't necessarily have a solution for you, other than to keep trying new things and to lean on the supports around you to help you figure out your next steps. The things that don't work for you are just as important as the things that do, as they can help you figure out little by little the direction you could go.
also, when I think about the fact that I hate myself and that things aren't gonna get better - well then yeah that generally is the case, things will NEVER get better.
Yeah, things in this semester in terms of the units I'm doing right now are such hard units/subjects to do and I don't know how I'm gonna go on about the rest of this semester in terms of the assessments and all that. Like im scared that I won't be able to do well in them and would then need to resubmit the assessment and so forth. Also, im doing the course part time but im unemployed which is another thing - like I guess you can say I low key wish I should've chose full time because the reason why im really hesitant to look for work is because 99% of the jobs require you to interact with other people, and as someone whose been struggling to fully interact/communicate verbally with people throughout my whole life, im really scared about having to work at a place where I need to interact like at least more than 40-50% of the time and I also tend to see the negatives when it comes to my first impressions of people, especially if it was in class or at a workplace. Like if I know those are the people that im not gonna get along with or whatever, then I would feel like giving up already.
However, when I think about owning a business (like an online business) so that I can be in my own company, it's like I wish I have the capability to do that but that requires a lot of planning out and etc. etc. which seems really overwhelming and time consuming.
