Hey there @xGummieDollx and welcome to ReachOut! 🙂
I'm sorry to hear that you've had abusive relationships in the past, it can be really difficult to get out of and move on from those kinds of relationships. It's great to hear that you've been going to counseling and made some friends, have you spoken to them about how you've been feeling recently?
Wanting to go to tafe and get your learners sound like excellent goals, are they still something you want to do? It's okay to pursue your own goals while still having feelings or liking someone else. Feelings can be confusing and hard to understand at the best of times. It can help to talk them over with someone you know, what do you think?