Hey @DrummaBoy
Thank you for sharing your story hear and being brave enough to do so. I hope you can find some support online here too and that you can feel that you are not alone.
I'm really proud of you for being so strong and resilient, especially during these uncertain and difficult times of COVID19.
I wonder if you are able to find a new hobby that might be connected to new friends, and can be pure 'yours'. Maybe something like cooking/baking, going for regular jogs, any sort of other arts and crafts since it seems you're a creative person (painting/knitting/drawing?), etc.
Kids Helpline and Headspace are some services that offer free and confidential phone and chat counseling if you would like to talk with a counselor about what you are going through.
Looking forward to your reply.
