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I have participated in a funeral. It was my great grandmother's funeral. It was meaningful to me because I got to say goodbye to her. even though i cried the whole way through it. I still remember all the wonderful times I spent with her. I have so many memories of her. If I didn't attend her funeral I would live in regret about it for the rest of my life. She was a kind, caring, loving, passionate person. She lived in a nursing home and me and my family would visit her every weekend on a saturday. we would take her out for lunch. we would take her out shopping. She was a great crafter. She always made birthday cards for me and my siblings. She always put a stick on a butterfly on our cards or something on our cards. It was so exciting to see the card she made. I would always open the card before the present. but she would always be taken to the hospital. and one day in June last year the doctors said there's nothing we can do to help her. So then she sadly passed away in June last year. right near my birthday. and that was the last time i saw and heard from her. I always think that she came back as a butterfly because when I'm at home there's always a white butterfly on my window sill. and i believe that she is watching over me and keeping me safe. I have kept some of her necklaces that she wore and a blanket,a handbag, and photos of me that were given to her. she was the best G.G (great Grandmother) I have ever had. She has a heart of gold and she was always so warm when I hugged her on my visits to her. i would always tell her my great achievements and she would be so so proud of me. and she always told never give up and pursue all my dreams and whenever it`s my birthday she`s there because my nan and family take a video of me blowing out the cake and her spirit is right next to me. and i can hear her voice singing with us. and I can feel her hands on my shoulders. It makes me feel glad and it makes me feel like she's still with us even though she has passed away. I sometimes cry in the privacy of my own room and lock my door so my parents don't find me crying and ask me millions of questions about why I'm crying. She will always live in my heart even when I die. I miss her every day of my life and I want her memory to live on forever. and i do visit her grave but i can`t now because of covid and the things we are allowed and not allowed to do but if covid wasn't around i would visit her every second weekend and put flowers on her grave. and i would tell her all my achievements. and my family doesn't know I'm still grieving about my great grandmother. but I don't want to tell them.