Feeling better.
I've been taking care of myself, and it's showing. Bursts of anger have been less frequent, and when they do pop up I usually do something with the energy; gardening, journalling privately, walking the dogs, etc. anything that needs to be done. Even just journalling.
The house is not better though. Still a lot of mess, and I still feel super anxious if I feel like asking my roommates to do something easy (i.e clean up your dishes/mess!!!). It's frustrating watching one of my roommates do 90% of the cleaning and cooking for her boyfriend, even though they work basically the same work week. He just... doesn't get it. We're hoping he will when they move out.
I am getting along with them again, mostly. I've found that a policy of total and complete honesty is the most rewarding, but I'm making strides in aiming to keep calm and remain kind to my friends. That doesn't mean that angry thoughts don't ever happen, I just make sure I take a beat before I say or do anything.
I got terribly unwell about 2-3 weeks ago with the flu, but the symptoms and the lasting effect it had on me (I'm still feeling drained/coughing etc even now) I think I can drum up to my utter stress about this whole situation. It was rough.
I've been feeling much closer to my partner, and we've both opened up a ton to each-other! I feel so much closer to him, it's so great. Starting to really fall for him again... 🙂 It's a good feeling, and I'm starting to see some of my hard work on my mental health pay off.
Roommates and I are starting to really bond again, I think. Although they are still planning to move out, which I think is for the best.
I'm really excited for the next phase of my life, which is a feeling I haven't had for months! Been feeding myself and my boyfriend with healthy food, and focusing on my work and study. Just really allowing time away from everyone. The group is super involved with everything, it's often very overwhelming.
My friendship group is going through another shit-show of drama (which i'm not heavily involved in, thank god!). But I've been able to lend an ear and a different perspective to a couple of people. Whatever they do is up to them, but I have hope that things will work out.
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Hi @lavender-girlfriend, it's really nice to hear from you again! It's so great to hear that you have been feeling better and taking care of yourself. It sounds like you have been putting a lot of effort into taking care of your well-being and mental health needs, and it must be a really nice feeling to realise that all the hard work is paying off. It's great to hear that you have found activities to do when you’re feeling frustrated, those all sound like really grounding strategies.
You mentioned that there is still a lot of mess in the house, and that your roommate's boyfriend doesn't do much of the cleaning or cooking. I imagine that would be super frustrating for you, I can totally understand why all the mess would get on your nerves. I am curious whether you found any useful tips from the ‘managing difficult roommates’ Portia-RO shared?
On the plus side, it sounds like your relationship with your roommates has been improving. Will you have new roommates move in when your current roommates move out?
It's so great to hear that you are feeling a lot closer to your partner. Opening up to each other sounds like it has brought the two of you closer together. What a great feeling that must be!
Reading your post I picked up such a strong sense of positive energy, and I just wanted to acknowledge that like you, we are so excited for you and the gains you have made towards your mental health 🙂 Other than work and study, have you got any other plans coming up to look forward to?
