Hey there @litgym, are you safe?   I can understand how overwhelming these thoughts must be right now. It is difficult to see our own worth when we're feeling upset. Although it is hard to see it now, there are people who care about you. Firstly, all of us here on RO think you are a wonderful person! You offer amazing and empathetic support, positive threads and posts and great reflections on what you need for your own mental health. Some of the other people you've talked about on here, such as your great GP and your favourite teacher care.    I remember awhile ago you shared a picture of some messages on your mirror, from some other users? Do you think finding some more messages would be helpful to add to those? It's okay to have these feelings, feeling like nothing can be overpowering but sometimes little reminders like those can help us remember that we aren't nothing.  ... View more

Hey there @redhead, that sounds super frustrating to be refused by the Dr, as Eden has already asked, did they give you a reason? If you're not able to go to the psych ward tonight, do you have a safety plan to help you get through the evening? ... View more

Hey there @Eden1717, thank you for confirming your safety.    You're not being rude at all, I can only imagine how frustrating it must be to hear people tell you the same thing when you've already tried it yourself and for so long.  When I feel like nothing is working, I try to turn to distractions, such as some from this list here. You've probably tried many different things and it's okay if you don't want to try anything else.   I'm sorry that I don't have any answers or solutions, but we are always here to listen.   ... View more

Hey @redhead, thank you for confirming your safety :) Will you be able to make a plan with your CM to help you stay safe tonight? I'm glad that writing it out was helpful for you, showing it to your CM sounds like a great idea. I hope you're meeting with them goes well. ... View more

Thank you for confirming your safety @litgym. This specialist GP sounds super frustrating, would you feel comfortable telling your regular GP about how you've been feeling with the specialist and your psych? It's okay if you don't connect or feel comfortable around a particular professional, some professionals aren't for everyone. Resting with some sleep sounds like a nice way to spend the rest of the day, is there anything else you'd like to do? ... View more

Hey there @Eden1717, It's always okay to start a new thread if you feel that you need one.    Having a new experience like the one you're describing sounds quite overwhelming. Do you think it'd be worth sharing some of this with your GP?    There's nothing wrong with letting out a big scream  (preferably into a pillow so you don't alarm anyone), sometimes it can be a great way of letting out some of the pressure we're feeling. Are there any self-care activities that you can do right now? Such as listen to music or watch TV? We're here for you Eden       ... View more

Hey there @redhead, are you safe right now? Even though it hasn't made you feel happy, it's wonderful to hear that your dr is increasing your T dose. Although you're unable to share it, did writing about how you're feeling help at all? It's great to see how mindful you are of our community guidelines. Do you think you'd be able to tell your CM about how you're feeling? ... View more

Hey there @litgym, The situation with KHL sounds super frustrating. While it can be a helpful service for some, for others it can be difficult. You are 100% valid in your experiences with them, do you think sending them an email about how you've been feeling would be helpful for you? GP's often run late, don't they? Have you been in to see her yet? Sleeping and chocolate sound like some nice self-care activities for after this appointment, what do you think? ... View more

Hi there @CEVRAM and welcome to ReachOut,    It sounds like there is a lot going on for you right now, coping with loneliness and feeling unworthy all the time can be overwhelming. Making friends and keeping those lasting friendships can definitely be tricky, as it can be frustrating when others are dismissive or don't initiate conversations. ReachOut has some great articles on friendships over here that you might be interested in reading, including one on things to do if you're feeling lonely. What do you think?   You mentioned dealing with anxiety and depression, do you see anyone, such as a counsellor or psych, about what you're going through?  ... View more

Hey there @redhead,    I am sorry to hear about what happened, it sounds like last night was incredibly difficult. I can see that you tried to keep yourself safe by going for a walk and reading your safety plan despite how difficult things were. Is there any self-care you can do today?   Will you be seeing your CM soon?  ... View more

Hi there @UltraSleepy and welcome to the forums :)   Thank you for confirming your safety.  I can hear that last night was really hard for you, it's great that you were able to reach out to both us and a support line. Did the support line give you any distraction suggestions to help with the hallucinations?  ReachOut has a great list of distractions here that you might like, what do you think?    Flashbacks can be so difficult to manage and sound like a terrible experience for you. I was wondering, do you have any supports that you can talk to about these things? Such as a counselor, GP or psych?    I also wanted to add that I edited out the detail of self harm from the end of your post as it is against our community guidelines to specify types of self harm.  ... View more

Hey there @Eden1717,  Just letting you know that I removed the detailed part of your post. Thank you for confirming your safety :)    I hope the chat with your GP, even though it won't be immediate, hopefully you can work out some supports that will help in the long term.  Recovery can be such a long journey, and it is often hard to find the right one strategy that works for you. It's okay to be upset about it all, it sounds so frustrating to be exhausted all the time and not feel okay. I'm sorry that I can't offer any better advice or suggestions to help at the moment, and although I will be logging off shortly, we are always here to listen. I know you've probably tried them already, but do you think you could give some of your self-care or distraction strategies another go tonight?    ... View more

Nice work on making an appointment @Bananatime04! :) It's absolutely okay to see a different counselor if you don't like the one you've seen. The counselors are there to support you and sometimes a particular counselor isn't for everyone. As I'll be logging off soon, what are some things you'll be able to do tonight to help stay safe? ... View more

Hey there @Bananatime04,    First of all, I wanted to say that it's great you let TOM-RO know over the weekend that you needed to be banned. It's okay to make mistakes and post, but letting someone know shows great responsibility. You've been going through so much recently and have been trying so hard. Even though it didn't work out, I'm proud of you for seeing your school counselor. I know in your old thread you mentioned you were going to try the other one, have you had any luck there?   I also noticed you tagged another user in your old thread, was there something in particular bothering you today? ... View more

Hey there @Cheeseburger, thank you for the update :) I hope things continue to go well for you and this current guy. ... View more

Hey @litgym, it's great that you were able to speak to your favourite teacher today! :) Talking to the right people about how we've been can feel so rewarding. Hopefully you are able to chat with your head of house tomorrow, is there anything you wanted to talk to him about? Is going to ED something you'd like to do? Do you think you'd be able to bring up going to an inpatient ward with your psych today? ... View more

Language and international relations sounds like such an interesting course @Eden1717, did you enjoy it?   It's okay that you don't find helplines helpful, though it's important to contact a crisis line when you're feeling unsafe, sometimes helplines aren't helpful. When you see your GP next Friday, do you think you'd be able to ask her about other supports?    I can see from your posts how hard you're trying, despite how stressful everything is. It's okay to be tired and want to cry. It can be so difficult to cope with overwhelming feelings and thoughts, especially when you don't have any supports to lean on. Is there anything you can do today to try and distract from these thoughts? ... View more

That's great to hear @redhead :) I hope it goes well for you and that things are sorted out with your meds. While you wait for your appointment, is there anything you can do to keep occupied? ... View more

Hey there @litgym, It's unfortunate that the private wards have an age limit. As @Eden1717 has said, you know what's best for you. I think you mentioned yesterday that you're seeing your GP today, is that right? Have you been able to speak to her about going inpatient? ... View more

It sounds like yesterday was quite a productive day for you @scared01 :)   Hopefully everything ends up going well with the hospital and your surgery can happen on time. Is there plenty of time to get organised for hotels and such?    Broadening your knowledge with different courses sounds like a great way to get a feel for the sector and help you decide what you like and don't like as it's always okay to be unsure about what you want to do :)   I hope you're having a good day today :) ... View more

Hi there @Healed and welcome to ReachOut,   Just letting you know that I have edited out some of the specific details as they go against our Community Guidelines.  Thank you for sharing what has worked for you, hopefully your advice may help any others who are struggling with the same issue.    I've also sent you an email, so please keep an eye on your inbox :) ... View more

Hey @Saltwaterdreamtime, have fun at the work conference! :)   Some kid is probably very happy to have found your board, is there anyone you know who can help you get another one? Or let you borrow theirs for the time being?    A broken nose sounds painful! It can be really scary to fall off a skateboard (or anything) and fall. Though from your negatives into positives post, it sounds like you landed in front of a good house :) ... View more

Hey there @redhead, how are you doing today? You mentioned earlier that you're seeing your psychiatrist today, will you be meeting them soon? ... View more

Hey there @Saltwaterdreamtime,   I'm glad you're feeling okay today, do you have anything on?   Having an accident sounds tough, though it's great you didn't end up with any broken bones. Have you be able to find your board? ... View more

Hey there @DruidChild,   That sounds like an interesting strategy. Fictional characters can often have a special place in our hearts and imagining what their lives may be like "behind" the book or screen can be a wonderful way of focusing on something else and slowing down. I'm glad that you've been finding it helpful :)   Writing down a sleep schedule sounds like a great idea. Sleep is so important and can often affect how we feel throughout the entire day. ReachOut has a great article on how to get a good night's sleep over here, we also had a Getting Real on Sleep Hygiene that may also have some ideas. What do you think?   ... View more

Hey there @Eden1717,   Well done for trying to call a crisis line. It sounds so frustrating to have to deal with a helpline that won't help or listen to you. I'm sorry that they weren't helpful, you absolutely deserve to be listened to and supported.  Now that you've moved to a new city, do you know if there are any local supports that you could access? I know you already mentioned a GP, have they been able to suggest any other places?   You also mentioned going back to uni, what is it you'd like to study?  ... View more

Hey there @Bookworm2004, Assignments can be so tough to complete, even though the solution to not procrastinate and start earlier seems obvious, it's never as easy as people make it out to be. It can be tricky to reach out and ask questions about a task, but there are other ways of asking questions, such as writing a letter or emailing. Do you think that would be an option for you? Though it came from a stressful situation, it's great that you were able to open up to your mum and share your worries with her. Seeing someone can be a great way to get support for your feelings and work out strategies that can help you cope with overwhelming feelings.    Have you had a chance to look at the toolbox threads for self-care or coping strategy suggestions? It sounds like this morning has been rough for you, it can be so hard to recover from breaking down after being overwhelmed. Is there anyone you can talk to about these overwhelming feelings? ... View more

Hi there @Caspar and welcome to ReachOut :)   It sounds like you and this guy are wonderful friends. It can be frustrating when friendships trail off and seemingly end for no reason. Though some people can remain friends and rarely chat to each other, not everyone likes that and that's okay.  As @hellofriend has already suggested, organising a meet up with him may be a great way of giving you an opportunity to talk with him. As you've said, you enjoy his company and sometimes people can forget to reach out and organising things with their friends. What do you think?   You also mentioned that this is making it harder for you to make new friends at uni. Is this something that bothers you a lot? Making friends can definitely be a challenge, it can be hard to both meet people and connect with them to become friends. ReachOut has a great article on making friends over here that has some suggestions and ideas on how you can make friends, if you're interested :) ... View more

That's alright @scared01 :) It's always your choice how you choose to access services. Good luck with talking to your dr next week, hopefully you get some more clarity and support for yourself and your pop :) Do you have some self-care or another activity planned for tonight? I hope you have a good evening! :) ... View more